Mula nang inilunsad namin ang bagong branded content project, halos hindi ako makapaniwalang ganoân kabilis ang naging impact. May increase na agad sa engagement ng site, advertisers were lining up, and the revenue graphâisang bagay na dati ay parang abstract lang sa akinâay bigla na lang nag-spike paakyat. Lahat ng meetings naging upbeat. Lahat ng email may âCongratulationsâ at âWell done.â
Pero ang totoo? Ang nasa utak ko habang binabasa ko ang mga success reports, ay hindi kung gaano kagaling ang proposal. Hindi kung gaano karaming sponsors ang na-secure namin.
Ang nasa isip ko⊠si Draemon. At si Mr. Rivera. At ang panata ko.
Nasa boardroom ako, kasama si Draemon. He was standing beside me habang iniisa-isa ang milestones ng proyekto. I was presentingâconfidently, proudlyâbut somewhere in between explaining the new member perks and the exclusive webinar lineup, naramdaman kong tinitingnan niya ako.
That kind of look that burns softlyâhindi pilit, hindi bastos. Parang tinititigan ka hindi lang dahil maganda ka, kundi dahil gusto ka niyang makita kung paano ka mag-isip, magdesisyon, mabuhay.
After the meeting, habang naglalakad kami palabas, tinapik niya ako sa balikat. âYou were amazing in there.â
Napatingin ako sa kanya. âTeamwork âyon. Kung hindi mo rin sinimulan lahat ng âtoââ
âPinky,â he interrupted, chuckling softly. âYou need to learn to take credit.â
Napatawa ako ng mahina. âIâm trying.â
Tahimik kami habang papunta sa elevator. Maraming nagsasabi na perfect kami bilang partners sa project. Complementary daw kamiâako 'yung grounded at relatable, siya 'yung strategic at visionary.
At sa lahat ng iyon⊠parang may parte sa akin na na-appreciate. Na finally, may lalaking hindi lang nakatingin sa panlabas, kundi sa buong effort ko. Hindi ko kailangang magsuot ng red lipstick para mapansin niya. Hindi ko kailangang ipilit ang sarili ko.
With Draemon, I felt⊠seen.
But it scared me.
Kasi sa kabila ng lahat ng 'yonâsuccess, recognition, companionshipâhindi pa rin nawawala ang panata ko. Ang panatang ginawa ko kay Mr. Rivera. Isang tahimik na pangakong ako lang ang nakakaalam, pero araw-araw ay bumubulong sa akin.
Hindi ako titigil. Hanggaât hindi ko siya nasusubukang mahalin at mapanalunan.
Pero paano kung habang nilalabanan ko 'yon, meron nang isang taong dahan-dahang hinuhubog ang puso ko?
That evening, nasa rooftop kami ng building. Celebration daw ng buong success ng launch. May inumin, soft lights, jazz music. Hindi âyong masayang party na maraming sumisigaw. âYong tipong tahimik pero classy, andun ang buong upper management, si Sir Riveraâat si Draemon.
I was trying to keep my distance, pero syempre, hindi talaga puwedeng âdi kami magkasama.
âCan I get you a drink?â tanong niya, holding a glass of red wine.
âSige, kung hindi ka pa sawa saâkin,â biro ko, trying to lighten the mood.
âIâm never tired of you,â sagot niya, diretso, walang kaartehan.
Napatingin ako sa kanya. Ganoân lang âyon. No drama. No attempt to impress. Parang totoo.
Naglakad kami papunta sa isang maliit na table sa gilid. Medyo malamig ang hangin. Hindi ko alam kung dahil sa gabi o dahil kabado ako sa kung anong susunod na mangyayari.
âAng ganda ng gabi,â bulong niya habang nakatingin sa mga city lights.
âOo,â sagot ko, pero hindi âyon ang iniisip ko.
Kasi kahit gaano kaganda ang view, hindi ko maiwasang maalala âyong tingin sa akin ni Mr. Rivera kanina sa meeting. Hindi siya lumapit. Hindi siya nagsalita. Pero ramdam koâgusto niyang kausapin ako. Maybe he couldnât. Maybe he chose not to.
And somehow, that hurt more.
âYouâre quiet,â ani Draemon. âSomething wrong?â
I shook my head. âIâm just⊠processing.â
âAbout earlier?â tanong niya.
I nodded.
And then I looked at himâreally looked at him. His eyes, his calm presence, the steadiness of his voice. I realized⊠this man isnât just here for the project. Heâs here for me.
And yet, a part of me still wanted someone else to fight for me.
âDraemon,â mahina kong sabi, âthank you, ha. For being with me through this whole thing.â
âYou donât have to thank me. I want to be here.â His gaze held mine. âPero may tanong ako.â
My chest tightened. âAno âyon?â
âIs there a space for me in your life? O may tao ka pa ring hinihintay?â
Hindi ako agad nakasagot. Kasi ang sagot ay⊠hindi ko alam.
âI donât want to pressure you,â dagdag niya. âPero gusto kong malinaw tayo. Kasi kung maghihintay ako⊠gusto kong alam ko kung may patutunguhan.â
Tumingin ako sa baso ko. Tinipon ko ang lakas ng loob. âDraemon⊠may panata akong ginawa. Kay Mr. Rivera. Matagal na. Before pa kita nakilala.â
Tahimik siya. Hindi siya nagalit. Hindi siya na-offend.
