Aphrodite

Chapter 19: FOR THE LAST TIME

Continuation

Aphrodite's Point of View

2 days had gone by and Believe or not, nag drop out na ako sa Xavier University, kinuha ko na lahat nang gamit ko. But, Hindi ito dahil sa inaayawan ko na ang mission ko.

It's just that...

It's f*****g better this way. Mas makakapag focus ako sa pagpaplano kung wala ako sa eskwelahan na yun. I can easily travel from my apartment to the agency.

One more thing. Baka kasi hindi ako makapag timpi at mapatay ko pa ang babaeng yun. I just said I don't hold grudges but this time I would f*****g want to hold it because of that stupid f*****g liar fake b***h.

But being here alone in my apartment is f*****g lonely. Damn ngayon ko lang narealize ang feeling nang mag isa. Ngayon ko lang nalaman na malungkot pala ang buhay ko dito sa apartment na to.

I f*****g realize that I miss my family and I miss my f*****g friend Psyche. And I am starting to feel that I am f****d up! Well I am really f****d up! I am broken and yet I can't f*****g shed a single tear, I am broken yet nobody knows a single thing, I am f*****g broken yet nobody wants to even ask, and I am f*****g broken that I still need to finish this stupid task not because it is a task; a mission, but because of the f*****g fact that I have fallen in love with Ares Hemsworth, that I am still in love with him wven though he f*****g f****d up with my life and broke my heart.

And here I am, nakatitig lang akong maaigi sa conputer ko habang pinapanood si Ares Magmaneho nang sasakyan yan. I've ask headmistress or rather Ninang Ady to put a microchip camera on his car, at his room, and at the classroom. I also ask for permission to view every footage in every single part of the university. In other words hawak ko na lahat nang CCTV sa Xavier University para mapadali ang trabaho ko. Nakatingin lang ako kay Ares habang nagmamaneho at hindi maiiwasan ang pagkirot nang puso ko

Fuck bakit ba kasi kailangang marealize mong mahal mo siya pag nasaktan ka na niya? That's really bullshit.

Napatingin ako sakanya nang bigla siyang huminto sa pagmamaneho at lumabas nang kotse niya

"Find him" - I plainly said and My computed started doing it's job.

"Hellion Bar" - my computer said and that made me move. I grab my leather jacket, car key, phone and my guns and magazine's of course. Nilagay ko ang mga baril at magazine sa isang bag at lumabas na ako nang apartment ko.

This is my daily routine after I left Xavier University and since the final week has started. Gabi na at alam kong may possibilidad na aatake sila ngayong gabi. They will try to kill Ares kaya kailangang bantayan ko siyang maiigi. Well dalawang araw ko nading ginagawa ito. Ni hindi na nga ako natutulog.

Agad akong bumaba nang apartment ko at pumunta ako sa sasakyan ko. Pumasok ako sa driver's seat at nilagay ko ang bag sa likod. Agad kong pinaandar ang kotse ko at pinatakbo ko ito nang mabilis papunta sa Hellion Bar.

This is me since I left Xavier University. Wala naman akong ginawa kundi bantayan at protektahan padin siya but not only because it is my mission but because honestly....

I still love the Jerk

And this is the f*****g things I do for f*****g love. Am I f*****g crazy? Nakarating na ako sa Hellion Bar. Agad kong nilagay ang isang baril sa likod ko at bumaba na ako nang kotse. Napatingin ako sa Hellion Bar kasabay nang pagkunot nang noo ko. Like why would Ares go in a f*****g bar with dancers and strippers depending on the customer wants and needs

Wait did I just say wants and needs?! Damn kung hindi ko lang talaga siya kailangang bantayan hindi ako pupunta sa lugar na to. Someone like me will be a great attention catcher. Alam niyo naman na kumakanta ako sa mga bars like when I first met Apollo. At sigurado akong kilala ako dito sa Hellion Bar.

The once invited me to sing but after I found out the details about this f*****g club I immediately declined it. Mafia Leaders usually drink here at kadalasan din sila pupumunta dito para magparaos like what the f**k? Man w****s tsk

Agad akong naglakad papunta sa entrance nang bar pero hinarangan ako nang bouncer at akmang magsasalita siya nang agad kong binunot ang baril at tinutok ko ito sakanyang noo.

