Trouble in Disguised

CHAPTER20

"Your okay? Hindi ka na nahihilo?" Dazer asked me worriedly. Pabalik na kami ng Bulacan pero hito pa rin sya nag w-worry sa akin. Naduwal nga ako kaning pagkagising ko but thankfully tulog pa sya.

Pagkarating namin sa aking condo. Agad na nagluto si Dazer for me, and made me drink my vitamins. Para hindi nya talaga ako pagalitan, I obey whatever he said, bad shot pa ako rito dahil sa hindi ko pagpapaalam sa kanya, dalawang araw pa akong nawala.

When afternoon came, pumunta si mommy sa unit ko, wala akong emosyon habang nakatingin sa kanya cause honestly the joy kapag nakikita ko sya, nawala. Yong respect ko sa kanya, nawala, I'm not a fake person para pakitaan sya na parang wala lang ang nangyari Ang sakit ng ginawa nila, hindi ko na nga alam ang nangyayari sa akin, kung anu-ano ng kababalaghang nagaganap sa aking katawan.

"What are you doing here?" I coldly said to her. I saw how shock she is because of my attitude towards here. She gulp.

"Are you okay? I'm really worried about you, asan ka nagpunta?" Paiyak nyang sabi. Unti-unti namang tumayo si Dazer kaya napunta ang paningin ko sakanya. Sumenyas syang papasok muna sa kwarto, tinanguan ko lang sya.

"Blaire" malumanay na sabi ni mommy. My eyes went back to her, napatalon pa sya sa biglaan pagtama ng mata namin.

"Mom, I'm really mad at you because of what you did. Masaya sana tayo ngayon, I can't...hindi ko pa kayang makipag usap sayo" malamig kong sabi at tumayo. Nataranta naman si mommy at agad hinawakan ang palapulsuhan ko pero agad ko yong winaksi.

"Anak, I love your dad. What I've did is a mistake, you know, I'm very immature before kaya nagawa ko yon pero nong nakita kita, doon ko na realize na mali ako so I tried to rebuild our family but your daddy...your daddy cheat" naiiyak na sabi ni mommy. I gritted my teeth.

"Yeah dad cheat because of what you did! Kung sana hindi ka bumalik pa doon sa lalaki mo. Like what you've said, mahal mo si daddy! Pero bakit? Bakit sinisi mo sa kanya lahat? Why don't you admit to yourself that your the reason why our family turn up side down, huh?" Panunumbat ko sa kanya. Yumuko naman sya at tuluyan ng umiyak.

"I-I'm sorry...but a-anak"

"Mom don't explain to me right now...just don't, sarado and isip ko, what you possibly told me might made me more hate you. Just don't explain when I hate you so much" malamig kong sabi. Humahagulhol naman si mommy. I frowned because my heart feels empty, parang wala na itong naramdaman, it's still beating at yon na lang ang nararamdaman ko, wala ng awa, sakit at kung ano-anu pa.

I sigh heavily while looking down at my mother, wiping. Para wala na akong masabi pa sa kanya tinalikuran ko sya at pumasok sa kwarto. Natagpuan ko si Dazer na kaharap ang kanyang laptop, Nag t-trabaho.

Para hindi sya ma estorbo lumabas na lang ako sa aking veranda and feel the breeze of hot blow of the wind.

Our parents, teacher, adviser, grandparents told us once that our future depends on what we do when the sunrise came and the sunset ends. Now that I've done really bad in my mother, what would be the possible future that I would get? The answer of that question of mine is unknown, we didn't know what is the future holds, hindi nga natin alam na mabubuhay pa tayo bukas, kung anong mangyayari sa atin bukas. The only one that knows what our future holds is our savior, the Devine and the powerful one which is Jesus Christ.

I know God give this problems because he wants us to learn, he wants us to grow and mature but why is it so hard? Why is it so painful? Maybe God preparing us for our future. To make ourselves though and ready to face the possible circumstances that the future holds, maybe all of this just a blessings in disguised from above.

I close my eyes when Dazer encircle his arm around my waist from the back and settle his chin in my shoulder.

"You okay?" He whisper. I sigh heavily and open my eyes.

