Staring at him deeply, little by little, I slowly began to understand everything. I rejected him not because I don't like him on that level. I was afraid. I was so afraid to break my own principles. I was afraid that I might end up being enslaved by my emotions. I was afraid I'd end up getting consumed by that feeling. Nilagay ko siya sa pedestal dahil iyon ang naiisip kong tama. I let my mind control everything that I ended up lying to myself.
Natatakot ako na oras na sumugal ako, hindi ko na makakaya pang bumitaw. Because now, I realized I am very, very infatuated with him. At natatakot ako sa kahahantungan ng nararamdaman ko. Because this time, I know I can't hold back anymore. I couldn't even hold it when I was still in denial, how much more now that I finally accepted that I do like
