Undestined

Chapter 5

I suddenly nervous when Senso suddenly showed up at our school

"hey Ian, do you miss me?" I looked at him closely but not like before

"Census can you just leave?" I plead and beg at him

"ha? What? We just met and then you want me to get out ? Oh come on Ian everyone know's how much you love me right?" I saw the smirk on his face. 

Yes it was then but not now!

"what? Are you still mad at me? Come on Ian, everyone from this school laugh at you, come! I will comfort you" then he slightly approached me but I step back and backed away. 

As I step back , I did not realize that the wall was behind me while there was a long grass surrounding it

"Ian come to me again! Okay? Let's continue what we started" 

No! No! No! I don't want to . I still can't forget what you did to me

"Ian baby"

 Stop! Please Stop! Right now .  I feel shiver as I was shaking from fear as a sign of being afraid of him! 

Can anyone help me ? Please! I dont want this ! Please stop him! Evan please 

"Ia ----"

Bosghhh! I was just sitting on the wall when suddenly someone kicked him

"ha? Bastard!" I heard him shouted at census while he lost consciousness

"what? that's it? Gago ang weak naman pala" I heard him cursing to senso

"hey Ian" I heard him shout at me which surprised me

"you know what! your Ex is a Piece of Sh * t" he look at me and said .

 I was trying to figure out what happened . 

" Ev-Ev-Evan " hindi ko namalayang tumulo na pala ang aking luha

" Ian " saka niya lang binitawan si senso at saka lumapit sa akin. Nag lean muna siya saka umupo at yinakap ako ng napaka higpit

" shh ! Sorry sorry "

ngumite nalang ako saka tumawa sa kanya , seriously bakit siya humingi ng tawad ?

" hey stop laughing , I will get angry " seryoso niyang sabi sa akin ,  saka naman ako tumahimik 

" Im just kidding ! Hey its a joke ! Im just kidding " as he hug me so tight

" argh you ! Will you stop making me worry " saka nalang ako ngumite

" Ian ! I love You " mga salitang matagalan ko nang gustong marinig

" *sob Evan *sob "

" wah te-teka lang ! Galit ka parin ba dahil sa nangyari ? "

gago hindi na ako galit

" hayst ! Sorry ka-kasi ano ahm kasi ahm ayaw ko kasing may ka fling kang ibang lalaki maliban sa akin " pabulong niyang sabi pero narinig ko naman

" argh ! Ayaw kung makarinig ng ibang lalaki " mahigpit parin ang pagkayakap niya sa akin

ha ? Ehh siya nga lang yung nagsalita

" I love You Ian ! I love you ! I love You "

" te-teka lang Evan " aba't hindi ako makahinga sa higpit ng yakap niya

" Ian I love You " seryuso niyang sabi sa akin habang nakatingin sabay harap niya sa aking mukha

" Me too ! I love You " as he kissed my eyes down to my tears and my nose and my lips , our first passionate kiss ? Or second kiss ?

" Ian "

" yes ? "

" If you really love me delete those photos ! I mean all of them including yung first picture na kinuha mo " Ehh ! ? No way ! Sayang ! Marami kasi akong picture sa kanya hehehe Stolen yung iba

" no way "

" Ian huhu please " with matching puppy eyes , argh ! What a pain !

" okay ! But except for the first pic " I said while intertwined my fingers

" NO WAY ! DELETE THEM PLEASE "

" WHYYYYY ? First picture mo yun ayaw kung idelete  at saka ginawa ko na kasi yung wallpaper "

" hayst ! Ang pangit at ang laswa naman kasi nung first pic na yun " sabi niya sa akin saka niya ako hinila palapit sa kanya saka kami nagpalit ng pwesto, siya na ngayon ang naka upo at nakasandal sa may pader habang nakayakap naman siya sa aking likuran saka niya ne lean yung head niya sa shoulder ko

" pero first "

" hayst ! Yung ibang picture palitan nalang natin na tayong dalawa yung nasa litrato " nakayakap parin siya sa akin habang bumulong sa aking tenga

" pero yung first ? "

" wag muna lang i delete pero yung iba paki delete nalang "

" arggghh ! Ang sakit " rinig naming sabi ni senso , ayy taena naman nakalimutan namin siya !

" tara na ! " saka ko siya hinila at umalis doon, buti nalang at hindi nakita ni senso si Evan

" te-teka lang " lakad parin kami ng lakad , teka lang saan ba kami pupunta ?

