I had no idea when Jaxx would arrive or when he would be able to message me, or if he would still message me at all because of my stupidity. But I owed him an explanation and I did not like how we parted. It wasn’t supposed to be like that.
I was supposed to be crying, yes, but not because of regret. But we can’t change things now. I lost something I could not regain or mend. The only thing that made it worth it was that it was with some that I loved and who loved me back. It meant something to both of us.
I had been battling the voice in my head that made me feel filthy and disgusting because I engaged in pre-marital s*x. The stern voice of my conscience did not listen to reason. It detested me because I was now tarnished and unworthy.
Ganoon ba kasama ang nagawa ko? Was w