"I don't know" Lito kong sagot cause I literally don't know what I am feeling. Parang namanhid na ako sa lahat ng sakit or I am just Indenial not to admit that I am hurting. Maybe I planted in my mind that I hate my mom that's why my whole system follow what's on my mind that's why I felt so empty.

"I'm worried, I'm afraid that you well faint again because of stress, I don't like seeing you sick" he seriously said. Napangiti naman ako at Para ring may humaplos sa aking puso sa kanyang sinabi. Is this the result of feeling unwanted? Na kunting care lang parang nag j-jelly ang systema mo to the point ang sakit na nito sa dibdib?

"I'm okay, I can handle" I said and face him. I give him a smile when I saw his eyes. Worried, that's what event on his eyes.

The only person that I know that I am the only one, I am special and he truly love me, it's him. He do everything just to make me happy, to make me feel his love for me and prioritize me over anything.

"I love you" I said with so much love. His lips rose up on what I've said and kiss my forehead.

"I love you more" He replay. My true smile surpass on my lips before I put my lips into his.

Kinabukasan, Bumaliktad naman ang aking sikmura, parang nasanay na lang ako this past few days na kapag gigising ako ay bumabaliktad ang sikmura ko. I'm thinking to go check up later if kaya ng oras ko, I will do that baka may sakit na pala ako nang hindi ko nalalaman at ang kinakatakot ko pa, baka malala na ang sakit ko.

Nang natapos ako sa kakasuka like I always did, Maliligo ako para umayos ang pakiramdam ko. I sigh heavily nang nakita ang hitsura ko sa salamin, I look like a s**t! But I shrug cause my life is a shit...full of s**t.

When I am all set lumabas na ako ng kwarto at lalabas na sana sa unit nang.

"You'll go to school without eating breakfast? Huh? That's why you faint sometimes" dahan-dahan akong pumihit at nakitang nakapamaywang na si Dazer na nakatingin sa akin. I blink before I pouted my lips.

"I forgot, you know" I said while rolling my eyes. Dazer chuckled and guided me to the dinning area. My eyes glisten when I saw what he cooks. Chicken curry! Kukuha na sana ako nang inununahan na ako ni Dazer.

"I need to feed you a lot. I think that's one of the reason why you faint, so. Make sure to come back here in your launch time, I will cook. What do you want to eat? Hmm?" He said and pinched my cheek, nangigil sa akin. Napaisip naman ako kung anong gusto kong kainin, napakurap ako nang pumasok ang letchon sa aking isipan then a hot sauce. My stomach growl kaya natawa si Dazer kaya masama ko syang tinignan.

"Can you buy me a letchon? Then a yummy hot sauce on it?" I said like a baby. Dazer laughed and nod at me kaya magana akong kumain. Tuwang tuwa naman si Dazer habang pinanood akong maganang kumakain sa luto nya.

Nang matapos akong kumain, Dazer made me drank my vitamins, I didn't complained, para naman sa kabutihan ko to.

"Take care" He said. I kiss him before I leave.

"Lock my door, honey" I said sweetly. He smile and nod at me. Masayang masaya ako na pumasok sa school na parang wala akong problema, I don't care though. It doesn't mean that I'm sad, I am not capable of being happy anymore.

"May nag iba sayo" Gelo said habang nag l-lecture ang aming instructions sa harap.

"Don't talk to me. I'm listening" masungit kuno kong sabi. Mahina namang tumawa si Gelo.

"Listening raw, pero pag mag q-quiz at exam, k-kompya ka pa rin kaya wag ka ng makinig" I glared on what he said. Napaka bad influence talaga but on the other hand his right naman. No matter what my mood is, I don't understand even a bit in our lesson so I decided to talk to Gelo na lang the rest of the lecture.

Pero napatigil kami nang biglang nagtawag ang instructor namin for recitation about sa aming lesson. Nagkatinginan kaming dalawa dahil sa nangyayari. I gulped and silently praying na hindi matawag, I'm sure I will put my self in shame because I didn't know anything our lesson right now.

Kaya nong nagdismiss. Nakahinga ako ng maluwag dahil hindi ako natawag. Hinampas ko si Gelo dahil sya ang may kasalanan nito.

