Trouble in Disguised

CHAPTER18

After my business law class, my investigator contact me to meet him, he discover something that he don't want to talk about it in the phone so I decided to meet him in the Starbucks.

I want to tell it to Dazer since he wants to know my escapades, thoughts and plans about this but again...this is a family thing, Yeah his part of my life but...he's the reason why I am doing this too.

Gracey on the other hand, kinaladkad na ni mommy, nagising na lang ako kinaumagahan na wala na sila, they just wrote it the the sticky notes and post in my door, na aalis na daw sila. Nakakainis man but I understand kasi late na ako nagising.

It's weird nga eh, this past few days ang takaw ko na tapos antokin but I'm thinking na masyado akong stress sa school at sa family problem namin so I think that's the reason.

When I arrived at the Starbucks, agad akong nag lakad patungo sa pwesto ni Mr. Han na kaharap ang kanyang laptop at may mga documentong nakapatong sa mesa.

"Good morning po" magalang kong sabi.

"Goodmorning Ms. Santiago" bati nya pabalik at binukalkal ang mga dokumento. Habang ginagawa nya yon nag order muna ako ng makakain namin.

"So? What did you discover. Mr. Han?" I asked. Binaba naman nga ang kanyang eye glasses, tinabi ang kanyang laptop at pinalitan nya ng isang folder.

"Your mom first love" He said. Nalaglag naman ang balikat ko sa sinabi ni Mr. Han.

"Ahh okay? Ano pong meron dyan-"

Naputol ang sinasabi ko when my phone beep. Napalabi naman ako at kinuba yon sa bag. I sigh nang nakita ang pangalan ni Dazer na tumatawag.

"Excuse po, Mr. Han" tumango naman si Mr. Han sa akin kaya agad akong nagtungo sa Cr.

"Hello? Why you call? You don't have work?" Agad kong bungad. Nakakainis kasi sya, if I did not do anything, he didn't call pero ngayong mayroon akong importanting ginawa tyaka naman sya tatawag.

[ Why you sounds pissed because I call? ] I gulped because of his question. I don't want him to know who am I seeing right now pero parang ako lang nagpapahamak sa sarili ko!

"I mean...you know...ughmm, you have work...so I understand that you won't call me and...you know, well see each other at the end of this day, naman" kabado kong sabi. I bite my nails while I am facing the mirror.

[ Sure but I want to call you, I don't care my work, your my priority and...Where are you?" ] nasapo ko ang noo ko sa tanong nya and unconsciously sigh na mas lalo lang pinagtaka nya.

"Call you later...love you" Agad kong sabi at pinatay ang tawag. I can't lie, i don't want to lie just for this. Is just that...as long as I can make Dazer stay away on this problem, I can but I won't lie to him, baka yan pa ang rason na mag-aaway ka me but I think not telling him about this will be the cause of our misunderstanding! Baka isipin nyang nakipag date ako, Nag cheat or whatsoever but if he will asked again. I will tell him na, nahihirapan akong magsinungaling.

I sigh heavily and retouched my make up. I really hate lying! Kumakalabog lang ng husto ang puso ko, hindi ako mapakali! Kaya nong tumawag ulit si Dazer, I sigh heavily and answer it.

"Hello?" Maliit na boses kong sabi.

[ why you drop the call?" ] malamig nyang sabi. I bite my lips and sigh, I will tell him.

"I'm just nervous" I said honestly and aside from being nervous I don't know what to say too.

[ Why are you nervous? ] I sigh heavily cause his question is to easy but it's so hard to answer him. Crazy.

"Hmmm. I'm in a Starbucks right now" I said while my heart is beating so fast.

[ hmmm? ] I close tightly because of his response.

"I'm meeting My. Han, my investigator" malumanay kong sabi and waited his curses, worried voice, madness and whatsoever.

[ okay hon ] namulat ako ng mata sa sinabi nya. Nawiwirduhang tinignan ang phone ko dahil napaka unbelievable ng sinabi nya.

"Huh?" Sa gulat sa sinabi nya ay yan na lang ang nasabi ko. Magsasalita pa sana ako nang pinatay nya na ang tawag.

"What the!" Inis kong sabi. What the hell happen to that motherfucker? Nakakainis talaga sya kahit kailan! Now! I'm starting to question myself why I am falling to him! Nakakainis!

