She's gone.
And all I can ever think is nothing. Wala. Hindi ko alam. Gusto kong magalit ng sagad sa buto pero hindi dahil sa mga ginawa niya sa akin, mas galit ako sa sarili ko. Why did I ever let that happen between us? I have been thrown up for a couple of months now, I have made bad decisions na pinagsisisihan ko na. Nakapag bitiw ako ng mga salitang hindi dapat, pero masisisi niyo ba ako? She made me feel useless. She let me fall into darkness.
I was so doomed and damned that I didn't even think about the consequences, yes she'd hurt me, she betrayed me pero hindi ko parin pala kayang tuluyan mawala siya sa akin. Mahal ko siya, at hindi ko matanggap ang katotohanang wala na siya sa tabi ko.
That day when I confronted her about her pregnancy ay hindi naman dapat ganoon---I was plann
