I never expected this. Because right from the very beginning . . . I never wanted this. Kaya hindi ko alam kung paano ang gagawin. Nangangapa ako and I don't know how to keep myself composed.
We chose the church wedding. Spike was actually the one who chose it. Sa akin ay ayos naman kahit anong klaseng kasal pa because everything is fake. So it doesn't matter how it should be done.
Pero . . .
Habang nakatitig sa malaki at nakasaradong pintuan ng simbahan at parang pinipiga sa sakit ang dibdib ko ay na-realize kong, dapat pala pinili ko 'yong mas madali. I should've told him that I want the fastest and easiest way to get married. I shoul've chose the civil kind of wedding.
Para sana hindi ganito ang nararamdaman ko. Para sana hindi ko nararamdaman kung gaano kalungkot ang buhay ko. Ipin
