DESTINY FOREVER

Beauty Pageant

Hi, how are you?

Free yourself. Don’t limit yourself to the word you’re just a friend. You are not a hero to make them happy. Be brave and crawl , because we know you will fight .

This is book about a male nurse, a quite man. He is immunocompromised, meaning his immune system is already weak due to the infectious disease. He is indeed a health worker who is infected. The world is so complicated for him, but he knows that it is common and only a small part of other people’s problems.

I am referring to no one else but me.

I found out that I was sick because of the woman who groped me. What she did was so bad that I had to be rushed to the hospital. Tests were conducted so the resident on duty discovered my condition.

Yes, I just found out that I am sick.

“You only have three months to live for,” the doctor said calmly but I was still surprised.

My eyes widened. I don’t believe that my life is fixed. Maybe the medical technologist just made a mistake in the diagnosis, but I think I’m just in the denial stage.

However, I do not need to be an admitted patient. The doctor only gave me home medications and medical advices. If I experience severe symptoms in the next few days, I can be confined there. If possible, I will take a break from work to prolong my life.

I thought about the doctor’s advice while I was on my way home. I felt sadness and loneliness that would make my life easier. I still have many dreams, one of which is to work as a nurse in my dream country.

Another reason that what I’m experiencing is worse than the three month rule, before you re-enter a love. I don’t know the reason why I suddenly think of my heart. I’m not ready to die. If that happens I want to die with love. I wanted to get married first, have a child and a happy family before leaving the world, but that was a impossible for three months. I think it’s too late even though I’m only twenty-two years old. Maybe if that had been my priority I wouldn’t be suffering right now.

The truth is that I have a secret crush on my best friend. The problem is that she already loves someone but she hasn’t introduced me yet. But the sad thing that my suffering is starting because of my sins.

I am infected!

Yes, I’m saying to you my reader. Only to you! How i***t I am. I’m making a diary and hoping that someone could read this. Give his or her time to spend for reading this s**t. I hate bats, it’s because of batman. The craziest mood I had!

I mean I can’t really explain how I feel right now. I have been talking for a while but I have not been able to reveal my illness.

I am positive. I’m living with the virus called human immunodeficiency virus. It’s not just a HIV but AIDS. It’s severe, deteriorating. No one knows it but I’ll try to confess to Jonna.

Fortunately, I was not taken to the hospital that I am working on.

I know my friend will understand me even if she can’t accept me yet. Turns out she’s a girl as beautiful as hell because she’s so hot as tall. An independent and empowered woman. I really admired at her but it was too late and she always is thought it was just a joke. Sometimes I think that maybe I’m just using her to be straight. I also accept that we are not really meant for each other. She really only thinks of me as a friend and another thing is that she suspected me of being an altered person.

At this point she is the right about my identity and I won’t hide it any longer. That is why I am a carrier of the virus. Despite of my mistake, I really need a woman in my life. Not because I want to straighten myself out but because I want to.

I repeat, I look up to my best friend and I feel the same way about on her.

“You deserve that!” She said then she slapped me.

I thought a lot last night about this day. I was not wrong to confess to her. I am lucky that she became my friend and will be my friend. But I didn’t say that my life is fixed, a death date.

“But we haven’t been together for a long time and it happened the day I admitted that I really wanted a woman.”

“Je, it’s too late! Another thing is that I have told you several times to accept the real you, that you are a handsome man who flirt with a gay man.”

She laughed at me and I was stunned again. Pretty faces are my weakness. Fortunately, we are friends, so she can’t punch me.

“Don’t be sad anymore and stop fantasizing about me because you know we are not compatible.”

She held my hands because she said we were going somewhere. Jonna was sure that somehow I would be happy. I asked for a hug before we left.

An hour passed when we arrived at the place she was talking about. Many people gather and enjoy themselves. Until she informed us that we were just going to watch a beauty pageant here in our town. I was smiling because I would be really happy with what she thought. Many beautiful and intelligent women will fight but she is enough.