Nakasimangot akong bumalik sa pwesto ni Mr. Han kanina, ganon na lang ang gulat ko nang nandoon na si Dazer kinakausap ng seryoso si Mr. Han na tumango-tango pa sa kanya. I blink and look at him unbelievably.

"What are you doing here?" Gulat kong sabi. He grin and kiss my cheek. Pananlakihan ko sya ng mata dahil sa kagagohan nya.

"Why are you going to Starbucks?" Balik nyang tanong kaya kinurot ko ang tagaliran nya kaya napaigtad sya pero ang loko tumawa lang. Tumikhim naman si Mr. Han kaya napaayos ako ng upo. I almost forgot that he's here, this p*****t motherfucker kasi!

"You know what? f**k you!" Bulong ko kay Dazer na hinapit ang aking baywang.

"How many time do I need to remind you that f*****g is not the right words! It's making love honey" he whisper. I gritted my teeth and glared at him but when our eyes meet he grin kaya napangiwi na lang ako.

"So, Mr. Han, what are you talking earlier again?" Pambabaliwala ko kay Dazer! Dahil nakakainis talaga ang lalaking to!

"Your mom first love" tumango naman ako sa kanya.

"What about my mom first love? May matutulong ba yan sa nangyayari sa family ko?" Nakakunot noo kong sabi.

"Actualy, that is the root kung bakit nangyayari yan sa pamilya mo " my head tilted on what he say.

"Why?"

"Actually, your father and mother is arrange marriage but like everyone else.. they fall for each other eventually through the process" umawang naman ang labi ko sa sinabi nya.

"Okay po?" Lito kong sabi cause I don't get his point.

"And your mom first love is the husband of Ms. Alcantara, your father's mistress" napamilog ang mata ko sa narinig kay Mr. Han.

"Huh?" Parang tanga kong sabi dahil hindi ko ma absorb ang sinabi ni Mr. Han.

"Yes, and ayon sa nakalap kong balita. Your father found out that your mom wants to live abroad is because her first love is an OFW. Actually, Your mom and Ms. Alcantara's husband is has a daughter" napaawang ang labi ko sa sinabi ni Mr. Han and unconsciously, kinuha ko ang kamay ni Dazer para kumuha ng lakas.

"Actually I investigated her daughter and I found out na magsama sila ngayon and she live with you after-"

"What?" Hindi makapaniwala kong sabi.

"Yes and I think you know her. Rachell Grace Cavador, ring bell right?" natulala ako sa sinabi ni Mr. Han parang may bumara sa lalamunan ko na hindi ko malunok-lunok. My heart beating so fast to the point na bawat pitik nito ay ang sakit sa dibdib.

"Yes, At ayon sa balita ko, nagbinta raw ng katawan-"

"Enough with that for now, we will contact you-"

"No, continue po" mahina kong sabi. Tumingin naman si Dazer sa akin at hinaplos ang aking balikat telling me that he just here by my side.

"Okay Ms. Alcantara. Rachell Grace Cavador, nabuntis ang mommy nong nag one year old ka na, naglayas si Ms. Santiago at pumuntang probinsya, doon na nganak, at iniwan ang bata roon at bumalik sa papa mo para ayusin ang nasira nilang relasyon" I reach the glass of water and drink it. Nahihirapan ako sa mga narinig kong impormasyon.

"Your mom and dad back on each other's arm. Your mom continued financing her child but I found out na naglayas ang bata at nasa puder mo na ngayon na nasa puder na ng mommy mo" I massage my temple dahil sumasakit ang ulo ko sa mga naririnig. I once wish that I wanted Gracey to be my half sister before instead of Sitalya and now...this! What the hell!

"But..Yong daddy mo I napaka tuso, he found out your mom's mistake and her daughter kaya nagloko ang daddy mo, muntik ng malugi ang kompanya nyo amd he meet. Ms. Alcantara" Mr Han said.

"What about the son of Mr. And Ms. Alcantara?" I asked even though ang sakit sakit na sa part ko.

"He's living he's life without he's parents, he's living independently" he simply said kaya napatango ako.

Pagkatapos ng usapang yon. Tulala na lang ako buong magdamag, Ang alam ko lang, hinatid ako ni Dazer at hindi na iniwan, nandito lang sya sa tabi ko. Comforting me pero kahit sya hindi sapat para mawala ang sakit ng naramdaman ko.