"Don't tempt me anymore" he laughed on what I've said.

"I'm not tempting you, Madaldal ka lang talaga" I gritted my teeth while glaring at him kaya mas natawa ang loko.

Pagkauwi ko sa unit. I blink nang nakita si Sitalya sa harap ng aking unit. My mood automatically on a b***h mood because of her presence.

"What the hell are you doing here?" But instead of answering my question. She handed me an envelope. I frowned ang get it.

"Dazer they never let me in, inside, he even let me stand here so I decide to wait for your comeback" maarte nyang sabi. My head tilted when I saw the letter.

"What's the meaning of this?" I asked dahil ang laman lang naman ng letter ay isang kasunduan that if I will not break up with Dazer, she will continue filling my case.

"Well, remember what you did in my car?" Nanunuyang sabi nya habang ako ay nagpipigil ng galit.

"What the freaking meaning of this!" Madiin kong sabi. Tumaas naman ang kilay nya sa akin.

"Ang harang lang para hindi magpakasal sa akin si Dazer is you! Now, choose, you will sign it or you will sleep on jail, not only that! While the police officer is arresting you, I will hire a media to cover your downfall" I gritted my teeth because of what she said. Sasampalin ko na sana sya nang.

"And hurting me is a harassment or I will tell my attorney that you bullying me. Another case" I look at her dangerously dahil sa mga pinagsasabi nya.

"Your blackmailing me! If your really want Dazer! Take him!claim him kung kaya mo!" Sigaw ko sa kanya. She laugh mockingly at me, I look at her dangerously dahil kunti na lang mawawalan na ako ng paki sa sa consequence ng gagawin ko. Masampal, masabunutan at masktan ko lang to!

"I can but malandi ka! Get away on my way or I will crash you" Madiin nyang sabi sa akin. Sumiklab naman ang galit ko sa sinabi nya.

"Try! And I will make sure that your the one who will suffer a lot until you give up and die! Always remember that your nothing but a peace of s**t na anak ng kabit!" I said dangerously at sinaksak ang papel na binigay nya sa akin.

"Don't insult my mother! f*****g b***h!"

"Truth hurts, get lost!" I yell back and swipe my card on my door at malakas yong sinirado. Peste!

Huminga ako ng malalim. Even I am bad I am still thinking of what was I seen earlier. I don't want to be seen by many again, creating a scandal, talk by the town, my trauma na ako dyan! Hindi pwede! But I can't loss Dazer, his the only I have! Hindi ko kaya baka ikamatay ko but thinking myself being judged again ayoko na, sukong-suko na ako. May trauma na ako, I don't want to see my self again in that state.

I touched my breast nong sumakit ito, I frowned at kinapa-kapa baka may bukol pero wala akong makapa is just that it swollen. To ease the pain, ilang oras akong dinamdam yon until the pain stop.

Tatayo na sana ako para mag pa check up nang biglang umikot paningin ko. Agad akong bumalik sa pagkaupo.

Ito na nga ang sinasabi ko! Kapag talaga, stress ako, labis ang emotion ang naramdaman ito ang mangyayari sa akin.

Dahil nahihilo na ako. Pumikit na lang ako but still I felt my world is turning until nakasanayan ko na ang feeling at nakatulog.

Nagising ako nang may naamoy akong mabangog pagkain pero hindi ko kaagad sinundan ang amoy dahil alam kung masusuka naman ako kaya tumakbo ako ng cr and as expected naduwal na naman ako. After bumuti buti ang aking pakiramdam, Nag toothbrush muna ako bago lumabas and found Dazer at may kitchen na nag p-prepare ng foods.

"Hi" Tamad kong sabi dahil nakaka drain talaga ang nangyayari sa akin ngayon. I gave Dazer a peck at umupo.

"Your not planning to let me go right?" Biglang tanong ni Dazer. Napatigil naman ako sa pagkain at inangat ang tingin sa kanya. Napakurap ako nang nakita kung gaano sya ka seryoso.

"Ofcourse not. Why are you thinking that one? Did you commit a crime that made me think of breaking up with you?" I said suspiciously. He sigh heavily, parang nabunutan ng tinik. Napatitig naman ako sa kanyang cause I wonder why he think that one.

