A Sweet Punishment

ASP 6

"Raphael.."

Natigilan ako roon. Hindi ko akalaing magtatagpo ang landas namin rito. Hanggang ngayon ay kinakabahan pa rin ako sa presensya nito.

Nanlalamig talaga ako kapag magkaharap kami at pinagpapawisan ng todo ang aking kamay.

"Idol I met you again!" Tuwang tuwang sambit ni Rage saka nagtaas ng kamay na para bang nagpapakarga. Kinarga naman siya ni Raphael.

We walked together since nakiusap si Rage na samahan kami nito. Hindi naman tumanggi si Raphael. Some of the people who's there took a picture of the two. Gusto ko sanang iiwas si Rage dahil maiisyu nanaman ito. But seeing him happy like this stop me from being a witch.

"I want to buy something mama. But mama won't allow it. Its a waste of money daw." Napalingon ako sakanya. He look like a kitten with his baby face look. Tila nagpapaawa. Kelan pa natuto ang anak ko maging ganito? He look like a baby actor in some movie.

"Really? Is your mama strictly said that?" Tila nahihipnotismong sambit nito sa anak na napakagaling umarte. Napupuyos nanaman ako. Hindi makapaniwala na nagawang magsalita ng anak.

"Opo." Maamo nitong sagot. Napatigil ako sa sagot nito.

"Really? Don't worry I'm here. Where it is? Let's buy it." Pang sspoiled nito.

"At the mall. But please can we go at the Big Ben? I want to go there. But mama is too busy to go with me." Big Ben is a clock tower near the river. It is beautiful and magical.

Hindi ko alam na gusto niya palang magpunta roon. I am too.

Lumingon sila sakin. Tila naiinis naman si Raphael dahil sa sinasabi ng anak.

"You're a bad mother. You let your child like this." Tagusang sambit ni Raphael. Tumango tango naman si Rage. The hell with this father and son thingy. I look like a freaking bad mother dahil pinagtutulungan nila ako.

"If only papa is here. If only I have a papa. We can do whatever I want whenever it is." Madramang sambit ni Rage. Gulat na gulat ako sa pinagsasabi nito. Damn! He's good at manipulating people's feeling. Nadadala niya ang kanyang ama.

But it hurt me when he said it. Kasalanan ko ito. Pinagkakaitan ko siya. But what if? Raphael won't accept him? As his own child. Parang natutuwa lang naman siya Kay Rage dahil sa kacute-tan nito.

"Do you have a papa?" Natigalgal ako nang umiling si Rage. I want to stop him but something in me won't do it.

"Since I am one year old. I'll never saw him even once. When I asked mama, she's always speechless. Maybe papa won't love us. Maybe papa have another family or doesn't want to be with us. Maybe he's mad at us." Nangingilid na ang luha ng anak. Nag iwas ako ng tingin at kalaunan ay lumapit Kay Rage. I tiptoed just to reach him and kiss his forehead.

"I'm so sorry baby." Nanghihina kong sambit. You're father is here. In front of you. Tila pinipiga ang puso ko sa iniisip. Hindi pa ako handa anak.

Lumabas kami ng London Eye at nagtungo sa pinakamalapit na restaurant. Kumain muna. After that nagpunta sa Big Ben. Tuwang tuwa siya nang nakita iyon sa malapitan. Walang paglagyan ang ngiti sa labi ni Rage.

"Thank you so much. Idol, you bring us there. My mama want there too. That's why I want there too." Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya. My baby Rage is really sweet. Simula ngayon tatanungin ko na siya kung anong gusto niya. Nakilala ko na siyang malihim. He didn't want to be a burden kaya hindi siya nagsasabi kahit gusto niya. Minsan lang talaga.

"You're always welcome, son." Natigalgal ako sa narinig.

S-Son?

"What po? Did I heard that you call me son?" Tila gulat at naguguluhang sambit ni Rage. May pag taas pa ng kilay.

Hinintay kong bawiin nito ang sinabi. Pero Hindi. Imbes na umiling ay tumango ito. Hanggang sa makitaan ko ng emosyon ang berde nitong Mata. Unti unting umalog ang balikat at nanginig si Raphael. Hanggang sa bumagsak ang luha sa Mata. My baby Rage start crying too. Iisa ang paraan ng pag iyak nila.

