Aphrodite

Chapter 24: STILL IN LOVE

Continuation....

Aphrodite's Point of View

Now ano naman kaya ang kailangan nang isang to? If I remember correctly kasama ko siya dito sa apartment ko at nakausap ko pa siya pagkauwi ko but hell hindi ko na alam ang sumunod na nangyari.

"Hello? What do you need?" - I answered the call with my plain cold voice at tska ko sinubukang umupo and I suddenly felt the pain pero tiniis ko at pinilit ko talaga ang sarili kong makaupo and fortunately I succeeded my attempt at ngayon ay nakaupo na ako sa gilid nang kama habang nakalagay ang kanang kamay ko sa tagiliran ko.

"[Finally you're awake!]" - he exclaimed in a worried tone and I rolled my eyes because of that. I'm fine... palagi naman akong okay diba? Why does he need to worry like I'm gonna die everytime s**t happens to me?

And duh obviously?

"Obviously Eros hindi ako sasagot  sa tawag mo kung hindi pa ako gising" - I said in a flat tone at narinig ko ang pagbuntong hininga niya sa kabilang linya.

"[Tsk nevermind what I said. By the way I already remove the bullet in your body at tinahi ko nadin ang sugat mo. Don't move too much at baka bumuka yan. Also hindi ako nagpalit nang damit mo. I asked someone from the agency to do that. Also nandito ako sa IDA para mag discuss ng ilang importanteng detalye para bukas at may pupuntang bastardo diyan ngayon because I just punch the s**t out of him. You two talk and sort things out but if anything happens call me bye]" - mahabang lintaya niya at binabaan niya pa ako nang tawag.

Tanginang lalaking yun! Ano bang pinagsasabi niya?! Yeah I know na nabaril ako at obviously siya ang naglinis nang sugat ko. Palagi namang siya at alam ko din na hindi siya ang nagpalit nang damit saakin.

And I almost f*****g forgot that tomorrow is the f*****g day. Let's call it Judgement Day kung saan malalaman kung mapapatay nga ba nila ang Heir sa trono nang pinakamalakas na mafia organization sa mundo, will they be able to kill me? O sila ang mapapatay ko?

But one thing is for sure

I will make it the best act of the year that I could f*****g win an Award at Famas for f**k's sake.

I decided to stand up from my bed at paika-ika akong naglakad papunta sa kusina. Damn it kung wala akong sugat sa tagiliran sigurado aakalain ko na nakipag s*x ako dahil sa sakit nang buong katawan ko. Tsk. Pagkadating ko nang kusina ay agad kong binuksan ang fridge at kinuha ko ang fresh milk at agad ko itong ininom. Di ko naman na kailangang humagilap nang bado dahil nakakaubos ako nang isang malaking fresh milk sa umaga.

Sinarado ko na ang Fridge at itinapon ko ang lalagyan nang walang lamang Fresh milk sa basura. At saktong pagtapon ko nang basura ay napansin ko ang mga butas sa gilid nang fridge ko at not to mention andoon padin ang mga bala

"f**k they really ruined everything" inis kong saad at wala na akong nagawa kundi naglakad nalang ako papunta sa living room at umupo ako sa couch. Kahit may tv ako ay hindi ko magawang manood dahil tangina sira na ang tv ko dahil sa nangyaring pang aa-ambush saakin kagabi. And from the looks of it tanging kwarto at banyo lang ang walang anumang butas na gawa nang bala. Tangina kasing machine gun na yun eh. Tsk

I was about to close my eyes when suddenly—

*knock*knock

What the f*****g f**k?! So Eros is f*****g serious that someone is going to visit me?! And let me remind you hindi pa ako nakakapag shower and I am just wearing a sporty outfit like typical sports bra and shorts! What kind of a woman greets a visitor with such f*****g outfit?!

Damn nevermind

Agad akong tumayo sa pagkakaupo and Inimmediately walk towards the door at binuksan ko ito. And believe it or not I suddenly froze when I saw who the person is. Yung sinasabi ni Eros na bibisita saakin.

Fuck! Kung sino man yan tangina iniistorbo niya ang huling araw nang pahinga ko dahil bukas siguradong mapapasabak nanaman ako sa laban.

Damn

"What are you doing here?!" - I exclaimed. f**k! How can I move on from my f*****g feelings kung palagi kong nakikita ang gagong to?! I just f*****g made my mind that I will let go pero heto siya ngayon nasa harapan ko! Para ano?! Para tanungin kung kamusta ako?! Kung ayos lang ba ako?!

