Chapter 16
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"Hey it's your turn now, Ego." nakangiting saad ni Lester.
I gave him a half smile then walks towards the set. I'll pose for a known brand here in Paris. Time flies so fast.
Finally, Unti-unti ko nang naaabot ang mga pangarap ko, napabilang na ako sa mga sikat at in-demand sa larangan ng pagmomodelo.
It's been One year and three months.
I faked a cough when I remembered about my baby and him.
I know he's mad. Well, who wouldn't? After what I did?
Pero sinunod ko lang ang usapan at ang pangarap ko...
But deep inside my heart, I know something is missing. Empty.
I'm now Six months pregnant.
Three months more.
I decided to enjoy my remaining months here.
"What are you thinking?" he asked coldly.
Umiling lamang ako.
"About your career again huh?" he used his dark and sarcastic tone.
"I know we have a deal but think again, you can stay for your baby.. Take care of him, be with him."
No.
I'll leave the baby and go to pursue my career.
But now... I'm torn between. And I hate it.
Noon, buo ang desisyon kong ipalaglag ang bata pero hindi maaari kaya ibibigay ko sa iba. Why am I acting like this?
It's weird. Is it because of my pregnancy? Or the motherhood thing? I didn't think that this day will come. Me, regreting the decisions that I've made.
I closed my eyes firmly after remembering that scene again.
Kung pwede ko lang ibalik ang oras ginawa ko na. Sana palang, nanatili nalang ako sa anak ko. Sa kanila.
"Are you okay?" the photographer asked.
I nodded my head before smiling.
"Yes, Sorry about that let's continue."
I started posing again while looking at the camera. This is what I want right? This is my dream.
But I can't stop thinking about him and the baby that I left a year ago. My crying baby that I left.
"Ego, let's take a break first, you don't look fine." saad ng photographer at tumango kay Lester bago umalis.
"Are you thinking about them again?" Lester asked dangerously.
I looked at him, a bit teary eyed.
"Regreting it already huh? It's your fault, Come on. Nasa maayos na kalagayan naman ang anak mo."
"I know."
"Ayon naman pala. Now, do your job, Ego. This is your dream right? Naabot mo na oh. Wag mo namang sayangin ang pinagpaguran at mga sakripisyo mo."
He called Marco.
"Huwag kang umiyak, hindi mo deserve." saad ni Marco pagkatapos akong i-retouch. Umirap ito sa akin sabay naglakad palayo.
Lester, he didn't say anything when I made a decision, hinayaan lang ako at sinuportahan sa pagmo-modelo ko.
While, Marco and Gil. They're still my friends. But we have this invisible barrier, like when we're talking, they'll talk civil and okay but can't stop theirselves from throwing some harsh words. But it's okay, I deserved it anyway.
I looked around the set and the people around me.
Did I really chose the right path?
I don't think so.
Leaving your own baby was never the right choice in the first place.
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