Psyche and Psycho

Chapter 33

Pag labas ko ng kwarto ay agad na hinanap ko si Damon para sana kuhanin ang cellphone ko I want to go back to Manila as soon as possible! I cannot stand another in here!

Paglabas ko ay nakita kong nasa pool area sina Damon at yung lalaki na kausap ko kanina they were laughing but they eventually stopped nung mapansin nilang paparating na ako kaagad akong nginitian ng lalaki at saka inanyayahan na sumabay sa kanilang kumain.

“Come here Ela, join us kanina ka pa hinihintay nitong asawa mo.” Masayang anyaya nya sa akin.

Agad naman akong na pa taas ng kilay ng marinig ang sinabi nya. Asawa??? What the hell?

Hindi ko na muna pinansin ang sinabi nya dahil baka namali lang ako ng dinig. Baka this is just the hangover that’s shitting me.

Dahil Ayoko ng magmukang rude I quietly sat down and joined them for breakfast.

“Is your head still throbbing? Dame ask someone to make a soup for Ela. She needs it hindi pala pang malakasan na inuman itong asawa mo,” natatawang sabi ng lalaki kay Damon.

Agad namang nanlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi nya dahil na realize ko na s**t hindi ako mali ng rinig!

“Excuse me? What are you talking about?! Anong asawa?” nalilito at nagpipigil ng inis na tanong ko sa lalaki.

Na pa tingin naman ito kay Damon at natawa.

“Kayo? Hindi ba at kinasal ko pa kayong dalawa kagabi? You don’t remember anyting? Yan nan ga ba kasi ang kulit kulit mo kagabi sabi ko na ngayong maga nalang kayo magpakasal na dalawa but you insisted. Even Damon is telling you to sleep but you wont. Paulit ulit mong sinasabi sa kanya na hindi ka makakatulog hanggang hindi ka nya pinapakasalan.” Tumatawang kwento nito.

I looked at Damon and gave him a what the f**k look.

He just shrugged at me and the continued eating.

“A-ano pong pinag sa sasabi nyo? We are not married! I will never ever want to marry this man!” I exaggeratedly said to him.

The man lied his back on the chair and then seriously looked at Damon and then turned his head on me.

“What do you mean? You begged me last night na ikasal ko kayo. Please Ela don’t tell me you are just drunk? Damon?               ” naguguluhan ngunit seryosong tanong nya sa aming dalawa.

Sabay kaming lumingon kay Damon na ngayon ay seryosong naka tingin sa akin.

“You said you wanna get married? Paulit ulit mo yung sinasabi sa akin kahapon habang binubuhat kita pabalik dito sa villa. I told you to shut up and also told that it was only the alcohol but you wont just stop. You even threatened me that you will go back to the ocean and drown yourself again so technically it was not my fault sa totoo lang pakiramdam ko ako pa nga yung naagrabyado mo.” Naka  pameywang na sagot nito sa akin.

Na pa tingin ako sa kanya ng masama habang sya naman ay naghalukipkip lang.

“Ija, honestly kaya ko kayo ikinasal because I thought that you are madly in love with me. Paulit ulit mong sinasabi kahapon na ikasal ko na kayo. Actually Damon called me in the middle of the night telling me that he needs to get married asap. I should have just listened to him ija. Paulit ulit nyang sinasabi sa akin kagabi na wag kitang pakinggan but when you started crying I couldn’t help but just give in Ija.” Malungkot na sabi nito sa akin.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi ko magawang magalit sa kanya pero hindi ko pa din maprocess yung sinasabi nya.

“Hindi ko po kayo masyadong naiintindihan. Hindi ko pa din po maproseso ang sinasabi nyo. Ibig nyo po bang sabihin ay kasal na ako sa lalaking to?! Oh God! This must be a terrible dream! Wake up Psyche Estella! You have to wake the f**k up!” Singhal ko sa sarili ko habang naiinis na tinatampal tampal ang pisngi ko.

Hindi to pwedeng mangyari naguumpisa pa lang ako na ayusin ko yung buhay ko hindi pa man ako nakakapagsimula unti unti nanamang gumugulo.

“Damon, you are sober and in the right mind last night! Lahat ba ng babaeng nagsasabi sayong pakasalan mo sila ay pinapakasalan mo?! Specially when they are drunk?! For fcks sake! Don’t play with me. Please stop playing with me! Hindi na to nakakatuwa,” naiiyak kong sabi kay Damon.

He looked at me and then sighed.

“I only did a favoer and now ako pa ang may kasalanan? I don’t know why I keep on looking after you and saving your even though I cant even have a simple thank you. And yes hindi lahat ng babaeng nagsasabi sa akin na pakasalan ko sila ay pinapakasalan ko dahil hindi naman din sila tulad na mo na handing magpakalunod sa dagat pag hindi ko pinagbigyan.”

He got his phone and dialed a number.

“Hello Celeste? Its me Damon, I am not sure kung nasama sa dinala ni Arnaldo sa opisina yung marriage certificate ko please bring it back here in the resort.” Sabi ni Damon sa kausap sa phone.

Para namang lumuwag ang loob ko ng marinig na hindi pa naman pala iyon naipapasok and besides masyadong maaga pa at hindi naming kami ang nagasikaso personally so I think that is actually voidable.

“I am so sorry Ija,” malungkot na sab isa akin ng matanda sa harap ko.

Na realize ko na we’ve been talking for quite some time now and yet hindi ko pa din sya kilala but he feels familiar also at baka nga gaya ng sabi nya naka sama siguro nga talaga namin sya nila Mom sa isang cruiseship.

“It’s okay it was an honest mistake pasensya na din po kayo sa gulong dinala ko. Yesterday was my off day so I was kind of wasted I am very sorry po,” nahihiya kong sabi din.

Sa totoo lang sya tinulungan lang si Damon now knowing na sobrang lasing ko lang kagabi it was an honest mistake and I should not blame others for the troubles that I caused myself.

“Anon a nga po ang pangalan ninyo?” tanong ko sa kanya.

Na pa ngiti sya sa akin.

“Estello,” naka ngiti nyang sagot sa akin.

Agad naman akong natawa dahil binibiro nya ako. My name is Estella so it cant be that his name is Estello it will seriously feel awkward.

“Binibiro nyo naman po ako eh,” natatawang sagot ko sa kanya.

Akala ko sasagot sya at sasabihin ang totong pangalan nya but he gave me a serious look with a sincere smile and lonely eyes.

“Totoong pangalan ko ang Estello, and by the way I was your Mom and Dad’s bestfriend its just that we had to part ways because of somethings. Your mom got your name from me. I am sure that your Dad probably went ballistic. Pero nung araw na nagkita tayo sa cruiseship I was the captain that time and seeing your happy family, I was so happy for the both of them. That was also the time we patched things up as friends. I should see your Dad, how is he doing by the way?” naka ngiti nyang tanong sa akin.

So my name Estella was a girl version of his name Estello? Weird.

I was about to answer him when Damon came.

“I am so sorry Psyche, pero naipasok ng secretary ko yung marriage certificate natin at naprocess na iyon kagaad.” He said.

I almost fainted after hearing what he said.

“WHAT?!” sigaw ko sa kanya.