If I f*****g remember correctly I asked him to f*****g stay but his answer is he can't! He can't f*****g stay because he has someone already! Pero ano ngayon ang ginagawa niya dito?! Is this his game?!

"Let's talk Aphrodite" - diretso niyang sabi at napahigpit ang hawak ko sa door knob

Talk?!

Ano pa bang paguusapan namin ha?!

Great! What a surprising Unexpected Visitor I f*****g have today!

Fucking bullshit!

"Di mo man lang ba ako papapasukin Aphrodite?" - he said in a plain voice and I couldn't help myself but to roll my freakin eyes. At talagang nay gana pa siyang magsabi nang ganyan like fyi this is my f*****g territory!

This bastard is really annoying! Pwede ba ipaalala niyo kung bakit ako na in love sa isang to?

Because he is sweet and caring tsk

What the f**k?! Who the hell is that?! Anyways f**k can we just forget that I asked a stupid question!

"Hey" - pagtatawag niya ulit nang pansin saakin and he even snap his fingers in front of my face which made me frown

"You cannot enter my Apartment Hemsworth. You are not welcome here" - I said in an irritated manner. Hindi ko talaga kayang makausap siya nang matagal. It suffocates me as f**k!

"Please..." - he pleaded and suddenly I felt the f*****g urge to let him in. Damn it! Nagplease lang gago! Pero tangina ano pa nga ba ang magagawa ko! Damn I really have to f*****g admit to myself that I still cannot resist the f*****g effect he has on me. I need to accept the fact that I am still captivated by him.

"Fine" - I just said at hinayaan ko na siyang nakapasok nang Apartment ko. Nang makapasok na siya ay agad kong sinara ang pinto. "Go on. Sit on the couch. I'll just get you something to drink" - dagdag ko pa at naglakad ako papunta sa kusina at kumuha ako nang juice nula sa pitcher sa loob nang fridge at ilang butter cookies at inilapag ko ito sa harap niya.

"Thanks" - I heard him say at agad akong humila nang isang upuan at tska ako umupo sa harap niya. I watch him drink the juice at nang makalahati niya na ito ay agad siyang tumingin nang diretso sa mga mata ko. As if he is reading me, heart mind and soul.

And I can't help myself to ask

Bakit nga ba niya nagawang magsinungaling at paulit ulit akong saktang pero malalaman ko nalang na nandyan siya sa tabi ko na para bang may pakialam siya? It confuses the hell out of me.

"What happened here? What happened to you?" - seryosong tanong niya habang nakatingin padin saakin. Pero hindi na sa mga mata ko. Kundi sa tagiliran na hanggang ngayon ay hawak hawak ko dahil ramdam ko padin ang konting kirot mula dito.

Bakit niya kailangang tanungin?

Does he care?

No! Hindi! Never believe his Shits Winter Aphrodite! Never f*****g believe his shits! Alam ko nandito siya dahil kay Eros! I can obviously see the brusie on his cheek, ganoon din ang medyo putok niyang labi. And I know Eros did punched this man in front of me. f**k ano ba talaga kasing plinaplano ni Eros?!

"I got ambushed at exactly 12 am and yeah I just got shot because of that" - tanging sagot ko sa katanungan niya. Totoo naman diba? I got ambushed and got shot pero syempre hindi ko sasabihin na nabaril ako dahil biglaan ang pagsugod ko sa territoryo nang Seprent Mafia hindi pa ngayon ang oras para malaman niya kung ano nga ba ang papel ko sa buhay niya

"f**k! Who the hell did this to you?! Damn it I'm going to f*****g kill them!" - he exclaimed and I saw how his hands turned into fists. Alam kong galit siya. I can clearly see it in his expression pero bakit? Bakit ba siya nagagalit? Ano ba ang gusto niyang mangyari?

"I don't know" - I lied obviously I f*****g know kung sino at kung bakit. Pero hindi ako tanga para sabihin sakanya yun dahil siguradong malalaman niya na patay na ang buong organisasyon na yun. "Why do you care anyway Ares Hemsworth? Sa pagkakaalam ko wala ka namang karapatan para magalala saakin" - malamig kong sambit sakanya. Totoo naman wala naman talaga dapat siyang pakialam saakin dahil in the f*****g first place tinanggal niya na ang karapatan niyang magalala saakin noong nagsinungaling siya mismo nang harap harapan.

