BEFORE YOU

A PIECES IN MY HEART

Hello guys, I am writing this story in a simple way but steamy: sorry. my mood has changed sometimes like your boyfriend or girlfriend is. Sometimes it's hot but sometimes it is cold. Char!! joke... try to improve or discover my ideas into a new genre. please expect some grammatical errors. Hope you like this and support me guys.☺️☺️

JCM

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I stirred on the table with two cups. I can't decide what flavor ice cream to eat. Ice cream has been my favorite since I was a child. But now I want to make sure that whatever I choose, the taste is excellent to me. All of the flavors offered looked delicious. As I was about to get the mango flavor, I stopped, as he appeared.

"Jenny can I please talk to you?" The urgency in Reid's voice was evident. His eyes widened as he suddenly stood in front of me.

"No. I have nothing left to say to you. I told you how I felt a year ago." I whirl around ready to get back to my mothers wedding reception.

"Jen, please." He begs.

It's not like him to beg and I hate to admit that it pulled on my heart in the worst way, the way only he can affect me. I try not to act like it bothers me but it does. I don't want him to have this affect on me anymore. The truth is he has my heart and he has had it for a year and no matter how much I try to deny it. I was restocking the dessert table when a few passing by guests were watching us with questioning eyes.

I grabbed his arm and pulled him away from the reception. I was the one who led us out. Once we were on the other side of the car parked, my eyes rolled as I faced him. The same man I fell for in almost a year seems like a shell of the man I once knew. His dark and curly hair was longer and hanging on his forehead in a beautiful mess from not being brushed. His eyes aren't as bright as they used to be; in fact, they look dull and full of sadness, and I feel my heart aching to take whatever pain he is feeling away, but I can't bring myself to help him in any way.

"What is it Reid? I don't have time for this." I sigh impatiently not holding in the attitude dripping off of me. I am trying like hell to hold myself together but I feel myself caving but I won't give him the satisfaction. I can't. I won't.

"I just want to say that I am sorry for hurting you-" I scoff rolling my eyes.

"Hurting me? You f*****g broke me Reid. Look if you are here to say sorry it's too late for that. I have to go." I whirl around anxiously needing to get away from him. To put as much distance between us as I possibly can. He thinks he hurt me? He shattered every single piece of my heart and now he wants to say sorry?

"Jenny wait! No I am not here just to say that I am sorry. Look I get it I am an asshole, okay? I know that I tore you apart but I was scared. I was scared that if I was with you what that would mean for my image. Our parents were getting married. I was so hooked on wondering what people would think of me, of you. I couldn't bear the thought of anyone giving you s**t for being with me. People have their opinions and judgments. I figured I would leave and hope you would find someone you wouldn't have to hide your relationship with." he said. I feel all the air in my lungs leave me at once almost crashing into the ground.

"I got scared and so I left. I didn't think twice about it. I thought it was what was best for you. For us but I was wrong. I thought about you every day. You were the first thing I thought of in the morning and the last thing I thought about before I fell asleep and everything in between. I found myself making stupid rash decisions but the thought of you and what you would think of me saved me." His eyes bored into mine begging me to believe him and I wanted to but I was so hurt and shattered probably beyond repair.

"Reid, what is the point of all of this? If you ever expect me to forgive you, I can't. You left me when I needed you the most. When I was in the hospital, you were not there!" I felt tears welling in my eyes. There's a burning fire within me causing my brain to not exactly cooperate. I just thought the day he left me flooded my mind, and I felt my heart shattered.

"I was so scared Jen! You told me you were pregnant and not even a few hours later we were in a car accident and you lost the baby. I saw it as my fault. I was nowhere near ready to be a dad. Do you know what that would have done to us? How would we explain to everyone we were having a baby? We had barely just gotten together. You telling me you were pregnant was like a bucket of ice in my face. It sent me to reality but that was then. This is now. I am here. I am ready to be with you. I will shout it from the top of the mountains if you want. I will march in there right now and tell my dad and your mom that I am in love with you if that is what it will take."

"Cling! cling!"

I hear a sound of bells inside the reception and clapping of many hands was followed. But my mind is still in here.

"Are you insane? You think that all of that makes what you did okay? You think I was ready to be a mom? I was barely eighteen! But I was okay with being a mom because I knew that baby was half of you and I was so in love with you that I didn't care! I was prepared to figure things out. I didn't care what our families thought of us. I was happy! You ruined that! Not only did I have to grieve the loss of our baby I had to grieve losing you Reid and I can't do that again. I won't make it." The tears I had been fighting from falling started sliding down my face as if they were in a race to see who could make it fast down my cheeks.

"Jen, I am so sorry, please. I know nothing I can do or say will take away the pain I put you through but please give me a chance to make it up to you. I am in love with you. You are it for me. Forever. You are all I want." Here he is standing in front of me saying all the right things, willing to fight for us and what we had and all I can think about is how is he going to hurt me next time?

"Reid-" I yelled. Because he suddenly put himself on the ground, to kneel down and beg.

"Jen, it's my fault.. please.. I am sorry."

"Stand up!" I insist.

"No, I'm here only for you and not for them." he said as he looked at me as if all of what he had done is just a small thing.

"You said you were in love with me is that still true?" He grabs my hands and squeeze them gently. Of course it's still true. Once you love someone it doesn't just go away.

"What does it matter?" I cry slamming my eyes shut as more tears slid down my face.

"If its it true? Do you still love me?" He beg for an answer. My heart was racing inside of my chest like I had just run a marathon even though I was just standing here.

"Yes I still love you." I admit, like of stone cracks on the grounds. Causing of an earthquake suddenly happened around me. Thunder and lightening booming and cracking all around the sky. A storm was a brewing but don't they say rain on your wedding day is good luck?

"Then let that be the reason you give me a second chance. Jen please. I love you. I will always get on my knees to show how much I love you, if that is what you want. You are a special person to me. I want to marry you. I want to build my future family with you. I wasn't ready to admit it back then, but I am now.

Please Jen "

"I already told you that I still love you. I just answered your question, so please... please let me free.."