I hate my father because he cheat, Now that I've found out what mom did, para akong paulit-ulit na sinaksak, I love her so much, I protect her even I sink tapos nalaman kong ganito pala! Nakakabaliw sila.

"Damn!" Malutong na sabi ni Dazer nang bigla na lang tumulo ang aking luha, ang sakit, ang sakit sakit ng nalaman ko. Now that I see na may kanya kanya pala silang buhay, may sari sariling anak, paano naman ako?

They love each other once and I am the result but why is it na kasabay ng pagkawala ng pagmamahal nila sa isa't-isa ay pagkawala nila ng paki sa akin?

"Hush, hon! Dammit!" Frustrated na sabi ni Dazer. Iyak lang ako ng iyak, hindi ko matigil ang luha ko, gusto kung Ibuhos lahat ng luha ko ngayong gabi, I want it all once para bukas o sa makalawa, I promise I won't cry again dahil naiyak ko na.

"Hey, hey listen" Dazer said seriously, nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya pero dahil malabo na ang aking mata dahil sa mga luha ko. I buried my face in his chest.

I think meeting Dazer is a trouble in disguised. Without him, sino ang nandito ngayon? Sino nag stay? Sino ang makikinig sa mga hinanakit ko? Sino ang iiyakan ko?

"Aive Blaire, listen to me" Humikbi ako at tumitig sa mata ni Dazer na nag-aalala, nasasaktan at naawa sa akin. Sino ba namang hindi? I am unwanted, daddy don't want me, mom has is on daughter, my life is so f**k up.

"N-no one wants me" umiiyak kong sabi sa kanya. He cursed at hinawakan na talaga ang mukha ko and wipe my tears.

"That's not true, I want you, I love you, I need you, your everything to me, okay? Hush now" he said gently. Para namang nilakumos ang aking puso sa sinabi nya. Humikbi ako at binalik sa pagkakayakap sa kanya at umiyak ng umiyak hanggang nakatulugan ko na lang.

Pagkagising ko, parang ang bigat bigat ng loob ko. Wala akong gana, stress na agad bumungad sa akin kahit kagigising ko pa lang, I want to stop it but I can't and hirap sa part ko, ang hirap maiwan, ang hirap malaman na parang wala ka ng halaga sa magulang mo it feels like para ako ang pagkakamali ng magulang ko at pinandirihan nila ako kaya ayaw nila sa akin.

Napabaling ako sa aking katabi nang sumiksik sya sa akin, he buried his face in my neck na nagdulot ng kiliti sa akin dahil sa kanyang buhok. I sigh and brush his hair.

He indeed love me, he never leave me when I needed someone the most, without him baka kung saan nako napunta, baka ano nang ginawa ko, baka umiyak na lang ako mag-isa. I turn into my study desk. Ang daming papers doon, open rin ang kanyang laptop.

Para makabawi naman sa kanya. Dahan dahan akong bumaba ng kama at nagtungo sa harap ng kanyang laptop and finish all his work. Kahit papaano naman may alam ako rito and some it inayos at binasa ko ang mga papers at pinaglalagyan ko lang yon ng notes para alam nya na ang laman at p-permahan nya na lang.

Kahit pa-paano sa ginagawa kong to, na distract ako, nalihis sa isip ko kung bakit ako umiyak, ano ang mga nalaman ko at sakit na aking nararamdaman.

When I'm done, Nag inat-inat ako ng katawan dahil halos tatlong oras ako nakaupo at gumagawa ng papers, Dazer is still asleep maybe his really tired.

Imbes na tumanganga na naman, I decided to cook, Adobe, rice, I even baked a cake! just to make my self busy and distracted, ayaw ko ng umiyak as I promise, masakit man, hindi ako iiyak, I will make my self distracted and if I am brave enough to face all of the problems, I swear, I will continue my plan but for now, I need to heal myself, masyadong masakit ang nalalaman ko.

Lumaki akong naniniwala that mom and dad love each other, and when I found out that dad has a mistress, ang sakit na, I'm thinking mommy, I can't imagine that she's crying, So I did everything just to protect her, I obey daddy, I make friends to her other daughter and ended up that my name stained kaya ganon na lang kasakit para sa akin ang nangyari tapos nalaman ko pang ang mommy ko pala ang unang nagloko! Like what the hell of hell!

When I'm done cooking, I prepare it to the veranda, may mesa at dalawang upuan dito, hindi rin masyadong mainit, and the winds is calming me.