"Bullshit! I have all the f*****g rights to be worried Aphrodite! I even rushed just to be here to check on you after your f*****g guardian punched me and told me what the f**k happened to you! Damn it Aphrodite! I am worried because I f*****g care Aphrodite I care!" - madiin niyang sabi and it's my turn to f*****g clench my fists. He has the rights?! Since when?! Bullshit! Wala siyang karapatan wala! At kung hindi pa pala siya suntukin ni Eros ay hindi siya magaalala?! And who told him to f*****g care?!

Sa pagkakaalam ko he doesn't care about me... he does not care!

Tangina he is confusing me bigtime! f**k!

"Let's sort things out for the both of us Ares" - malamig kong sabi at nakita ko kung paano nagigting ang panga niya. Tangina ano bang problema nang isang to?! Tsk "Seriously Ares you want me to believe that crap? You want me to believe that you actually care?! Well bullshit Ares because I don't believe you" - mahina ngunit matigas kong sagot sa mga sinabi niya kanina. I would never believe such lies again.

"I care for you damn it! I already told you a month ago that I f*****g love you right?! Tangina naman Aphrodite mahal kita pwede paniwalaan mo naman ako!" -he counter and that made me bitterly laugh at him.

He cares?

Wow! Kung pagpapahalaga ba ang tawag sa pagsisinungaling tangina edi wow! Kung pagmamahal ba ang tawag sa hindi pagpili sayo noong mga panahon na hiniling mo sakanya na manatili siya sa tabi mo pero hindi niya nagawa then that is a f*****g shitty love!

"You love me but you chose her instead of me? Wow! Do you even realize what I felt that time when I found out your lies?! Do you even followed me and told me that all of those shits are nothing?! You didn't Ares you didn't! At dahil doon wala kang karapatan na sabihan akong paniwalaan ka dahil simula noon nasira na ang tiwala ko sayo" - malamig kong sabi sakanya. Napansin ko ang pagulo niya nang buhok niya gamit ang dalawa niyang kamay. He looks frustrated but the hell I care?! Mahal ko siya oo at aaminin ko din na hindi pa ako nakaka move on sakanya pero f**k I need to let this feelings out dahil pakiramdam ko sasabog na ako. Kaya ko magtago nang nararamdaman ko pero pag nandyan siya aaminin ko nanghihina ang mga tuhod ko. His deep ocean blue eyes are killing me softly! f*****g killing me! 

Those eyes that consists of different emotions that he can't express thoroughly. At kapag tinitingnan ko ang mga matang yun gusto kong bumigay. Gusto kong sabihin sakanya ang lahat para naman maintindihan niya ako. Pero hindi pwede

Hindi pa pwede dahil hindi pa oras para malaman niya ang lahat. Pero malapit nadin he just need to wait and I am sure maaring kamuhian niya ako.

"Hindi mo naiintindihan Aphrodite! f**k I am doing this for your sake!" - he shouted and I frowned

Fuck!

"Ipaintindi mo saakin Ares! Ipaintindi mo saakin kung bakit kailangan mo akong saktan! For my sake?! Bakit alam mo ba ang nakakabuti para saakin?! Sige nga Explain to me why do you have to leave me hanging?! Why do you have to make me believe in  such despicable lies?! Why do you have to f*****g believe me that you love actually love me?! Why do you have to make me fall this hard?! Why did you broke me into pieces and continously breaking me and leaving damn scars?! Bakit Ares?! Bakit?!" - I shouted back. At sa pagsigaw ko na yun ibinigay ko na lahat nang sakit at hinanakit na dinulot niya saakin

For f*****g 21 years of my life tinago ko ang nararamdaman ko! Ni hindi ko pinakita kahit sa mga magulang ko na nasasaktan ako, umiiyak dahil sa mga bagay bagay! Hindi ko pinakita ni minsan sawang sawa na ako! Na ayoko na!  Pero he.... f**k one stare that I got from him gives me feelings that I never felt before! One stare from and every wall I build to contain what I feel breaks down into pieces! One f*****g stare gives me the right to laugh, to smile, to be sad, to feel the pain and to f*****g cry.

And as this very moment ramdam ko ang pamumuo nang luha sa mga mga mata ko. 

