Yours Truly (R-18)

Chapter 6

Cady's POV

ANG SAKIT. Ang sakit maiwan. Hindi ko inaasahan na mangyayari sa akin ang bagay na ito ngayon. Sa pelikula ko lang naman napapanood ito eh, yung namamatay yung lalaking mahal nang bida sa estorya o di kaya sa libro ko lang nababasa. Pero hindi ko akalain na nangyayari pala sa totoong buhay.

Aware naman ako eh. Aware ako sa realidad na lahat tayo ay mamamatay pero bakit naman ang aga niyang kinuha sa akin? Gusto ko pa siyang makausap, mayakap, mahalikan at higit sa lahat maramdaman ang init nang katawan niya.

And now, what do they want me to do? Get married with someone I don't even know?!

After a lunch with that Caeden Silvius, I made myself busy. At ngayon it's eight in the evening at kasalukuyan akong nandito sa isang bar at pilit na kinakalimutan ang mga pangyayaring gusto ko ng burahin sa alaala ko. I turn off my phone after receiving a lot of missed calls from Mom, Dad, and Peia.

Liam... why did you leave so easily?

Remember this day?

I smiled bitterly remembering the date today. 20th of the month, it's our monthsary, but unfortunately he died. Yes, he died. I swallowed the lump that is already forming in my throat.

Five months ago, I was the happiest woman alive, because everything is set for our wedding and I can’t wait to marry the man of my dreams. Siya ang Prinsipe nang buhay ko. I was like a queen and he is my knight and shining armor.

Again I smiled bitterly, fairytales only happen on the books and movies but not in real life. Life is cruel. Life is unfair. And life is not perfect.

He died in a car accident going to our rehearsals. Ang tindi no? Andoon kami sa simbahan hinihintay siya at excited kasi magsisimula na kaming mag-ensayo sa entourage walk namin at walang kaalam-alam na yung Fiancé ko eh nag-aagaw buhay na pala sa loob nang kotse nito.

He was dead on arrival at the hospital. At first I was in denial, but I saw his body lying coldly on the stretcher and waiting to be pushed to the morgue.

Ang sakit.

Sa tuwing naiisip ko ang eksenang iyon sa buhay ko wala nang mas sasakit pa.

I grab the glass of the hardest drink I think I can tolerate. Inisang lagok ko ito. I can taste the bitterness of it that burned my throat, pero hindi naman ako nabigo dahil ng ilang sandali lang ay nawala na ang kirot sa puso ko. Nawala lang ako sandali sa pag-iisip ng may tumabi sa akin sa bar counter, at base sa naaamoy ko, it is a guy. He’s scent is so masculine yet you can smell some citrusy in it. I didn’t smell a charcoal barbeque on him meaning he does not smoke. Just like Liam.

“One glass of—what’s the name of this drink again?” I heard a sharp intake of breath from beside me before the bartender could even answer my question. Siguro dahil na din sa tama nang alak ay madaling nag-init ang ulo ko.

Anong gusto niyang palabasin na ang lakas kung mag-iinom dito pero ni hindi ko man lang alam ang pangalan nang nilalagok ko?

Napatingin ako sa lalaki.

"Oh?" Tugon ko sabay turo sa kanya. He looks familiar parang nag kita na kami kailan lang. Hmmm, where did I see his face?

I give him a glare bago ibinalik ang tingin sa bartender. Tinaasan ko ito nang kilay. Ano? Hindi niya ba narinig yung sinabi ko kanina?

“What?”

“T-tequila Sunrise coming right up Ma’am.” Mabilis agad itong umalis at inasikaso ang order ko. That’s more like it. I’m not really like this, I mean too bitchy and stuff. Maybe, a big part also is the alcohol. May tama na kasi ako and maybe a couple of 2 more glasses I think and I can really doze off to sleep.

I heard a “tsk” beside me that’s why I immediately look up and glance this man beside me. Arrgh! My vision is starting to blur. Hindi ko na masyadong maaninag ang mukha nito. Pero pansin ko pa din yung paglingo-lingo nito.

“Here’s you’re drink Ma’am. Enjoy.”

I grab it immediately and ready to drunk it again but big and strong hands hold my wrist and the glass was held up in the air. My blood easily boils on the topmost level. The nerve of this guy to touch me, much more to get involve in MY business.

“You’re drunk.” He stated with this husky bedroom voice.

“And I’m well aware of that. You don’t have to stress the obvious.” I told him in a DUH tone if that’s even possible.

“Eherm.” I was about to scratch this guy with my venomous nails kung hindi lang sumingit sa eksena itong bartender na ito.