"Let me f*****g pass asshole or I'll blow your f*****g head" - malamig kong saad at namutla naman siya at agad niya akong pinadaan. Binalik ko ang baril ko sa dapat nitong kalagyan at pumasok na ako sa loob nang bar.

Tsk harang harang kasi siya tsk if I could kill him right now ay ginawa ko na pero kailangan kong unahin si Ares. Siya naman talaga ang palagi kong inuuna. Tsk

Pagpasok na pagpasok ko ay sinalubong ako nang usok na galing sa sigarilyo, vape at fog machine. Napakunot ang noo ko nang isang malakas na tunong ang biglang nagibabaw sa buong lugar at lalong lalo na ang nakakahilong disco lights.

This bar is surely wild

Hinanap nang mga mata ko ang kinakalagyan ni Ares. Tangina nasaan ba yun? Tsk

"f**k! Another shot!" - I heard a familiar voice and I saw Ares at the bar counter with his frowning face. Tsk palagi naman siyang nakakunot ang noo, parang lagi siyang may problema tsk. 

Naglakad ako papalapit sakanya and I took the seat beside him. Wala nadin naman akong ibang mauupan and It's better to stay f*****g close to him para kung may mangyari man madali ko siyang mapro-protektahan. Yun naman talaga ang dahilan kung bakt ako nandito

"Margarita" - I said in a monotone voice but loud enough for the bartender to hear it and I can see in the side of my sight that he is looking at me. Tsk at bakit naman niya ako titingnan? Is he curious why am I here? Tsk sabagay natural lang naman na mag taka siya. I am not a mafia leader nor a member kaya paano ko malalaman kung nasaan ang bar na to'

"Here you go ma'am" - sabi nang bartender at inilapag niya sa harap ko ang isang baso nang margarita. Hinawakan ko ang baso at pinaglaruan ko ito

"What the f**k are you doing here Aphrodite?!" - I heard the man beside me exclaim at obviously si Ares yun. Siya lang naman ang katabi ko dahil halos lahat nang tao ay sumasayaw sa dancefloor.

"Nothing tsk" - Sagot ko sakanya at ininom ko na ang margarita.

"f**k" - I heard him cuss at nang maubos ko na ang laman nang baso ay agad kong nilapag ito

"Stop drinking Aphrodite!" - rinig kong sabi niya at napairap nalang ako nang palihim. Gago ba siya? Anong stop drinking? Tsk eh ngayon nalang nga ako uminom ulit tsk at namiss ko din naman

"Another glass of margarita!" - I said to the bartender and before I knew it nilapag niya sa harap ko ang isang tall glass na margarita which made me grin. Mukhang nahalata nang isang to na hard drinker ako.

Inangat ko na ang baso at akmang iinumin ko na ito nang maramdaman ko nalang na wala na ang baso sa kamay ko at nakarinig nalang ako nang pagkabasag.

"I f*****g said to stop drinking!" - Ares exclaimed at walang ano ano'y nilingon ko siya at nakita ko ang basag na baso mesa sa harap niya. f**k! Why they hell did he f*****g broke the f*****g tall glass full of margarita?! At tangina akala niya ba talaga susunod ako sa sinabi niyang huminto ako sa paginom?! Sino ba siya?!

Di porke't mahal ko siya ay may karapatan na siyang sabihin ang bagay na yan saakin at utusan ako dahil unang una hindi naman niya ako mahal! So why does he care anyway?!

"Why do you f*****g care anyway Ares?Sino ka ba sa buhay ko?" - inis kong singhal sakanya at kita ko kung paano kumunot ang noo niya kasabay ang pag igting nang panga niya

"Bakit ka ba nandito ha Aphrodite?! Hindi ka dapat nandito! This place is not for your kind!" - frustrated na sabi niya at napahilamos pa siya nang mukha. Tinatanong pa ba kung bakit ako nandito?! I am here dahil nandito siya! At kailangan ko siyang bantayan nang maiigi. One wrong move could end his life and I can't let that f*****g s**t happen!

And did he just said that this place is not for my kind?! At sino lang dapat ang nandito? Mga katulad niyang gago, trantado at sinungaling? Ha?

Fuck gustong gusto ko siyang sigawan sa mga oras na to but f**k I need to damn calm down. I don't want him to know just yet. Hindi pa oras para mawala ako sa control at masabi ko lahat nang dapat kong sabihin sakanya.

