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CHAPTER THIRTEEN

The concert started with Taylor Swift singing her newest title track.

Everyone in the crowd screamed others are singing along with her, some are being emotional because of the feels.

Mika and I are just singing loud decided to enjoy this whole night. He is holding my hand many attempts I did to let go dahil gusto ko sanang itaas ang kamay ko but he even interwined our fingers kaya wala na akong nagawa at pinabayaan ko na lang itong hawakan niya.

Bahala siyang mahirapan habang hawak ang kamay ko basta ako I will do my thing. Ang tagal mag-start I want to see her now.

Jumping, screaming, singing out loud losing my breath until I can’t say the next lyrics are what I’d done the whole time. I also take a lot of videos for the memories.

I'm only taking video of me nga but Mika is so epal na laging nakikisama sa mga videos and pictures ko. He does have phone, right? Bakit hindi rin kaya siya mag-record. sighed

Mabuti na lang at may heels itong boots ko because the ones that are in front of us ay matatangkad. Mika's insist to carry me pa nga which I doubt he can dahil naka-skirt ako and also my heels are enough I’m satisfied from what I see.

Wala na akong pakialam kung marindihan sa akin si Mika because of voice I will enjoy this night. Matagal ko itong hinintay and the moment has to come so I’d better cherish every seconds.

Tumingin ako sa lugar nila Cathy to see if she’s also enjoying the night like me, pero hindi ko na sila matanaw pa. Trinity and Mark are still in my sight I saw them kissed one time and I felt jealous, how does it feel to have your special someone, with him jamming in this wonderful night with the artist that you both admire?

Wala naman ako sa wisyo na napatingin kay Mika, he’s smiling wide singing along with the artist on the stage, you can see the stars on his eyes seeing how he is enjoying the moment. He’s stunning, to be honest. He’s literally my ideal type. I shrugged when I realize that I’m overthinking and staring at him for too long.

Nahuli niya akong nakatingin sa kanya and out of nowhere he just kissed my forehead that makes my heartbeat so fast. He continues jamming naman with the music kaya binalewala ko na rin ‘yon to avoid the awkwardness kahit na hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong maramdaman ngayon.

Kudos to the producer of the concert the props are so beautiful it really added so much feeling and you can really relate to the lyrics of the song because of the ambiance.

We’re already at the half of the concert and the artist is already giving some messages to the fans.

“Drink some water” iniabot niya sa akin ang bottled water na kanina pa niya hawak at pinaginuman niya rin, he finally let go my hand at saka na 'ko uminom.

I take out my jacket because I feel hot, at saka ko ito itinali sa waist ko. Mika is staring at me alam ko haggard na ako unlike him na mukhang fresh pa rin, but can he stop it I’m getting conscious, tamad pa naman akong mangalkal ng gamit sa bag to check if maayos pa ba ang mukha ko.

“Why” asking him habang nagpapaypay gamit ang kamay. Napreskuhan naman ako ng kaunti.

“You’re so beautiful” I blushed the moment he said it nang-aasar na naman siya.

“Bolero” at saka ko itinuon ang attention sa stage where the artist still giving the message.

Ramdam kong nakatitig pa rin siya sa akin at ilang seconds lang ay naramdaman ko na ulit ang kamay na bumabalot sa tagiliran ko.

The paper planes are started flying above us as the artist started singing the song.

The crowd is getting quiet, singing in a low voice getting in the feeling of being in love, like the lyrics on the music that we are listening to.

Mika intertwined our fingers again, ayaw kong lumingon sa gawi niya kahit alam kong kanina pa siya nakatitig sa akin. Some of the couples around us giving their partners a hug some of them kisses. Na sumasabay sa awitin na siyang mas lalong nagpapadagdag ng pagbugso ng damdamin.

I know some people nearly with us think that Mika and I are couples just because of how others see us holding hands and giving some gestures as a couple.

But I don’t want to assume anything. I am clearly a concert buddy now so it’s just normal to be like this. We are not needing the affection of each other. I keep telling myself that it’s okay.

I saw Trinity looking for us kaya tumagilid ako to let Mika know, but the moment I face him I got drowned by his stares, kaya napatitig na lang din ako sa kanya hindi namalayan that his other hand is already covering half of my face.

Caressing it gently like I’m the most fragile thing that he ever held.

Decreasing the distance between us na siyang lalong nagpabilis ng t***k ng puso ko. I watch him lock his stared on my lips, with the bass of the music like how my heartbeat getting fast he finally erased the little distance that is gapping us, by kissing me slowly and softly

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Getting what everyone said whenever they have their first kiss. You can feel the butterflies in your stomach. It’s been a long time since I felt this kind of feeling.

Ignoring the crowd that surrounds us, this moment is enough to make me crazy. I kissed him back, making our session more even deeper.

Damn this guy I feel dizzy about how good is he. I can’t even think straight because of his kisses. I’m drowning. We just stop because we are both out of breath.

I can’t look on his face kaya bago pa niya ako matingnan hinigit ko siya to give him a tight hug. Ang ikinatatakot kong mangyari ay nangyari na. I f*****g hate this feeling. This is very wrong, this can’t be.

Daniel itanong mo nga sa sarili mo kung normal pa ba ang maghalikan kapag concert buddy lang kayo?

He also hugs me back and another kiss is what I felt from my shoulder bago kumawala sa yakap ng isa’t-isa. Nanlalambot pa rin ang mga tuhod ko I badly want to hold his hand to support myself na anytime pwedeng bumagsak. But I’m not brave enough to do it. Kayanin mo Daniel.