“May I take your order Sir?” Base sa tono nito parang nag-aalangan ito o di kaya ay parang intimidated. Seriously, hindi naman siya kakainin ng lalaking katabi ko eh. Well, he looks somewhat scary based on his body, his well-built body pero ay ewan bahala sila sa buhay nila.

Marahas kung kinuha ang pala-pulsuhan ko na hawak-hawak pa din pala nitong lalaking ito. Good thing, his attention was diverted to the bartender kaya walang kahirap-hirap akong nakawala sa kanya.

“The usual.”

“Okay Sir.”

Regular customer, I think. Kaya pala kung umasta ang angas. I rolled my eyes. People these days. Sobrang pakialamero.

Napangiwi ako nang sa wakas ay nainom ko na yung nasa laman ng baso ko. Bitter taste again. Totally awful yet manageable. And the effects started. My head started to throb and my vision is really blurry right now. I’m also becoming dizzy due to my surroundings. Umiikot na ito at sobrang bilis pa.

“That’s what I’m telling you about.” Ghad! I’m really drunk. I can’t even concentrate on the things that are happening on my surroundings. Damn it Cady. You’re in big trouble right now. Papaano ka makakauwi niyan ngayon?

I can’t drive in my state right now.

“Sir mukhang lasing na po ata.” I can still hear some buzzing in my sides. Weird voices and noises. Oh ghad! My head really hurts.

“It’s okay. She’s with me.” I gave up. Ipinikit ko nalang ang mga mata ko and slumber into sleep.

~

(Warning: SPG scene alert!)

Nagising ako sa kakaibang sensasyon na nararamdaman ko. I am still a bit disoriented but my consciousness is starting to work. I can feel it that I am lying in a soft mattress. Tapos may mabigat na bagay na nakapatong sa tiyan at mga binti ko. I tried to get rid of it kasi hindi ako makahinga nang maayos but my hands stop in mid-air when I touched a warm soft skin.

I immediately got alarmed. I tried to stand up pero ang higpit-higpit nang kapit sa akin nang kung sino mang yumayakap sa akin ngayon. Then all of a sudden, I felt a spontaneous kisses on my bare shoulder. I shivered immediately.

Nervousness is already eating me up. Where am I? And who is this person next to me?

“Relax, it’s just me.” Napalingon agad ako sa katabi ko.

The heck! Who is this guy? I tremble upon realizing that it’s a guy thats hugging and kissing me. Ni-ra-rape ako nang kung sino mang lalaking ito. “Let me go.” I wanted to sound authorative pero naging bulong lang ito.

I saw him smirk.

“You smell so good.” And then I felt his warm breathe on my neck. Ang lapit-lapit na niya sa akin. He’s sniffing me like his some kind of a dog. At yung kamay niya na nasa tiyan ko kanina ay unti-unti nang umaangat.

“H-hey.” Awat ko sa kamay nito na mukhang mahahawakan na ang maseselang parte nang katawan ko kung hindi ko pa pinigilan.

“Don’t.” He said. And before I know it he already claimed my lips with his.

His lips moves slowly as if enjoying the moment while it last. He keeps on lingering my lips tempting and encouraging me to respond to it. Hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko. This is wrong, why am I letting this guy to kiss me? Hindi ito magugustuhan ni Liam.

And as if on cue, I respond to this stranger’s kisses. Liam hurted me and I need some distractions. Iniwan niya ako nang ganito lang. I am in deep hurt and this guy beside me kept me to be alive.

He is now kissing me possessively and hungrily. He keeps on nibbling and then sucking my tongue. Napapa-ungol ako sa ginagawa niya sa akin. I feel hot. And I just don’t know but my body yearns to be touched like this. Na parang hinihintay talaga nang katawan ko na mahawakan nang ganito.

“F*ck! I love your moan. Its turns me on.” Napasinghap ako nang maramdaman ko ang dalawang kamay nito sa loob na nang suot-suot kung blouse.

Too much intensity and anticipation is what I’m feeling right now. Hindi ko makapa sa sarili ko na patigilin ang lalaking ito o magpumiglas man lang dahil aminin ko man o hindi, gusto ko din ang ginagawa nito.

Napaungol ulit ako nang bumaba ang mga halik nito sa leeg ko at papunta sa pinaka-sensitibong parte nang katawan ko, ang tenga.

“Just like that babe, don’t hesitate to scream.” With the words he said, I felt my core to moist more. Damn it! I am so hot right now that it’s so painful.

“P-please.” I know and I heard myself, begging for this guy. Pero ano nga ba ang pinapakiusap ko sa lalaking ito?

“Little patience babe, I need to savour you first.”