I think that maybe she’s just testing me too so I’ll try to keep my eyes on her. I looked at her. We stared until she laughed out loud.

“Why are you laughing? You look like a fool, Jo! I’m sad again.”

“I’m just happy that I fulfilled one of your bucket lists. Je, we’re best friends so you can’t hide anything from me. So girl, let’s just enjoy it!”

Even best friends still have different mindsets. I felt really weak so my eyes were only on the stage. I’m really just a friend to her.

By the way, it’s true that one of my bucket lists is to watch a beauty pageant. Long story short it’s on my bucket list. So maybe I have a bucket list because I’m going to die.

Why didn’t I think of that?

A few moments later the host spoke for the first part of the grand presentation. The lady contestants came out one by one but I just wanted to go home. My best friend is really different.

“Je, don’t stare at me, people might be mistaken that you’re my boyfriend.”

“What’s the problem about that?”

“Girl, I know I’m more beautiful than the contestants so surely all the men here will be more interested in me.”

She’s really don’t like me!

I just hope she can hold at her words. I just hope she doesn’t really have a feelings on me. Thinking that she might be fine with me having a relationship with a man, but she might not accept it if I find a woman who accepts me other than her. Until I don’t see her boyfriend I don’t believe and I won’t give up.

I have only three months left in my life.

Because of what she said, I really focused on the participants. A few moments later, the twenty-first young lady came out and my heart seemed to beat faster. I feel something strange that I can’t understand because of a participant.

She is familiar!

“Je, your saliva!”

I ignored my friend while still wiping my saliva. I was still staring at the contestant as if she was the only one on stage. She is a woman who is so beautiful beyond anyone like a universe.

But I was wondering because she was a soldier. Besides her name, she also said her profession. I was very happy with her and as time went on I was able to get closer to her, so that I could be thoroughly see her. Because of that my admiration turned to anger.

I took another step.

She’s the girl who groped me in the elevator.

That’s why she has a gun because she’s a law enforcer officer. Does that mean she went to the tall building for this occasion? The dress really suits her better!

Because of this I wanted to end the occasion because I wanted to know her more after all.

I want to press charges against her and maybe change my mind if she agrees to be my bride. Even just a full twenty-four hours to test my friend Jonna. A few moments later, her eyes caught me.

“I thought I was just your only type?” My friend’s question made me smile but I ignored her. “As in yuck Je, I’m just kidding!”

I ignored Jonna until the top five of the competition was announced. I was very happy when the woman who physically assaulted me came in. Until Jonna was no longer by my side but I thought she just went to the bathroom.

“Attitude or mindset?” Question for her.

“Thank you for that wonderful question for a wonder woman me. Everyone believes in a famous old quote, ‘What is beauty if the brain is empty?’ Attitude is better than mindset, because I believed that, what is mind if your attitude is not beautiful? And I thank you!”

All mankind applauded for her and grabbed my attention. The type that makes you think I’m her boyfriend and I’ll be her boyfriend later or tomorrow. I am sure she will win.

“Je, someone wants to talk to you,” Jonna said when she got back.

“Who?”

“Glendmore,” and I became confused.

It’s been almost three months since we were last together. We have nothing more to talk about with that man. I might hurt him now that I got sick because of him. I tried to turn myself into the participant but my friend was insistent.

I was pulled.

“You have to face him to prove that you’re ready to fall in love again.”

No more needed.

“Isn’t it clear that we broke up because of you?”

“Je, you loved by the person, I already love someone and I love you very much as a friend.”

“It’s better that we just go home because I still have duty tomorrow,” I decided then I got on my motorcycle.

We both talked eye to eye before she boarded. Because of that we even witnessed the winner of the beauty pageant. None other than the woman who punched me named Shaina Lombroso, and my full name is Jedidiah Nightingale.