Kailangan kong maghintay hanggang sa huling araw ko dito.

"Again why do you care? Hindi mo to pagmamay-ari Ares Hemsworth at wala namang nakalagay na pangalan mo sa gate lalong lalo na walang nakalagay na bawal ako dito tsk" - inis na saad ko sakanya at muli kong narinig ang pagmumura niya.

"Give me another glass!" - inis kong utos sa bartender and he gave me another tall glass of margarita. I was about to drink it when a loud voice interupted me

"WELL WELL WELL! This is a very special night to day dahil binisita tayo nang isang magandang babae na matagal na nating hinihintay - I heard someone screamed even though he is already using the f*****g microphone at mukhang ako ang tinutukoy niya. And f**k alam ko na ang sunod na mangyayari dito

Sanay na ako sa ganito lalo na kapag pumupunta ako sa bar. Remember when I first met Apollo? They just f*****g made me sing!

"APHRODITE IS HERE WITH US!!" - muling sigaw nang kung sino mang tao na yun at naghiyawan lahat nang tao.

"They know you?" - Tanong naman nang katabi ko at napairap nalang ako. f**k just like I said the same f*****g thing will happen this very moment! And believe me ayoko talagang mangyari ang ganitong bagay! But f**k I cannot help it nandito ako para bantayan ang isang Ares Hemsworth.

"Ms Aphrodite! Can you come and join us here in our stage and sing a song for us? Ilang beses na naming ginustong kumanta kayo dito sa Hellion Bar!" - yung so called emcee at naghiyawan ang nga tao. Napangiwi ako dahil nagsigawan silang lahat

"Sing"

"Sing"

"Sing"

"Sing"

Fuck! Hindi nanaman ako pwedeng tumanggi diba? Damn it kaya wala na akong nagawa kundi tumayo at naglakad ako papunta sa stage at rinig ko ang pagtawag saakin ni Ares pero hindi ko nalang ito pinansin.

Nakarating na ako sa stage at inabot saakin nang so called emcee ang microphone at bumulong ako sa banda kung anong kakantahin ko and they all nod their head a sign of agreement.

Napatingin ako sa kinaroroonan ni Ares at pansin ko kung paano niya ininom ang isang baso nang alak habang nakatingin siya saakin. Nang maubos niya na ang alak ay agad niya itong pinatonng sa mesa at  binalingan niya muna ang bartender bago binalik ang kanyang mata saakin at kapansin-pansin ang ibang klaseng pagtitig niya saakin.

He is staring at me with his deep ocean blue eyes, the eyes that is same with Apollo. However , he is the only one who can give me this uncomfortable intense feeling that  I always feel whenever he is around. Butterflies in my stomach are just part of the evidence that I am really in love with that man I am protecting. But the real evidence is the loud fast beating of my heart whenever His face and name came across my mind and whenever I hear his name. This is so lame for a woman like me who does not care about loving before.

He is my half brother in the greek mythology and I just f*****g fell to my half brother.

But sa greek mythology lang naman yun. It was all just a myth pero bakit ramdam ko na hindi talaga kami pwede kahit na simula palang gusto na nang parehong mga magulang namin na makasal kami? Why does loving so hard to understand? Bakit kailangan may masaktan pa diba?

That's why simula palang nang magkaisip ako I promised myself to try my very best to keep love out of my priority pero heto ako prinoprotektahan ang lalaking minahal ko sa maikling panahon, lalaking hindi ko aakalain na pinaglaruan ako.( if that's what you call what he did to me)

Nilagay ko ang microphone sa microphone stand at ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko kasabay nang pagstrum nang gitara at ang pagsimula ko sa pagkanta

It was a strong beat, so different from before.

You should take it as a compliment

That I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk

He really should f*****g take it as a compliment that me Soon to be Queen Winter Aphrodite D. Hemilton just f*****g noticed him. Ni hindi ko nga pinapansin ang ibang lalaki eh, Yes I do flirt but I don't give much attention to them just like what I did with him

You should think about the consequence

Of your magnetic field being a little too strong

Yeah that's right. He should have done that, not that I fallen in love with him, he should have taken responsibility pero wala eh. Ang gago kasi.

I opened my eyes and I saw Ares looking intently at me and I look at him with the same intensity. This is the first and last time that I will make him feel special to me. After this night, I must say goodbye to him and to my feelings since I will bury them six feet underground.