Didn’t mind what happened kahit na sa kaloob-looban ko gulong gulo na ako, I’m just stopping myself to ask him. If he does have feelings for me? or it is just another behavior of him that he can do to any one of his friends? I shook my head to divert my focus to the performer that is singing.

Wala kaming imik pareho he didn’t hold my hand, nor he places his arms on my waist. We literally became awkward with each other. I saw Cathy and the others are walking toward us. Hindi ko alam paano nila nagawa ‘yon but I welcome her with a hug. I let a heavy sigh as I hug her.

“Everything’s fine right?” I heard her whispering in my ears, her other hand is brushing my back the other one ay naka-holding hands kay Dawn.

They really becoming close to each other huh? Sana all. Natawa ako sa isip ko.

“Yeah, of course” I wipe my tears from my eyes ng pasimple and gave them a smile. I saw Viel look worried, nginitian ko na lang ulit siya para maalis ang pagiging suspicious niya sakin. Buti na lang ay dumating sila baka hindi ko na ma-enjoy ang concert because of what happened.

Magkaakbay kami ngayon ni Cathy the boys are on the back. Hindi ko muna inintindi ang ang nangyari I will just enjoy the concert with my bestfriend which is my original plan.

Pakantang sigaw namin ni Cathy habang sumasabay sa artist na siyang iniidolo namin at natawa na lang kami sa aming ginawa after that. Tumingin naman ako sa likod to see if they are also jamming, I made eye contact to Dale and Viel but they are only watching us. These boys.

The concert ended, and I can’t say that this is the best concert that I’ve attended because of what happened.

But over all I enjoyed it lalo na sa huli noong si Cathy na ang kasama kong nanunuod. We were singing until we lost our breath.

Palabas na kami ng stadium at nakadikit lang ako kay Cathy the whole time naka-wrapped lang ang kamay ko sa braso niya na pati si Dawn ay hindi makadiskarte.

But I know that later on hindi ko pa rin matatakasan ito, if I want to sleep tight mamaya kailangan ko itong harapin. Kasama na rin namin sila Trinity ngayon and as usual nakatabi na sa kanya si Mika natawa na lang ako parang walang nangyari kanina. How he can easily act normal and here I am getting lost from my thoughts.

Nang nasa parking lot na kami we part ways, napagpasiyahan na ng grupo na magdrive thru na lang kung gutumin man mamaya sa byahe. Trinity and her boyfriend ay dederetso na daw umuwi. I stepped in inside Mika’s car with my heart thumping loud.

Kinuha ko ang phone ko to compose a message from Mom and Dad to update them, Mika broke the silence.

“Dan, I’m sorry” hindi ko na naituloy ang paglalagay ng seatbelt ko and I just looked at him straight.

“Why?” I have no expression dahil hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang dapat kong maramdaman.

“Are you sorry for kissing me?’ hindi siya umiimik iniiwas ang tingin sa akin.

My eyes are getting teary, isang tapik na lang tutulo na “Mika Why?” gusto kong magalit “dahil hinalikan mo lang ako kasi alam mong nakatingin si Trinity sa atin?” ang kanina ko pang pinipigilan na luha ay tuluyan ng tumulo.

I saw his shocked expression and i know that he is sorry, hindi ko alam kung saan siya nagulat. Dahil ba sa alam ko o dahil nakikita niya akong umiiyak because of him.

I hated the fact that I thought kaninang hinalikan niya ako there is a chance that we have a mutual feeling, me giving all the feeling that I have from him into that kiss tapos siya for show lang pala to make jealous of the girl that he like…

Daniel umasa ka na naman.

Wala akong narinig na sagot sa kanya. My tears are continuous falling from my eyes.

Natawa na lang ako, so my hunch is correct, f**k! this night. Tahimik lang siya na nakayuko, parang bata na pinapagalitan ng magulang.

Can he at least give me a f*****g explanation why he do that, can he at least deny that I was wrong? Ang sakit, gusto kong sumigaw sa sobrang sakit but again it’s also my fault umasa ako, naging tanga for the second time.

“I don’t think kaya kitang kasama ngayon.” And with that bumaba ako sa kanyang sasakyan, with my heavy walking towards Dawn’s car. Nagpatuloy lang sa pagtulo ang luha ko, kasi hanggang ngayon I’m still hoping that he will stop me na pipilitin niya akong mag-usap at ayusin ang problema. Pero hanggang sa makalapit ako kila Cathy there’s no Mika behind me, there’s no Mika stopping me from walking away. Putangina.

Cathy hugs me tight as she stepped out of Dawn’s car.

“Cathy ang sakit, sobrang sakit” mas lalong bumuhos ang luha ko na kanina ko pa pinipigilan.

I saw Dale na naglakad ng mabilis palapit sa amin. They didn’t ask what happened. Because I think they already knew. Viel putting his jacket on my shoulder dahil naka sleeveless lang ako and I think naiwan ko sa sasakyan ni Mika ang jacket ko dahil sa pagmamadaling umalis kanina.

Cathy still hushing me from crying because we’re still on the outside at medyo malamig na ang hangin.

Hindi ko alam kung ilang minutes kami nag-stay sa labas but the least thing that I knew we go inside Dawn’s car. Nasa backseat kami pareho ni Cathy nakayakap pa rin ako sa kanya. At nagsimula na kaming magbyahe pauwi.

She didn’t say a thing magsimula kanina. Dale is on the passenger seat. Probably Viel is on Mika’s car. Gusto ko na lang matulog ng mahimbing, gusto ko na lang makauwi ng bahay. Good thing na hindi ako sa amin uuwi ngayon because Dad and Mom will be waiting for me definitely.