"Hey" Dazer said and hug me from the back and kissed my cheek.

"Hi, your hungry, nagluto ako, come on let's eat" masaya kong sabi. Pinaharap naman ako ni Dazer sa kanya and looked at me intently, nanantya so I smile sweetly at him and give him a peck.

"What are you doing?" He said curiously and guided me to sat down the chair, nilagyan ko ang kanyang plato ng rice and adobe. He's head tilted.

"Masarap yan, swear" I said nong nakita kong hindi pa sya kumain. Tumango naman sya at kumunot ang noo sa akin.

I know what he's thinking, Ang weird naman kasi, I cry so hard yesterday then today, I act like I am not broken. My heart shattered but it doesn't mean that I stop what I am doing, there's a lot of reason to stand up and keep fighting.

"Oh? I never knew that you are good in cooking" He complemented nang natikman nya na. I looked at him proudly and wink. He scoffed and continue eating. I told him a lot of things, like what happened to Gracey, Why she end up in the strip club, how mom taking care of her, ofcourse that's her daughter, so paano ako?...I shook my head and stop my thoughts dahil alam kung maiiyak na naman ako, sariwa pa sa akin ang lahat.

When we're done eating, niligpit ko ang pinagkainan namin at naghugas, Dazer wants to help pero may tumawag sa kanya about his work kaya hinayaan ko na.

And to make my day busy, I will go to school later, then clean my unit until I got tired para hindi ko na talaga maisip yong problema ko.

When I'm done, kinuha ko ang natirang cake and nanood ng movie, I don't want to watch romance, comedy so I decided to watch horror. Natabunan na siguro si Dazer sa room ko dahil hindi pa lumabas kaya nag enjoy na lang ako sa kakanood.

Isusubo ko na sana ang cake na nasa tinidor when someone hug me and kissed me tenderly in the cheek, I frowned dahil mahuhulog na ang cake!

"Hey, my cake!...my cake, my God hon!" Reklamo ko. He chuckled bago kinalas ang pagkakayakap sa akin, I glared at him habang nilalagay ang platito sa table.

"What the hell-"

Naputol ko ang aking iniisip whe he suddenly kissed my lips hungrily, I blinked when I felt him smiling through our kissed.

"You make my work easy huh? You finished it all" he said amusingly. Tamad ko lang syang tinignan at kukunin na sana ang cake ko pabalik. When he pin down me on the chair and started to give me wet kisses and his hands travel all my body.

"I'm tired" I said almost moaning when I said that. He thrusted his long finger on my wet core. I moan so load when he thrust it hard, when I'm about to release, hinugot nya ang kamay nya doon and undress his self and without a warning thrusted his erect manhood on me. I arched my back because what his giving in me.

Because of the pleasure, natagpuan ko na lang ang sarili ko na nag taas baba sa aking bathtub. Dazer cursed, kaya mas gumiling pa ako sa taas nya.

"f**k!" He cursed when his manhood throb and filled me inside. I sigh and buried my face on his neck. He kissed my temple and hug me tightly.

Nauna akong lumabas sa kanya sa banyo, pinaliguan nya ako dahil nga daw pagod ako sa aking mga ginagawa. I wear my nighties and do my night routines.

The door open and revealed dazer na nakatapis lang ang towel sa ibaba nya kaya iniwas ko ang tingin doon and continue blowing my hair. I stiffed when I felt him behind. He kissed my cheek bago nagsuot lang ng boxer and settle himself on the bed, matutulog na.

"I'm done with my work because of you, why don't you apply on me again as my secretary?" He said. I rolled my eyes and put a facial mask on my face bago ako humiga sa kama.

"Ayoko, I have a lot of things to do" I said. Umusog naman agad sya at niyakap ako. Para pa syang bata na pinipindot ang mukha ko na may Facial mask kaya palagi ko syang sinusuway.

"Ang ignorate hon! Hindi ka pa nakakita nito?" Inis kong sabi. He chuckled, and buried his faced on my chest, p*****t talaga!

"No, but this is the first time I saw you wearing that one" ngumiwi naman ako sa sinabi nya.

"I always wear this one but sometimes, I forgot" I said to him na nilalaro na ang singsing na binigay nya sa akin.

"Right, cause you pass out after we make love" He said while grinning. My face flush at nag iwas ng tingin, he laugh so loud kaya himapas ko.

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