twin

the song writer

she knew, what will make aki happy

it was her body

but she knew what will make him REALLY happy

his ex girlfriend

"later ok?" keeps repeating on her mind.

throws away the cigarette butt. steps on it to made sure its off.

she doesn't know what to do anymore.

she has lost her mind

she's caught up in the mids of her desire to be with him

but she really wanted to already give up and give him back to where he really belong.

its like a tag of war, trying to pull him back on her line

but she can see... he had already crossed the line towards the winner

who wasn't really trying too hard to win him back.

meg is already on her knees, in pain, as she has been dragged down by the rope she tied on aki.

"is there gonna be a chance after this, if i sleep with him again" "will he change his mind?" "do is still have a space on his heart...?" "do i have to keep on trying...or should i... just let go?" staring at the moon, the stars.

she cant count

just like his love ...

it's there...

but she cant have it.

she hears the laughter inside the house

his sisters , brother... aki... everyone laughing while drinking.

enjoying the night.

the laughter she used to share with them

and now... it feels sad.

in her ears that laughter will no longer exist if she leaves him.

but its just the same..

leave him or not

she will never exist.

no longer exist.

she gets in the house

and aki hands her a drink

"its your turn, you missed 2 shots...what took you so long?"

"ahmm i just answered a call." trying to make him jealous

but he didnt care.

she just changed the topic

"what were you guys talking about, i heard you guys laughing out loud..."she asked

"aki here was telling us to learn his new song. we couldn't believe he wrote a

song, and i was teasing him, like... how could he write a song, he doesn't even

have a girlfriend.. but just an EX girlfriendddd" then she laughed teasing aki.

"yes it might be dedicated to that slut..." said the elder sister

"slut?" she wondered. cringed

it seems that his sisters didn't like his ex... they were bashing him for writing a song.

though they called her slut for hurting their brother.

she knew from reny that his family liked the ex so much before.

she was a part of his family

they had been together for 3 years.

and she lived with him for that long.

sad part was, aki just keep on laughing about it and not even giving meg the

credit of making that song.

his brother takes the paper where the lyrics was written

he reads every line

with feelings

teasing aki

and everybody laughs

it was her feelings

that they were laughing about

it was her wish

her love..

for aki

they were making fun of it

she felt embarrased

but she knows that everbody was just kidding

its not a serious matter for them. but it was for her

it was for him, in another way.

no one knows it was her hearts desire.

no one knows how badly she wanted to have him back.

she just smiled..

hiding her ego

hiding her feelings.

it hurts. it really hurts.

she drinks 2 more shots and she excused herself again

she was feeling off

awkward

but aki didnt care

she went inside akis room

took her bag, and got another stick of cigarette

she was stressed.

aki went to his room to get his phone that was charging

but he didnt mind meg and went out immediately.

he took his phone out even if its just 20% charged.

he was assuming meg will check his phone.

he was hiding something...

but he didnt know

meg already knew about it.

meg went out of akis room and observed for a little while before she gets out of the house  to light another cigarette.

aki was texting

his brother teases him "lover boy, are you guys getting  back together?" he said

caught that he was texting his ex girlfriend.

"shut up bro.. im not texting her." then hids his phone in his pocket.

"you are.. "

"pssst.. no" signals his brother to shut up.

then looks at meg.

meg conversed with the younger sister with just a random girl thing. so aki won't notice that she was observing him.

she grabs some chips and opens it.

aki stood up and went immediately to meg

"hey i like that..." said aki , getting it from meg

"hey... thats mine... or why not share..." tries to get it back

"nooo, ahaha!" puts it over his head up high so meg coudn't reach.

she kept on trying to reach it but she got tired.

"you're so selfishhhh!!" she sighs and said it with a double meaning

"you are so selfish, not giving me credits on my work, selfish on your love, you cant even give me even a bit of it." she thought.

to her disappointment of not getting the chips, she then went out to light another cigarette.

aki followed her.

"i told you just one stick..here, have some" hands her the chips

"why are you so selfish aki... you know that's my favorite"

"my favorite too"

"then share it with me."

"hahaha i was just joking around, you know me, i'm not that selfish"

"no, i dont know you anymore." she murmured

"what did you say?" steps closer infornt of meg

"nothing.. i said.. this chips are really good."

she was expectiing aki to ask her again about their unfinished business but

aki hands her the bag of chips and gets in the house as his brother called him to make another set of drink.

"later ok?" she recalls what he said. "does he still have plans... later? or he already

forgot about it cause he was texting his ex..." exhales out the smoke as she think.

"maybe not anymore..." throws the cigarette butt then she gets in the house.

"meg sleep with us later" said the elder sister to her as she enters the door

"ahh you guys are staying for the night?"

""yeahhh... we brought our pjs!" "why?  you dont like to sleep with us? it'll be fun, we'll have girl talks haha!" said the younger sister

"of course i'd love to, but you guys usually go home after sessions like this. so im surprised!"

"ill share you secrets... mostly about aki hahaha"

"ahaha sure, secrets of the past?" said meg and laughed

"am i gonna be interested or not?" she thought

meg knows, that knowing his past

specially about the said ex girlfriend will hurt her more.

but she was curious to know more about it

and she feels that maybe it's better for her to know it

so she can convince herself to stop loving him anymore.

meg looks at aki "what about his plan.." she thought

she did not see aki react. but she knows he heard them. (her sisters are loud anyway)

so she just agreed with the sisters.

they were done drinking , aki and his brother cleaned up the mess

the two sisters went to the other room and made the bed, getting ready to sleep.

meg gets her bag from akis room , gets one pillow and a blanket.

she did not hear any comment from aki about her sleeping with his sisters.

"here meg, you will stay on this side, but lets talk first before we sleep hehe" elder sister said  pointing at the left side of the bed.

younger sister closes the door.

bzzzzttt bzzzt

her phone vibrates

"goodnight. enjoy..." with a sad emoji

a text from aki.

is it an opportunity she will miss.

or is this going to be her best excuse of not sleeping with him.

for tonight

or

for the very last night together