The Revenge of a Broken Soul

Chapter 10

LUCAS BARONI POV

When I saw Rae that morning walking away from us after seeing his ex fiancee with that woman ay pinauwi ko na rin agad ang babaeng nakadikit sa akin. Hindi ko tuloy masundan si Rae dahil sa kanya. Maghapon ko siyang hindi nakita and when I asked Daniel this afternoon kung nakabalik na ba ito at nakakain na ba ng lunch ay kinantyawan pa ako nito bago ako sagutin.

I felt relieved upon knowing that she's already back and had lunch. Nagpapahinga na raw ito sa kanyang kwarto. Napagkasunduan naming lahat na mag set up na lang ng bonfire, doon na kumain at mag inuman para hindi maiwan si Rae mag isa sa may villa. Malapit lang naman ang private beach sa villa kaya paggising niya ay siguradong makikita niya agad kami.

Madilim na nang magising siya at pumunta siya sa aming kinaroroonan. I caught her staring at me pero iniwas ko din kaagad ang aking paningin ng mahuli din niya akong nakatingin sa kanya.

She maybe smiling eveytime she's with us but her eyes are lonely. Hindi nakangiti ang mga mata niya, parang ang lukot ng mga ito. Nakita kong lumayo siya sa amin kaya sinundan ko siya.

I asked if she's fine but I think she was trying to find out how am I related to the girl earlier so I just said she's not my girlfriend and she said I am like the others. As if she was saying that i'm a f**kboy like the others.

I was able to redivert our conversation about her state of mind and emotion again and there she started to cry out loud. I can feel that she's hurting too much. I didn't give her any side comments or comfort words but I listened. I hugged her and let her cry in my shoulders or literally in my broad chest. I even kissed her head because maybe action speaks louder than words and maybe I'll be able to comfort her a little from her misery.

I looked down at her and she was looking at me as if she wanted to tell something.

"I want to go home Lucas" she started.

"It's too late to go home Rae. Let's go home tomorrow morning, you need to rest hhhmmmm" I answered her back.

"I'm not referring going home to Manila. I want to go home in Europe. Anywhere but not in this country. " pagpapaliwanang nito.

Hindi na ako nagulat sa sinabi niya dahil kahit saan parte ata siya ng Pilipinas magpunta at magbakasyon ay parang sinasadya ng tadhana na nandoon din si Jake at ang b***h nito. Maybe she's right mas maganda kung umalis muna siya sa Pilipinas.

"Do you want me to tell Daniel to bring you home? Or maybe I can call your brother?" tanong ko.

"No, I can go home alone. I need to fix myself because I don't know who I am anymore." she replied.

"Can I come with you? Kung gusto mo lang naman." I asked.

Bumitiw siya sa pagkakayakap ko sa kanya and looked up at my face. Our eyes met at nagsisimula na naman tumulo ang mga luha niya. I used my thumb to dry her tears still looking at her eyes. Tumango siya bilang pagsang ayon na sumama ako sa kanya.

"Give me two weeks to prepare everything so I can leave the company to Diane. Then I want to stay somewhere else for two weeks before visiting my family. I miss them too but I don't want them to see me like this." dagdag pa nito.

"Okey then. I need to return to London right away tomorrow night I have an early meeting with your Kuya for his new hotel. I will appoint someone to handle everything in my company too so I can be with you wherever you wanna go." I answered her.

"Do you want to tell our friends about your plan? Or should I say about our plan?" I asked her again.

"Maybe it's better not to tell anyone about it. Baka kung ano pang isipin nila, baka akala nila may something tayo kahit wala naman." sagot ni Rika.

"Look Rika, I don't really care kung anong iisipin or sasabihin ng ibang tao but still you can do whatever you want. It's up to you anything is good for me." Walang gana kong sagot sa kanya.

Kung ayaw man niyang ipaalam sa iba na kasama niya ako sa pag alis niya, sa pagbabakasyon niya o sa pagbubuo muli ng sarili niya bahala siya. Ang daming ibang babae diyan na gustong ipangalandakan sa buong mundo na makakasama nila ako kahit sa bar lang tapos siya ayaw niyang ipaalam sa iba kahit pa sa mga kaibigan namin.

HIndi ko maintindihan ang sarili kung bakit nakaramdam ako ng konting pagkainis sa naging desisyon ni Rika. Sa tuwing nakikita ko siya ay parang muling nabubuhay ang puso ko na matagal ng natutulog. Every time I see her my heart beats so fast. It's like I'm having a heart attack. I know what is it but still I don't want to accept it. Yeah, I used to like her when we were young pero hanggang doon lang yon. I am not ready to have a serious relationship and I don't think she's the kind of girl who is ready to be a fling or f**k buddy.

Napakamot na lang ako ng ulo sa kung ano anong naiisip ko. Hindi ko na naramdaman na wala na pala siya sa harap ko. Hinanap ko siya at nakita ko siyang nakaupo na naman sa buhanginan habang naninigarilyo. Hinayaan ko na lang muna siya, mukhang gumaan naman ang pakiramdam niya sa pag iyak niya kanina.

DANIEL CORDOVA POV

I was looking for Rae because i gave her the pack of cigarettes with weeds in it by mistake. Knowing her she wouldn't touch it yet I know it's been ages since we smoked that kind of cigars together. But just in case she would want to use some, it's just fine with me especially now that I know she's keeping everything inside her.

Nawala din kanina si Lucas kaya hindi na ako magtataka kung magkasama sila. I know he liked her ever since we were young but I don't know what's his plan right now. We both know that Rae is not the fling type of girl but then there's nothing wrong if they want to explore the spark they have even if I know It's not yet the right time. Rae is vulnerable right now after a heartbreak and I hope hindi niya gagawing rebound si Lucas but anyways It's their life so bakit ko sila pakikialaman if ever.

Napapangiti akong mag isa sa mga naiiisip ko dahil parang napaka advanced ko namang mag isip para sa dalawang yun pero ano man ang mangyari sa kanila ay susuportahan ko sila.

Hindi pa man ako nakakalayo sa mga kaibigan namin ay nakita ko na ang dalawa na napakaseryosong nag uusap. Nakaakbay si Lucas kay Rae at napangiti ako dahil dumada moves na ang aking kaibigan sa wakas. Nagtago ako sa puno ng niyog na nasa likod at nawala ang ngiti ko ng makita kong umiiyak si Rae.

But i realized that finally she found someone whom to confide what's hurting inside of her and the things running in her mind.

I know I needed to leave them when Lucas started to hug her tight and kissed her forehead. Ang sweet lang nila. Sana sila na lang ang magkatuluyan but it's too soon to say that. Paalis na sana ako nang marinig ko ang gustong mangyari ni Rae. So maybe this is it. The beginning of them? May chance kaya silang dalawa? Knowing that Rae loved that Jake so much while Lucas has no intention of having a serious relationship?