"Its not true that I hated you. That I won't love you. That I don't want to be with you. Or I have other family. I like you, I love you and I want to be with you. You're my only family." Saka niyakap ng mahigpit ang anak. Wala akong masabi. Naiyak na ko ng todo. Nabigla at Hindi makapaniwala. He love him. He cared for him. He want to be with him. I am wrong. But he said you. Ibig sabihin si Rage lang. Bakit nasasaktan ako? At the same time masaya?

"Really? You're my papa. Is it true mama?" Gulat at habag na habag na tanong ng anak. Parang piniga ang puso ko.

"Oo anak. He's your papa." Lalong umiyak ang aking anak. Tila mamatay sa kakaiyak. Ang sakit sa dibdib.

"I've been waiting for his touch mama. For his love and care. I've been patiently waiting mama. Mama..." Hagulgol na sambit nito. Hindi ko na nakayanan. I hug him. Raphael kiss my son forehead. Tila na miss ng sobra ang anak. Hindi ko na muna itatanong kung pano niya nalaman.

"I'm so sorry baby. I'm sorry." Panay ang hikbi ko. I'm so guilty.

"Its okay mama. As long as I saw my papa." Aniya at yumakap sa ama na para bang ayaw niya ng mawalay pa dito.

Panay ang iyakan naming tatlo makalipas ang ilang minuto ay sunod sunod kaming tumahan. Nakatulog na si Rage sa sama ng loob.

"Next time, we'll buy what my little prince want." Raphael said to Rage before he slept.

"Let's talk." Sambit ni Raphael nang maibaba sa kotse ang anak.

I saw rage and many emotions in his eyes. Nakaramdam ako ng takot. Pero tinatagan ko. Its his fault too. He make me mad kaya ako naglihim. But is he deserved it? Does my son deserve this?

"Okay."

Naglakad kami palayo sa kotse niya. "Why?" He asked. Hindi ako agad nakasagot. Hinawakan niya ko sa braso. Gigil at galit.

Its hurt but I won't complain. I deserved this.

I know. "You make me mad. You make me suffer and feel unloved." I answer him honestly.

"Is that a valid reason to do this to me?" Lumuwag ang pagkakahawak nito. Nagulat ako ng higitin ako nito at yakapin.

"I am..happy that I found the both of you. I am longing for you. For a long time. I am.." He said shaking. Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman parang piniga ulit ang puso ko. Imbes na magtanong I let him said what he want to say.

"Do you know why I abducted you? Why I raped you?"

"Let me tell you the reason." Tumango lang ako.

"I love you for a long time. Since we're a child. I'm attracted to you. Until we go to senior high. I've been waiting for you to like me. I thought you're like other girl out there who's dying to have me. Who's crazy to have me. Hut I am wrong. You're different. Until I know that you have a feelings to Onyx. And he feel the same. I am scared that the both of you will end up together. So, I do bad things. I abducted you. I raped you to make me mine. I know you'll get mad. Its my way. A very bad way. But I don't care." Nagulat ako roon. All this time I thought its his kind of revenge.

"I didn't know that we have a fruit. And there's Rage. But I have a strong feeling that night Ill make you pregnant. But I'll patiently waiting. Until Tranz told me strange things. He start investigating on his own about you being pregnant. Alexander and Pacifico won't believe him until they did the same strategy. And confirmed it when they saw the both of you. I have a strong feeling about it. But I patiently waiting for you to tell me. I know you're mad but I trusted you." Basag ang boses nito. Pero buo parin ang mga words. Naluha nanaman ako. Di alam ang sasabihin.

Bakit natutuwa ako? Bakit pakiramdam ko nakahinga na ko ng maluwag?

"Why don't you broke up with Lucy if that's true?"

"I broke up with her when we do that thing the next day. But she's obsessed to me. She threaten me." Naniwala ako roon. May mga balitang may saltik ang babae.

"I'm sorry." aniya.

"I'm sorry too." Wala sa sarili kong sinabi.

Hindi nako babalik sa nakaraan. Mas mahalaga ang kapakanan ni Rage ngayon. His longing for having a father by his side is too much to handle.