Aapila pa sana ako nang inangkin na naman nito ang labi ko kaya napaloob ang gusto ko sanang sabihin. His tongue immediately delves inside, battling for dominance with mine. Nakikipag-away ako sa dila niya nang bigla nalang niya itong kinagat na nagpa-ungol sa akin ng malakas. He won.

He ripped my blouse in one swift move and shove my brassiere upward para mahawakan agad ang dalawang malulusog kung dibdib. From the way he caresses it and sometimes squeezes it, nagustuhan niya ito.

“Dang! Your boobs are so big!” Napaliyad ako pataas nang isinubo na nito ang isang n****e ko sa bibig niya. Damn. Tanging sa buhok niya nalang ako kumukuha nang lakas dahil hinang-hina na ako. Hindi ko kaya ang sensasyong nararamdaman ko ngayon.

“Oohh.” I moaned again when he starts to play with my other n****e; swirling and tugging it and afterwards, buo niyang lulukumusin ang isang dibdib ko.

Talagang pinagsawa niya ang sarili niya sa dibdib ko. Hindi ko na nga mabilang ko ilang beses ako nagmakaawa sa kanya na tigilan na niya ang pagpapahirap sa akin pero parang wala itong narinig at patuloy lang sa limas nang dalawang dibdib ko.

“This is heaven. Definitely a treasure to behold.” Narinig kong sabi nito and when I tried to look at him nakita ko nalang na tinitingnan niya na pala ang ibabang parte nang katawan ko. Ang pagka-bab*e ko.

I blushed really hard; I tried to cover myself because of his bluntness. Kailan niya pa nahubad ang jeans and underwear ko? Ganun ba ako kalango kanina para hindi mapansin na kinakalikot niya na pala ang butones nang pantalon ko?

“F*CK. I better taste it first.” At yumuko nalang ito bigla para magpantay ang ulo niya sa parting kanina niya pa tinititigan.

“Oh gosh! Oh my NO!” Napa-atras ako pero mabilis niyang nahawakan ang dalawang kong binti para hindi ako maka-alis. Napadaing ulit ako, sobra-sobra na ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Hindi ko na din maibukas nang maayos ang mga talukap ko. Habang yung katawan ko ay nagsisimula nang manginig dahil sa ginagawa nitong pagsinghot, pagsipsip at paghalik sa pagka-bab*e ko.

“Oooh. Yeah!” Ungol at sigaw ko nang maramdaman ko ang basa at mainit nitong dila sa loob nang pagka-bab*e ko. Nababaliw na talaga ako sa sensasyong ibinibigay nang lalaking ito. Napakapit ako nang mahigpit sa bedsheet ng ipinasok nito ang isang daliri sa loob ko.

He started to pull it and slam it back inside me. Napahawak ako sa kamay niya na iginagalaw at ang humahawak sa akin ngayon sa parteng iyon.

“No babe, let me. I know what to do.” Inalis niya ang kamay ko doon at ipinagpatuloy ang ginagawa niya kanina. Oh please! I started to feel that something is building up inside me.

“Yes, that’s it babe. Give it to me.” Sunod-sunod na ang mga ungol na inilalabas nang bibig ko.

And before I knew it I exploded on his mouth and hand. I heard some slurping sounds, and from the sound of it, sinisipsip nito ang mga katas na kakalabas lang sa akin. Just plain damn it! I just got turn on again. Heck, I’m tired but my body and mind says otherwise.

I saw him lick the corner of his lips savouring my remaining juices na napunta doon. And then he smirks showing how evil he is.

“From this moment you are mine.”

~

Hindi pa man ako nakakabawi sa nakakabaliw na kauna-unahang orgasm ko ay pumatong na agad itong lalaking ito sa akin. Mabigat siya pero hindi naman niya ibinibigay lahat nang timbang niya sa akin. He started to look at me as if reading what’s on my mind.

Wait, hold on. This guy is the one from the Bar. And wait... He's... He's that Silvius guy! Oh gosh why did I forgot his face?!

“Good that you remember me.” He said in a husky and bedroom voice. May pagkapaos ito na parang inaakit ka at mapapaisip ka kung bakit ganito ka raspy ang tinig niya. Na parang galing lang sa isang karumaldumal na gawain.

Sa lapit niya ngayon tsaka ko palang napansin ang kulay ng mga mata nito. He has chocolate brown eyes that will drown you to the deepest ocean if you kept on staring it. Gaya nalang ng nangyayari sa akin ngayon. Hindi siya singkit pero yung hugis ng mga mata niya ay sobrang nakakaakit na kapag tiningnan mo yung mukha niya ay sa mata dederitso ang focus mo.

