Who

Chapter 23

Nagsisimula na ang program. Kaya ang ingay, rinig na rinig dito sa may dressing room. Nakiki-room ako sa glee club dahil ako lang naman mag-isa kaya hindi ko na in-occupy yung isang room kasi p'wede pa yun magamit nang ibang club na magpe-perform din.

"Good luck, guys!" sabi ko sa mga members ng glee club dahil sila ulit magpe-perform bago ako.

"Good luck din po!" sabi nila kaya lumawak ang ngiti ko at pinanood silang magsilabasan.

Humarap ulit ako sa vanity mirror at tinignan ang itsura ko. Nakasuot ako ngayon ng white mesh sleeves na 2-inches above the knee at white ankle strap heels. Inayos nila ang buhok ko to soft waves and bumps dahil natural naman daw na wavy ang buhok ko. Ang make up na nilagay nila sa'kin ay simple lang naman dahil ayoko rin ng makapal na make up.

Nilapitan ako ng isang staff hudyat na ako na ang susunod na magpe-perform. S'ya ang may dala ng gitara ko habang pinapakalma ko ang sarili ko dahil hindi talaga ako masasanay na humarap sa maraming tao. Bumababa na ang mga glee club members at nang makita nila ako ay ni-cheer up nila ako kaya kahit papa'no nabawasan ang kaba ko.

"Let's all welcome, the secretary of Student Supreme Government and the student of HE department, Reese Jael Villanueva!" sabi ng emcee na Presidente ng SSG kaya lumabas na ako at pumunta sa stage, tinulungan ako ng mga staff sa pag-aayos at ng maayos na ay tinignan ko ang mga students.

"I . . . uhm . . ." natawa ako ng mahina dahil kinakabahan talaga ako.

"Go, Reese!" sigaw ng mga kaklase ko kaya napangiti ako.

"I don't know but last year, when my bestfriend, Selene, sang this song . . ." huminga ako ng malalim.

"A lot of people requested us to sing this song together. But I can't because I'm, well, not really confident of my voice."

"But I decided that I will sing this song this Valentine's Day Program, I wish we did this sooner before she . . ." napangiti ako ng mapait.

"So I just don't dedicated this song to her but to those person who was lost, which alludes to people needing help. She expresses her sympathy for an ex-lover, to the degree of not wanting to move forward without him by her side." I srunch my nose.

"Yes, I know, this is break up song." natawa yung mga schoolmates ko dahil sa sinabi ko.

"But I hope you guys will like it." nakangiting sabi ko kaya narinig ko ang palakpakan nila.

Nagsimula na akong magstrum.

"Lying in my bed, I hear the clock tick and think of you

Caught up in circles

Confusion is nothing new

Flashback, warm nights

Almost left behind

Suitcase of memories

Time after"

Napangiti na lamang ako dahil marahan nilang winawagayway ang kamay nila na akala mo um-attend ng concert.

"Sometimes you picture me

I'm walking too far ahead

You're calling to me, I can't hear

What you've said

Then you say, "go slow"

And I fall behind

The second hand unwinds"

Palihim akong humugot ng hininga at napangiti dahil naalala ko si Selene. This is her favorite song.

"If you're lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time

If you fall, I will catch you, I'll be waiting

Time after time

If you're lost, you can look and you will find me

Time after time

If you fall, I will catch you, I will be waiting

Time after time"

Napangiti ako dahil sinabayan nila ang pagkanta ko. Siguro na realize na nila kung ano yung kinakanta ko. Sino ba naman makakalimot sa kinanta ni Selene? Time after Time is the reason kung bakit s'ya nakilala rito dahil na rin sa maganda ang boses n'ya.

"After my picture fades and darkness has

Turned to gray

Watching through windows

You're wondering if I'm okay

Secrets stolen from deep inside (deep inside)

And the drum beats out of time"

Hindi na ata mawawala ang pagkakangiti ko dahil kahit mahina ang boses nila ay naririnig ko pa rin na sinasabayan nila ang pagkanta ko.

"If you're lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time

If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting

Time after time

If you're lost, you can look and you will find me

Time after time

If you fall, I will catch you, I will be waiting

Time after time

Time after time"

Lumawak ang pagkakangiti ko dahil sa chorus lang talaga lumakas yung mga boses nila.

"I've got a suitcase of memories that I almost left behind

Time after time

Time, time, time

But you say to go slow but I fall behind

Time after time after time (after time, oh)"

Pagkahuling strum ko ay nagpalakpakan sila. Kaya hinintay ko muna na humupa ang ingay bago ako magsalita ulit.

"For the next song, ito yung ewan ko pero most requested nila." natatawang sabi ko.

"Hindi ko na siguro pa kailangan sabihin kapag narinig n'yo na but all I want to say is I think na nasa relasyon talaga yung may chance na magbago kayo it's either for good or bad way. Pero para sa'kin, ha? Sana walang magalit." nakangiting sabi ko kaya napansin kong napangiti rin sila.

"Siguro may reasons kung bakit nagbabago or nagbago yung partner natin, I mean n'yo. Wala pala akong boyfriend." natawa sila sa sinabi ko.

"So, I was saying is that the changes that happens to your partner, it depends on how you treated them. Kaya 'wag kayong magtaka kung bakit sila nagbabago. Sana magets n'yo yung sinasabi ko." napangiti ako ng alanganin.

"So here it goes." Huminga ako ng malalim at nagsimulang magstrum.

"Our minds have new eyes and visions of you

Boy, I think I need a minute

To figure out what is, what isn't

These choices and voices, they're all in my head

Sometimes you make me feel crazy

Sometimes, I swear I think you hate me like uh

I need a walk, I need a walk, I need to get out of here

'Cause I need to know"

Kapag nand'yan si Reo naghaharumentado ang puso ko na akala ko ay abnormal na ito dahil sa bilis ng t***k pero na realize ko kalaunan na nahuhulog na pala ako sa kan'ya. Nung una grabe pa deny ko kasi alam kong parang mali kasi kaibigan s'ya ng kapatid ko pero wala e, hindi pala talaga mapipigilan yung feelings mo kapag nand'yan na talaga.

"Who are you?

'Cause you're not the boy I fell in love with, baby

Who are you?

'Cause something has changed, you're not the same, I hate it

Oh, I'm sick of waiting for love, love

Oh, I know that you're not the one, one"

Nung nalaman ko na ganun pala si Reo, sobra akong nasaktan, naisip ko na hindi s'ya yung taong minamahal ko. Yung taong nagpapatibok nang puso ko pero na realize ko na hindi ko pa talaga s'ya kilala. Akala ko lang pala yun.

"Feeling hypnotized by the words that you said

Don't lie to me, just get in my head

When the morning comes, you're still in my bed

But it's so, so cold"

I always assume na may gusto ko sa'kin dahil sa mga words and actions mo pero malalaman mo lang talaga yung totoo kapag umamin na sila sa'yo.

"Who are you?

'Cause you're not the boy I fell in love with

Who are you?

'Cause you're not the boy I fell in love with, baby

Who are you? (Who are you?)

'Cause something has changed, you're not the same, I hate it

Oh, I'm sick of waiting for love, love

Oh, I know that you're not the one, one"

I realized that it not always about how we treated them, it's all about how we know that person because sometimes we thought that we knew them when in fact it's the other way around.

Pagkatapos kong magperform ay agad akong pumunta sa backstage dahil may susunod pa sa'king magtanghal.