âAlam ko,â bulong niya.
Napatingin ako sa kanya, gulat.
âI saw it. I see it when you look at him. But I stayed⊠dahil alam kong kahit papano, nararamdaman mo rin ako.â
âHindi ako sigurado sa nararamdaman ko,â sagot ko, halos pabulong. âAt ayokong saktan ka.â
âIâd rather be here confused with you⊠than leave and wonder what if.â
And with that, tahimik kaming tumingin sa gabi. Wala nang dagdag na salita. Wala nang pressure. Just two people⊠in the middle of something delicate, beautiful, and terrifying.
At sa gitna ng lahat ng âyon, napaisip akoâ
Baka hindi sa panata ko lang umiikot ang kwento ko. Baka ako rin⊠may karapatang pumili kung sino ang talagang nakakakita saâkin.
Hawak ko pa rin ang baso ng red wine habang nakatayo kami sa rooftop ng Rivera Publication. Ang lamig ng hangin, pero para bang mas malamig pa ang kaba sa dibdib ko habang nasa tabi ko si Draemon. Tahimik kami. He didnât press me with questions. Wala siyang sinabing kung anu-ano. He just stood there, arms crossed, staring at the city lights like he belonged to it.
âYouâre right. Maganda dito sa taas. Maganda ang gabi.â I finally broke the silence.
He nodded, his eyes still on the skyline. âIt clears the mind. Lalo na kapag gulo ang puso.â
I looked at him, then looked away agad. Gulo nga ba, Pinky? O sadyang ayaw mo lang harapin kung anong totoo?
âCongrats nga pala sa campaign,â sabi niya,turning to me. âYour concept worked. The branded content deal will run for six months. Thatâs a big win.â
âThanks,â ngumiti ako. âHonestly, I couldnât have done it without you. Ikaw âyung nag-push na i-present ko âyun sa board.â
âBecause I saw something you didnât.â Lumapit siya ng konti. âYour worth.â
I laughed a little, defensive. âCorny.â
âI mean it.â
Before I could respond, narinig namin ang pagbukas ng pinto. A familiar silhouette stepped out, closing the metal door behind him.
âSirâŠâ napalunok ako. âMr. Rivera.â
Ismael. Suot pa rin niya ang dark navy blazer niya, but it was unbuttoned, tie loosened. Mas rare âto. Hindi siya usually ganito â informal, relaxed... approachable?
âI was looking for you,â he said, eyes darting between me and Draemon. âYou werenât answering your phone.â
Napatingin ako sa phone koâsilent mode. âSorry po, Sir. I just needed some air.â
He looked at Draemon, then at me again. âIs this a private meeting?â
Bago pa man makasagot si Draemon, ngumiti ito, hindi natitinag. âWe were just talking. Nothing official. Unless you want to join us?â
Ismael took a step forward, diretso sa tabi ko. His presence was magnetic. Nakaka-pressure. At somehow⊠protective?
âIâll take it from here,â he said coldly.
Wait, what?
Draemon raised an eyebrow, his voice still calm. âSheâs not your property, Ismael.â
My breath hitched.
âI never said she was,â sagot ni Ismael, this time turning his gaze to me. âPinky?â
âIââ natigilan ako. Napatingin ako kay Draemon, na tahimik pero attentive. Then kay Ismael, na ngayon lang ulit tumingin saâkin nang ganito. Hindi bilang secretary. Hindi bilang tauhan niya. Pero bilang babae.
âI was just about to leave anyway,â sabi ni Draemon, placing his glass down sa bench nearby. âThanks for the night, Pinky.â Tumango siya sa akin, then kay Ismael, before turning away.
At naiwan kaming dalawa ni Ismael. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako titingin.
He took a step closer. âAre you okay?â
âOf course. Why wouldnât I be?â
âAfter what happened sa gala, then with Callieââ
I cut him off. âSir, Iâm just your secretary.â
âStop calling me âsir.ââ
Napatingin ako sa kanya. His eyes, for once, werenât distant. They were... conflicted. And vulnerable.
âYou donât have to pretend na wala kang nararamdaman,â he whispered.
I blinked. âAnong ibig mong sabihin?â
âI saw the way you looked at me. The way you always try to hide it. And yet⊠you make me feel something I shouldnât.â
Humigpit ang hawak ko sa baso. âYou have a fiancĂ©e, Mr. Rivera. Donât do this.â
âCallie and I... weâre not what everyone thinks. Weâre falling apart. And Iââ napabuntong-hininga siya. âI thought I had everything figured out, until you came along.â
I stepped back. âDonât make me choose. Not when Iâm still figuring things out. Not when thereâs someone like Draemon whoââ I paused, ââŠwho actually sees me.â
âTingin mo ba ako, hindi?â
Hindi ako sumagot. My silence said it all.
He looked down, frustrated. âI just wanted to talk to you. Thatâs all.â
âThen talk to me like Iâm not someone you want to steal moments with behind Callieâs back,â I said, firmer this time. âI deserve better than to be someoneâs guilt.â
Tahimik.
Hangin lang ang narinig namin.
Then, softly, he said, âYouâre right.â
âThank you.â
âIâll back off⊠if thatâs what you really want.â
I turned away before he could see my eyes. âI donât know what I want yet.â
At iniwan ko siya sa rooftop. With my heart pounding, confused, and caught in between two menâone who made me feel seen, and one who made me feel alive.