Nagulat ako nang iangat nito ang aking muka at halikan ako. He kiss me passionately. I responded. We share a long passionate kiss.

Sobrang sarap sa pakiramdam. Tila nasa ulap ako. I miss his kisses.

Ang gulo ko. Akala ko si Onyx ang gusto ko. Akala ko. Pero Mali. I'm just afraid of his intimidating presence being fall in love with him.

I controlled it ever since. I avoid it.

We stopped. Saka magkahawak kamay na bumalik sa kotse. Dumiretso kami sa Condo niya dito sa London. We slept together.

Nagising ako kinabukasan dahil sa munting halik. I know Rage did it. Kaya nakangiti akong nagmulat ng mata. Ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko.

"Mama wake up. Papa prepared our breakfast. Wake up now mama." Napangiti ako roon. Niyakap ko siya at hinalikan.

"Good morning sunshine." Bati ko. Ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko talaga.

Kumpara sa mga naunang umaga.

"Okay. Mama. Good morning too. Bangon na ikaw." Tila sinusubukan niyang magtagalog kaya lang slang kaya nakakatuwa.

"Wake up now. I'm hungry mama. I'm hungry. You're bad mama. You make me wait." Tila nagpapalambing ito. Kaya tumango ako.

At mabilis na bumangon. Nagtungo agad sa CR para mag toothbrush. Buti may extra roon.

Maganda ang desenyo ng cr mukang bachelor talaga ang may kanya. At paglabas ko doon ko lang napansin na perfect lahat. Hinila naman ako agad ni Rage.

Para lumabas, we saw his father sexily doing our breakfast. Some of the food is organized.

"Good morning again papa. Mama's awake now." Masiglang sambit ni Rage. Lumingon naman si Raphael na guwapong guwapo sa apron na suot. He look hotter with it.

"Oh! Good morning my note and my little prince." He said lovingly. I smiled shyly. Damn why did he look more handsome?

Pinaghila niya ko ng upuan at kinarga si Rage para iupo sa ma's mataas na upuan. He even out some rice and hotdog on my plate.

He kissed my forehead and my son cheeks. I blushed.

"Yiee mama blushed." Tudyo ng pilyong anak. Nag Iwas ako ng tingin.

"I saw it too." Raphael chuckled. Nagsimula na kaming kumain.

Doon ko lang napansin na nakapang bahay na ko. Even Rage, saan nang galing ang suot namin? Sinong nagpalit sakin?

Naglaro na sila ng basketball sa isang kwarto roon na malaki. Muka itong gym na may malawak na espasyo at dalawang ring sa magkabilang dulo.

"You're so good papa. That's why your my idol. I am so proud of you papa. I can't believe it that you're my father."

"Really? Thank you. You're good too baby." Aniya. Hindi ko alam pero pinaghandaan niya ba to? Kasi automatic na naging maliit yung ring e. Sakto para Kay Rage.

Its a new invention.

Pagod na pagod sila pagkatapos.

Inabutan ko naman sila ng tubig.

After that naglaro sila ng video game.

Dumating naman ang anim niyang kabanda sa condo at naabutan kami. Tuwang tuwa ang mga ito.

"Finally." Tranz playfully said.

"Yeah, finally." Raphael smirked.

Nagkuwentuhan lang silang pito at nakipaglaro Kay Rage na hangang hanga sa mga kasama. They treated him like a prince. Iniispoiled nanaman ang bata.

Hiro cooked a Japanese dish for our lunch. Rage love it. He make Hiro flattered with his flowery words.

"Papa, is good too. Every food he cook is delicious."

"Unlike mama." Natigilan sila at Maya Maya ay natawa. Hiyang hiya naman ako sa pangbubulgar ng anak.

I said he's playful. Napakapilyo talaga.

"I am very happy now. You make my dream come true papa." Masigla niyang sambit.

"Really? What's your dream ba?"

"Being with the Dark Deimos members papa." Everyone stopped from laughing. Ang mga cold at rough na muka ay tila umamo. Wala sa sarili nilang niyakap si Rage.

"Nah. You make our dream come true." Raphael said. Everyone nodded.