"Sexy…" I managed to hear what Jordan said before went on top of me. “And yummy…” I already accepted my fate, if I manage to survive this then it’s over for me and Simon. I don’t know how he will be able to accept me after this, I just let myself get ruined by a stranger. I wouldn’t forgive myself anyway if he somehow still accepted me. The guilt will kill me everyday until I go crazy and I don’t want that to happen. I don’t want Simon seeing me suffer because I know how much he really loves me and I would hate myself each passing day for letting this happen to me. I chose to go alone and now I regret it. I don’t even think that I will still have the courage to face my family. I am a total disgrace. Just when I thought that I have given up, people’s voice started ringing in my