"I am very very good. Your enough. I love you" he said gently. Uminit naman ang pisngi ko sa sinabi nya.

"Okay, so why you think that I am letting you go?" I asked. Tumaas oa ang kilay ko habang tinanong yon.

"Random thought" napangiwi na lang ako sa kanyang sinabi.

When we're done eating. Nag trabaho lang sya sa aking kwarto at dahil wala akong magawa kinulit ko na lang sya ng kinulit but he didn't mind at dahil sa kagagahan ko. Umupo ako sa kadungan nya while teasing him. I'm just wearing a big shirt and my panty and nothing else.

Naramdaman ko namang napatigil sya sa pagt-type so I position myself to make him center at my throbbing core. Dazer look down at me at kimunot ang noo. I smirked and guided his hands under my t-shirt. I moan when I felt his warm hand in my boob.

"f**k it!" Dazer cursed and massage my breast. I moan and arch my back and because of my movement, mas naramdaman ko lang ang p*********i nya sa akin. I'm so wet so I beg Dazer to touch me.

"So wet huh?" Nanunuyang sabi ni Dazer pero nabaliw na ako ng pinasok na ni Dazer ang kanyang mga kamay sa akin I moan and meet his arm.

Nakita ko na lang ang sarili ko na nakadapa sa kama while Dazer is like a lion. He so wild while thrusting me behind, faster and deeper. Hindi ko na kaya ang naramdaman ko, I even loss count how many time I come.

My eyes widen nang hinila nya ako sa edge ng kama at pinaharap. He open my leg so wide, he lower his self. Unconsciously, I look down and saw how his manhood thrust in my core, napapikit naman ako when he started moving.

"Ah!" I moan at nahiga sa kama. Nangangalay na ang aking legs. Gusto ko isara but Dazer hold on it to make it in that position. When we release. Dazer gave me a peck not widrawing his manhood on me.

"You want to sleep while I am inside on you?" He huskily said. Dahil inaantok na ako and I can't clearly hear what he just said. Tumango na lang ako ng walang naintidihan.

Nagising ako when I felt something inside me throb. I felt so stretched. I tried to move pero nakayakap si Dazer sa akin. Nanlaki ang nata ko when I felt something down there thrust kaya napamulat ako ng mata and welcome the darkened face of Dazer. I moaned when he started to move.

"What...Ah! Are...oh my God! Ah!oh! s**t" I Chanted when he suddenly stood up by me. He continued thrusting. Halos umikot ang mata ko sa sarap ng naramdaman. He put me at the sink and thrust me so deep. I am breathing so heavily.

Hindi na ako naka attend ng morning class ko. Hindi ako tinigilan ni Dazer but he stop halos hindi ako makalakad sa ginawa nya kasa napakahapdi sa baba.

"Why I felt you when I woke up?" Reklamo ko. Nang lumakad ako papuntang sala pero hindi ako agad nakarating dahil ang sakit kapag hahakbang ang paa ko!

"I asked you, you nod" Paninisi nya sa akin kaya masama ko syang tinignan. Naka guide sya sa akin. Gusto nya nga akong buhatin pero umayaw ako gusto ko ng mawala ang sakit. May klase pa ako mamaya.

"I can't walk properly! Your so horny" naiiyak kong sabi. And stop walking. Huminga naman ng malalim si Dazer at hindi na talaga natiis at binuhat na ako.

But I can't understand myself. Even thought I am sore. I want Dazer to make love with me. I tease him pero masama nya lang akong tinignan. I continue teasing him but he never unleashed himself so I decided to settle foot in his manhood and mickmicking how hi pump at me. He groan, tumingala sya while, he keep cursing on what I did.

Nang tinigil ko, masama nya akong tinignan I smirked and continue what I did. He keep on cursing until we f**k. The pain that I am feeling turn to pleasure at dahil sinira nya ang aking sinuot. I walk naked patungong kwarto ko. I heard Dazer sigh at nang sinarado ang pinto ng kwarto ko he take me again.

Wala na akong lakas pero gusto ko ang nangyayari, I am a warrior and I will never, ever surrender in this sweet kind of battle...

"Ah! Ah! Oh! I'm cuming" I shout!

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