" tigil muna " saka naman ako tumigil , nasa may gilid kami ng CR kung saan nangyari yung first naming dalawa

" hey Ian your already hard " bulong niya sa aking tenga saka siya yumakap . 

ahh sh*t yung ari namin nagkadikit , his f*cking hard as well

" I want to do it "

" me too " and we shared a kiss again

-- YEARS PASSED BY --- 

Ring ! Ring ! Ring ! (tunog ng alarm clock)

Pinilit kung abutin ang alarm clock na nasa gilid

" good morning ! " sabi ko sa kanya saka ako nag lean at humalik sa kanyang noo

" good morning Evan " at ngumite naman siya sa akin

" stay here , magluluto muna ako " tumayo naman ako saka dali daling pumunta sa kusina para magluto

Its been a years since wer'e living together, we enjoy our 7 years anniversary last month

" Evan ~ anong niluluto mo ? " rinig kung sigaw niya pero feel ko nasa higaan parin siya

" Fried rice and chiken at saka gulay "

seven years na kami and were still inlove with each other and si Ian ? Ayun same parin then yung parents niya ? Last 2 years binibisita namin yung family niya nagkahingian ng sorry both sides kaya ngayon okay naman lahat , yung work niya sa brothel ? Matagal na siyang nag resign doon , noong time na pumunta ako sa kanya yung time na gusto ko siyang mag quit sabi niya tomorrow on that time nag quit siya but nag quit lang siya sa pagiging p********e dahil inaasign kasi siya ng may ari sa counter nalang siya mag tratrabaho. 

Since siya lang mag isa ang bumubuhay sa kanyang sarili pero ngayon wala na yung brothel . I think 4 years ago yata ? Tapos gumawa nalang sila ng bagong business tapos yung mga ka workmate niya ? Ayun nag tratrabaho sa bagong business nila hmm ano ulit yung business nila ? Sa pagkaka alam ko parang Hair Salon yata yun at foot spa and they still have a communication with each other which s good thing . 

" Evan ~ "

" hinahanda ko lang yung pagkain "

Right now we already have our own carrier. 

 Im working in a huge company with a highest salary while si Ian naman ay nag tratrabaho bilang nurse and he insist to take charge of the patient who was the owner of the said brothel it seems na may sakit yung may ari kaya si Ian nag insist na sa kanya nalang i assign ang pagbabantay 

" hey lets eat " tumayo naman siya sa higaan at lumapit sa akin saka yumakap sa aking likuran

" bakit ba kasi hindi tayo same ng day off " sabi niya at saka siya bumitaw sa pagkayakap

" ohh about that ? I already ask to change my schedule " saka naman ako umupo sa upoan para kumain

" really ? Yehey !  " pumalakpak naman siya at umupo

Tahimik lang kaming kumakain , ay may nakalimutan ata ako

" wait diyan kalang " tumayo naman ako at kinuha ang matagal ko nang pinag iponan ,  saka kulang napansin na sumunod pala siya sa akin

" Ian ? " lumapit naman ako sa kanya saka ko kinuha ang kamay niya

" I know marriage between same s*x is impossible but this ring prove that we already married with each other " and  put the ring on his finger

We already a sinner's from the bible but I know that God is always watching us , whatever happen .Kahit ano pa ang pagsubok na binigay sa amin lahat ng yun ay nilampasan namin

 I know some people doesnt accept us but wer'e not forcing them to accept . 

" Evan *sob I love You *sob I love you *sob *sob " I saw him crying

Kung sa bibliya at sa langit hindi kami tanggap but I know hindi kami pinabayaan ng maykapal . Lahat ng pagsubok na binigay niya sa amin lahat ng yun ay kakayanin namin 

What is Love ?

Does love between same s*x is impossible ?

Gender is just a word but what important is the people that you feel secure and your feelings are connected as you feel like its your own family

Imagining a future , thinking ahead ! Together forever

Forever ? I hope so

We may be UNDESTINED with our gender but we are DESTINED by each other . Fate bring us together to become one . 

Hindi man kami pwedeng ikasal sa simbahan but I know that we already married by our heart's. 

Life is like a test if you know the answer you gonna say it

Does a straight man attract to a Homo ? 

Of course , based on my experience kahit pilit kung e deny wala parin

Isa na ba ako sa kanila ? Siguro but one thing for sure

THIS PERSON WAS DESTINED FOR ME . 

" *sob hic *sob lets have a date this weekend " umiiyak parin siya ,, argh! Ang cute niya talaga

" sure "

" and *sob let's watch movie *sob "

" and ? " nakayakap parin siya sa akin

" let's travel to somewhere *sob "

" anything else ? " oh ang cute niya talaga

" let's have a honeymoon " Honeymoon ? ?

" mag file mo na ako ng leave request okay ? Does one week is enough ? " tumango naman siya bilang pagsang ayon

" and also you , you have to file a leave request  " saka naman siya tumango ulit

" anything else ? "

" let's have dinner after work "

hmm dinner ?

" I shall ask for the reservation " ngumite lang siya sa akin at saka ko siya hinalikan

Love should never mean having to live in fear

If loving him is a suicide then I will take a risk 

Love has no Gender - comparison has no religion and character has no race

We've been discriminating by the other people and laugh at but still were standing and fighting  as we continue living 

We only live once, nobody could dictate your life its your own Life

Signing Off

Evan Tian Bloodfallen