"Aphrodite.... please believe me when I say I love you.... I really do. Again ginagawa ko to para sayo, dahil mahal kita. Remember you owned me A, you marked me when you pointed your gun Maxime at me. Since that day I felt there's something wrong with me. The loud beating of my heart and the f*****g fact that I want your attention, I crave for your attention baby" - He said at nakita ko sa mga mata niya ang senseridad nang kanyang mga sinabi. It's like he is really telling the damn truth.

Pero tangina ang hirap sumugal ulit! Susugal pa ba ako kung alam kong wala nadin naman patutunguhan lahat? Going back fo Greece and accepting my faith as the Next Queen means leaving all things behind, forgeting what happened here in this country and that includeds that Dark Gods especially a man named Ares Hemsworth

"Please trust me on this one A.... I am sorry that I need to hurt you but f**k this for your sake A, for our future. Trust me A.. Believe in me." -

Mahirap magtiwala lalo na kapag nasaktan ka na nang sobra... Hindi niyo ako masisisi kung hindi ko siya kayang paniwalaan sa ngayon. Marami akong iniisip at marami pa akong kailangang gawin at tapusin. Isa na doon kung ano nga ba ang rason niya para saktan ako nang ganito.

"Trust you? That's bullshit Ares. I cannot trust you now Ares my heart is still not ready to trust a person who just broke my heart" - malamig kong sabi at napansin ko kung paano siya natigilan. Sorry Ares but I really cannot trust you yet. "When I fell in love with you I thought it was real" - it was real damn it "Just like the song Stupid love right? I never thought I will fall in love with someone like you. Love was not in my vocabulary but then you came in my life. Saying sweet things, caring for me and showing me how deeply you love me and that was enough... but thats what I thought" damn it was Enough but heck I was hurt! I was f*****g hurt! "I never thought that the person I fell in love with would spat lies for some reason he can't tell me. I never thought that you,Ares will make me feel loved, safe and f*****g hurt." - I said and I can see the pain in his eyes. He is f*****g hurt damn it! Pero hindi lang naman siya ang nasaaaktan ako din. And I need to heal; we f*****g need to heel from the wounds we've got for falling in love with each other

"Please A don't do this to me! I'm sorry Aphrodite please don't regret loving me because I didn't. Damn it Aphrodite please wait for me" - He said and in just a blink of an eye nakita ko nalang siya na nasa harapan ko habang nakaluhod.

Fuck!

H'wag kang magpapaapekto Winter Aphrodite! Damn it! You need to control your feelings for him kundi walang mapupuntahan lahat nang sakripisyo mo para maprotektahan siya. f**k I don't regret loving you Ares I don't dahil kahit anong pangako ko sa sarili ko na kakalimutan na kita that I will f*****g move on and let him go wala padin dahil niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko na kaya ko siyang kalimutan pero tangina he has the same effect on me and I've got the same feelings for him at siguro mas lalo ko pa siyang minahal ngayon.

He is different from the cold, proud and full of pride Ares I've known. This Ares in front of me is full of compassion, love , humility and he knows how to beg already. f**k seeing him kneeling before me f*****g hurts alot. It pains me big time

At ang luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan ay kumawala na sa mga mata ko.

"I f*****g love you so much Aphrodite. God knows how much I love you. That no f*****g money or car can change what I feel for you. You are the only woman I love this way. Please believe me when I say I have a reason why I am staying with Alyssa and please believe that it is for your own good" - he suddenly said at napansin ko din ang pamumula nang mata niya.

Fuck he is going to cry. My f*****g Ares is crying. I cupped his face and I smiled at him.

Sabi nila bihira lang umiyak ang lalaki and when a man cries it means true love. f*****g true love

"I love you too My Ares" - I paused and I caressed his cheeks. I love this man but "but I'm sorry we cannot be together at this point of our lives. We are both wounded with our decisions and actions Ares. I am sorry if we need space, I need space to heal." - mahinang saad ko and as if on cue tumulo ang mga luha niya and f**k we are both crying for pete's sake.

Fucking love

Damn it!

"You're right" - mahinang sagot saakin ni Ares at pinunasan niya ang luha na galing sa mga mata niya at tumayo na siya. He walked towards the door and he opened it. f**k I want to stop him from leaving I want to f*****g take back what I've said to him "We both need space because I am an asshole to hurt the woman I love but I swear I will f*****g marry you and I f*****g love you to death" - he continued at lumabas ma siya nang tuluyan sa apartment ko at doon na ako tuluyang humagulhol nang iyak

I will marry you too my Ares. Damn it please do every damn thing to have me back and I f*****g love you too