Playful Destiny

Chapter 9

The sense of injustice overwhelmed me, casting a dark cloud over my thoughts. I found myself silently waiting inside the guidance office, my mind swirling with a multitude of words, while my eyes anxiously searched for the arrival of my advisor, Claire, and Cath.

The staff member stationed at the office, who had already expressed their disapproval of this kind of situation, reiterated their stance once again.

With their arrival, I prepared myself mentally, constructing thoughts to anticipate their forthcoming words. I assumed a passive role, attentively listening as a barrage of words escaped their mouths, scolding me for not offering an apology to Claire, instead I said some offensive words. I admit, it was my mistake.

Suddenly, I became the focal point of their problem.

"She didn't even apologized to me! I declare some suspension para matauhan siya!" I rolled my eyes. Lumabas ang totoong kulay niya, that's not who she is when I first met her.

"As the elected President of the Student Government, entrusted with the responsibility of attending to the needs of the school, managing reports, and various other tasks, I respectfully request your attention, Ms. Cardinal. I bring forward a matter that requires your consideration, the suspension of Autumn Laurier, based on the remarks she made." Nagbigay siya ng pagkahaba-habang speech na pati ang Guidance Counselor hindi maintindihan. I understand everything she said tho.

Imagine, using your position para may mapa-suspend ka lang?

It became apparent that she possessed a depth of knowledge and experience beyond what she initially revealed.

Her discussions about her position were minimal, and her authoritative demeanor seemed to indicate a prolonged period of inactivity in utilizing her authority.

Tahimik lang si Cath as usual, she doesn't want to open up either, we let Claire speak about this problem. The Counselor begin to think. I'm not that nervous about the outcome.

I am.

"I kindly request, Ms. Cardinal, to refrain from sharing this information with the Principal." There she is, she knows him well. Kinamot ko ang tenga ko, she's really keen.

Ms. Cardinal let out a heavy sigh as she began addressing the situation, stating, "Firstly, Miss Laurier, it has come to my attention that you are wearing an inappropriate uniform." I had already anticipated that this would be used as a basis for a potential suspension.

"Secondly, there have been multiple reports of you consistently not paying attention during your teacher's lessons. And finally, there have been incidents where you have been heard uttering vulgar language outside the corridors, so ano sa tingin mo ang mangyayari?"

"In light of the circumstances, Miss Santos, I have determined that there is insufficient evidence to warrant the suspension of Miss Laurier. None of the allegations brought forth provide the necessary grounds for such action. I apologize for the misuse of your position, as it has proven to be inconsequential in this matter."

Halata ang pagkadismaya sa kaniyang mukha, me and Cath enlighten up. I mean it's real naman since wala akong ibang ginawa, hindi ko naman siya sinaktan para ma suspend, and last napaka babaw naman kung isu-suspend ako sa ganyang dahilan.

Give the counselor some applause for saying na her position is useless.

"You may now take your leave. However, before you do, Laurier, I must issue you a warning. I extend my apologies to Miss Cath, who has become a victim of these circumstances. The same goes for you, Miss Santos, as I understand the position you have been placed in."

A profound sense of injustice swept over me. I couldn't help but question myself as I gazed at them, disbelief etched across my face, particularly when Claire departed from the Guidance office.

Was this truly fair? It reminded me that humanity, in its essence, remains constant, yet it is the individual choices made by people that determine whether they will pursue the truth or surrender to the illusions of this world.

Silently, I departed from the Guidance office without expressing my acceptance of the counselor's words.

The weight of my problems seemed to entangle me further with each passing day.

I must let go of what I previously said and seek redemption for the situation I find myself in. It is crucial that I refrain from blaming myself solely, as the responsibility also lies with others involved.

With the guidance of knowledge, I can find a way to solve this problem within myself, independent of anyone else's help.

While walking sa corridor, I couldn't help but to think where is Fin right now. I left him pero hindi siya sumunod.

Perhaps I have been too quick to blame myself for the situation at hand.

In my pursuit of redemption, I find myself unintentionally keeping a distance from those who could offer me assistance.

Instead of seeking help to alleviate my burdens, I have chosen to carry them alone.

This self-imposed isolation reflects a peculiar blend of conscious and unconscious thinking, where my usually humorous mind takes on the role of a critical thinker during such crucial times.

Through outside the room. Kumakain ng clover si Mat, parang wala lang sa kaniya ang nangyari, he greeted me with a cheesy hand.

"Parang nanalo sa case ang galing! With cheats syempre." Cheats? What did he mean?

Napansin niya na medyo naguluhan ako sa sinabi niya, I tried to comprehend what he said until I get it.

"The look on your face says it all, yeah, I know na masu-suspend ka, so, habang nagbabardagulan kayo sa loob ng Guidance Office, I secretly chatting Ms. Counselor that Claire doesn't have that much evidence to show to make you suspend." That's why nag-isip maigi si Ms. Cardinal? So, the principal yet doesn't know about what's happening right now,

"Did you see Fin somewhere?" He licked his finger, nagkasalubong ang kilay niya 'saka tinuro ang cr ng mga lalaki.

"Ngie, 'di ka manlang nag thank you, siya nanaman hanap mo." I smiled awkwardly to him and whispered 'Thank you' he whispered too 'You're welcome'.

Just then I remembered what I have said earlier.

"Don't ever...get too close to me."

Bakit mo paba need sabihin 'yan Serenity?!

I find myself repeatedly placing blame upon myself, convinced that I am the root of the problem.

My own understanding seems to elude me, leaving me uncertain about whether I should offer an apology or completely avoid any further interaction.

The thought of facing the person in question fills me with immense discomfort, making it difficult to envision any future conversation with them.

My hands tremble with the weight of my emotions, as I sink into a state of profound despair.

Despite my efforts to forge new connections and friendships, I once again find myself shattering the trust placed in me.

It feels as though I have become a source of disappointment for humanity as a whole.

"Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent" - Ludwig Wittgeinstein