A pointed nose and kissable lips that was on my parts a while ago. Napaka-manly ng features ng mukha niya. Tapos mas nakakapagpapalakas pa nang appeal nito ang kilay na hindi naman makapal pero sobrang itim.

“I guess you’ve rested enough already.” Napakurap ako. Then I felt a huge and hard bulge poking on my inner thigh. Seriously, bakit ngayon ko lang ito napansin. I shifted para maiwas ko sana ang binti ko sa tumutusok sa akin pero he held me tightly.

“What? Don’t you want to feel me? How you turned me on?” Namula ako. How can he be so blunt?

“NO!” I shouted and got alarm when he started to hold my right hand and starts to bring it downwards. Pero malakas siya eh, so I can’t do anything about it and suddenly I just felt it. His hardness on my palm, good thing is I think he’s still wearing he’s boxer shorts.

“There. You should get acquainted with it.” He guided my hand to move it up and down. What we are doing right now, is so hot, him guiding me to pleasure him. Kitang-kita kong nasasarapan ito sa init nang palad ko. Naka-awang na nga ang bibig nito na parang nahihirapan nang huminga.

Tumigil ako sa paghaplos sa kanya nang binitiwan nito ang kamay ko. Ilang sandali lang ay nasagi ko na ang matigas na bagay sa loob ng boxers nito, na bahagyang kumislot upon skin contact. He undid his boxer shorts.

“F*CK! We can do that in another time, I badly want you right now.” Ipinuwesto niya ang sarili sa entrada ko. Then realization hit me. Nangyayari ba talaga ito nananaginip lang ako dahil sa kalasingan. Pero bakit nakakaramdam ako nang sarap?

“Don’t look at me like that. I will have you TONIGHT.” And I just felt a sharp pain. Parang may binutas siya sa loob ko. It’s not like this is my first but he’s manhood is so big! s**t! I am suppose to do this with Liam only, on our honeymoon. Pathetic, this night is supposed to be our first night kung hindi lang siya nang iwan nang ganun-ganon nalang.

“Just the way I like it.” Nakakapit na ako ngayon sa likod niya, more like, kinakalmot ko na ito dahil sa sakit.

“I got you babe.” Hindi ko na pinansin kong ano ang sinasabi nitong lalaking ito. Walang hiya tong lalaking ito. Napaka-wild, bayo ng bayo. And from the feeling of being too stretched alam kong sobrang laki niya.

I tried to look down at nakita kung hindi pa niya lubusang naipapasok ang kanya sa loob ko. Oh my! He’s that long and big.

“Relax, just breath. It doesn’t have to go all the way in.” Nabasa niya siguro yung pag-alala sa mukha ko. “But, I do love to be fully inside you and feel your tightness and you’re hot walls.” Napa-ungol ako.

“And I also do love to hit the farthest tissue I can.”

“Oh please.” He’s distracting me from the pain and pleasure I’m feeling, and he’s succeeded.

“In a few seconds from now, I will find your G-SPOT and hit it repeatedly until you cum.” This man will definitely kills me because of so much anticipation.

“Ooh please, just move, I can take it.” That’s all what’s his waiting and he starts to move slowly. Pull and push, rhythmically. I was able to adjust immediately. It is just so wonderful. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang paglandas niya sa parte ko, ang paglabas pasok nito at ang paghihirap nito na bilisan ang paggalaw dahil sa kasikipan ko.

“F*CK! You’re so tight babe.”

“Oohh.” He’s pace is getting more faster this time. Nakakapit ako sa mga balikat niya habang siya naman ay nakahawak sa dalawang dibdib ko. Pinanggigilan niya na ito at aaminin kung masakit pero mas importante sa akin ang sensasyong unti-unti nang nabubuo sa puson ko.

“Yes babe, that’s it. We’re getting it there.” Humahangos na din ito. Pabilis na nang pabilis ang pagkilos niya. And when he hit something inside me, bigla nalang ako nanginig. When I looked at him, he has this big grin plastered on his face.

“Found it.” At hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko sa pag-ungol nang mas malakas dahil ang parte na iyon ang pinupuntirya niya. It’s so sensitive.

“Oooh my—yes.. oooh” Sunod-sunod ang naging pang-ungol ko.

“D*mn it.” And with a hard and deep push he hit that spot that made me c*m longer than usual. I convulsed with the effects. Literal na nangingig ang katawan ko. Hinang-hina na ako at nakahiga nalang sa kamang iyon nang patuloy pa din siya sa paggalaw. He’s biting his lip really hard. His breaths become shorten.