And I got a boyfriend, he's older than us

He's in the club doing, I don't know what

You're so cool, it makes me hate you so much (I hate you so much)

I hate to admit that he is cool, kaya nga ako nain-love sakanya because he is f*****g cool. Not only that he is the only man who made me smile unconsciously, who made me blush. All I had with him are my first. He may not be my first kiss since I flirted already with a lot of men, but the kiss I had with him was the first one that made me feel secure.

Whisky on ice, Sunset and Vine

You've ruined my life, by not being mine

This song is for him. Damn it! Para sakanya talaga ang kantang to. Tangina ngayon lang ako nag alay nang kanta sa isang lalaki na di ko naman kaano-ano. Like what the heck I think this song is really made for me to sing for him.

You're so gorgeous

I can't say anything to your face

'Cause look at your face

And I'm so furious

At you for making me feel this way

But what can I say?

You're gorgeous

Ayoko siyang pakawalan, pero masakit din kasing isipin na andali niya palang lokohin at ang dali niya akong paglaruan. 

You should take it as a compliment

That I'm talking to everyone here but you (but you, but you)

And you should think about the consequence

Of you touching my hand in a darkened room (dark room, dark room)

If you got a girlfriend, I'm jealous of her

But if you're single that's honestly worse

'Cause you're so gorgeous it actually hurts

(Honey, it hurts)

Damn it! He has a girlfriend and hate to admit I am jealous and I am fuming mad. Iniwas ko ang mata kong nakatitig sakanya at ipinikit ko nalang ito at dinama ang kanta na para talaga sakanya. At huli kong nakita ang mga nag sw-sway na katawan nang lahat nang tao na dinaramdam ang kanta. I said to myself that this is the last time I will look at him intensely too, but guess what? hindi ko dn pala kaya.

Ocean blue eyes looking in mine

I feel like I might sink and drown and die

You're so gorgeous

I can't say anything to your face

'Cause look at your face

And I'm so furious

At you for making me feel this way

But what can I say?

You're gorgeous

You make me so happy it turns back to sad

There's nothing I hate more than what I can't have

You are so gorgeous it makes me so mad

You make me so happy it turns back to sad

There's nothing I hate more than what I can't have

Guess I'll just stumble on home to my cats

Alone, unless you wanna come along, oh...

Fuck I know he can't come along. He can't and he wouldn't, he already made it clear with me.

You're so gorgeous

I can't say anything to your face

'Cause look at your face

And I'm so furious

At you for making me feel this way

But what can I say?

You're gorgeous

You make me so happy it turns back to sad

There's nothing I hate more than what I can't have

You are so gorgeous it makes me so mad

You're gorgeous

You make me so happy it turns back to sad

There's nothing I hate more than what I can't have

You are so gorgeous it makes me so mad

You're gorgeous 

He did made me happy but when he made it clear that we are nothing it made me become the worst version of myself. If only I know that this kind of thing is about to happen in my love life, I should have pushed him away, I should have killed his love for me before it killed me. 

And so, I opened my eyes as I finally ended the song and every clapped their hands and they begin chanting my name but that noise was broken by a single terrible sound that is obviously trouble. And because of this I know that I need to get near Ares as soon as possible

*bang*

Nagsitakbuhan palabas gamit nag fire exit ang mga tao dito sa Hellion Bar na kanina lang ay nagsasaya. They are all screaming pero hindi ako nakisali sakanila. Hindi dapat because there is someone I need to protect.

Agad kong binunot ang baril ko at nang may mapansin akong lalaking pumasok sa entrance nang Hellion bar ay agad ko siyang binaril sa dibdib and because I am using Maxime ay tumagos ang bala sa likod niya making a hole on that person's body.

Ang kaninang maayos na bar na walang ginawa kundi magparty ay nagmukhang stampede nang mga rhino ngayon. Tumalon ako mula sa stage at nakipagsiksikan ako sa napakaraming taong tumatakbo papunta sa Fire Exit. The people pushed me pero hindi ko hinayaan madala nila ako instead I pushed them back.

While I am busy pushing every single f****d up person out of my way I saw two other men entered. Nakita kong kinasa nila ang baril nila at napamura ako. f**k I shouldn't have left him! Damn it!