And with another deep and hard push a warm or should I say hot liquids flow inside of me. Habang tumatagal, parami ito nang parami. I can’t help but moan. He looked at me and it no time kiss me really hard and roughly. Gumagalaw pa din siya sa loob ko pero hindi na gaanong kabilis, parang inilalabas niya na lang lahat.

I can feel that hot juices are leaking on my legs. Ang dami niyang inilabas.

Matapos niya akong halikan, tumingin agad ito sa ibaba, looking on our private organs that are still entangled.

“This is just so hot.” Kahit na nanghihina ako, sinubukan ko talagang tingnan din ang tinitingnan nito. And there, white juices flowing in my thighs to the sheets of the bed.

Ibinagsak ko ulit ang ulo ko sa kama. I am exhausted and tired. All I want is to sleep and get some rest.

Last thing I remembered is that, I fell asleep, him being still inside of me. Pagod na ako para magsalita man lang and the pain is starting to emerge again. Siguro naman, bubunutin niya din niyan when he will going to sleep afterwards.

-NEXT DAY-

A bright sunlight rays woke me up. Arrggh! A lot of my body parts aches, my head, my boobs and my---. And the things of last night really woke me up. Napa-upo ako nang wala sa oras. Ikakaila ko pa sanang panaginip lang lahat nang iyon nang magising akong walang saplot sa katawan and only a blanket is covering me naked body.

I tried to move again but the hell, I’m sore.

So sore.

SH!T. It really did happen.

Ibinigay ko ang puri sa isang lalaking hindi ko pa man lang alam kung sino. I am such a moron. Naturingan pa naman akong matalino. Pero asan ang talino ko kagabi, at papaano ko nagawa ito kay Liam.

Then upon remembering his name made my eyes moist. Limang buwan palang simula nang mamatay si Liam pero lumandi agad ako. I am the worst person ever. He might see that scene yesterday, and oh my. I’ve hurted Liam ten times the way he hurted me.

“You’re awake.”

My whole body tensed seeing the guy who claims me last night.

This can’t be happening to me.

“Good morning Cady.”

Mahigpit kung hinawakan ang kumot na tanging nagtatakip sa kahubaran ko. When he noticed how disoriented I am and maybe a little scared, napangiti ito habang napapailing. Unti-unti itong lumapit sa akin. I immediately move backwards until my back hit the headboard. Moron! Wala ka nang maaatrasan.

Nang makalapit ito sa akin ay tumungo ako. What is he planning to do. Kahit na gwapo at nag-uumapaw sa hotness itong lalaking ito, hinding-hindi na ulit ako magkakamaling sumigaw kapag nagtangka siyang gawin yung ginawa namin kagabi.

I can’t help but blushed remembering the things that happen last night.

“Are you sore?” Nag-angat ako nang tingin. Concern is evident in his eyes before it turns to blank. He masked it. I shivered when he touched my cheek lightly.

“I-I wanted to go home. Where are my clothes?” I reprimanded myself for stammering. Sige lang Cady ipakita mo diyan sa lalaking iyan na natatakot ka at ng pansamantalahan niya ang kahinaan mo.

Tumigil siya sa paghaplos sa pisngi ko, at tumayo nang tuwid. Blangko pa din ang mukha nitong nakatingin sa akin. “I threw it away.” Simpleng sagot nito na parang tinanong lang siya kung kumain na ba ito.

I felt terrified. Papaano ako makakauwi nito nang walang damit.

“But I need to go home, anong susuutin ko?” I glared at him. Tinaasan lang ba naman ako nang kilay nitong hinayupak na ito.

“Then don’t go home.”

“Are you insane?”

“Yes I am.” Arrgh! The nerve of this guy to treat me like this. Walang mangyayari sa akin dito kung hindi ako kikilos. Tumayo ako at nagtapang-tapangan na pumunta sa isang pintong nakita ko sa loob nang kwarto nito. Hindi ako sumulyap man lang sa gawi niya.

Nang buksan ko ito ay tumambad sa akin ang napakalaking banyo, and the aroma of his scent is so strong here. Kainis! Bakit ba nababanguhan ako. Hindi dapat ganito eh, si Liam lang ang mabango. Yung si Liam palaging amoy Baby.

May nahagip ang mga mata ko. This will do. I grab it and simply wore it around my body. Nang lumabas ako sa Comfort Room, nakita kung nag-aabang sa harap mismo nang pintuan itong lalaking ito na hindi pa din nagpapakilala sa akin.

“You don’t plan on going outside wearing only that bathrobe?!” He asks dangerously at me.

“I am and you can’t do anything about it!”

*