Dirty Job

Chapter 13

Alyza’s POV

I looked at him peacefully while he's sleeping. Hindi ko alam kung anong oras kami natapos kagabi pero ramdam ko parin ang pagod sa katawan ko. He thrust so hard.

What good did I do that God gave me a man like this. He love me despite of my plans. He loved me despite of everything I said. He accepted me from the beginning kahit na kasinungalingan lang ang pagkatao ko noon and now that he knew the truth about me I wonder where would this take me. Us?

I wipe off the tears that escape my eyes. I should be happy. I really should be. Pero hindi. Something is wrong in me and I dont know what is it. Something keeps on breaking my heart whenever I'm looking at him like this.

"If I continue my plan Nathan I know it would crash you too" dahan-dahan akong bumangon. Tama. Yun yung kulang. Revenge. Na kahit na may pagmamahal akong nararamdaman ngayon may kulang pa rin. Umpisa pa lang ng larong to revenge was my main goal.

Inayos ko ang kumot sa kanya. I looked at the wall clock and its just three in the morning. Masyado pang maaga. Masyado pang maaga para sa mga ideyang pumapasok sa utak ko.

I went to the shower room and lock myself in there. Humarap ako sa salamin at tiningnan ang sarili ko. I have come this far for revenge. I have brought myself this low to take back what is rightfully mine. I have been planning this all along for my father. For the father who did no wrong but kindness.

I am so torn between revenge and moving on. f**k.

Nathan said kakausapin namin ang tatay niya. Is he nuts?! I know his father. From his looks I know his father has no heart. Noong nakasalubong ko siya sa opisina ni Nathan nung araw na nagresign ako kulang na lang ay lamunin niya ako sa tingin niyang nakakatakot.

I felt scared. Really. But I needed to act cool and innocent in front of him.

I shook my head from the negative thoughts. No. Makikinig ako kay mama. She's right. Mothers knows best. But I love my dad very much I just cant let them roam the world without making them pay for the crimes they did to me and my father.

I froze when I heard a knock on the door.

"Alyza? You in there baby?" it was Nathan's voice. Mukhang inaantok pa.

"Yes. I'm here." I answered while staring at the door knob. What now? Papasok siya?

"Open the door I want to take a bath with you" I smiled at what he said. He's so sweet unlike his demonic father.

Hindi na ako nakipagtalo imbes binuksan ko ang pinto at pumasok siya. Like me wala din siyang saplot. Great. Mukhang mapapasubok na naman ako.

"You look sexy without your clothes" hinapit niya ang bewang ko sabay halik sa labi ko. I returned his kisses. I needed this. I need him to divert me from my thoughts. I need my Nathan..

"Only for you baby" I whispered through our kisses. Sumilay ang ngite sa kanyang labi.

"Yes. And you are rightfully mine" lumayo siya sa akin at pumunta sa bath tub. He opened faucet and stayed there a bit longer until it gets full.

Lumapit ako sa kanya. I hugged his back. Kahit simpleng yakap lang napapakalma niya na ako. I wonder if he ever knows what I'm thinking would he still stay by my side or would he hate me for thinking that way?

"One day sa isang bubong na tayo titira. We'll build a family babe" I smiled at the thought. His planning like this and I'm planning something evil again against his father.

"Hop in the tub baby." sinunod ko ang utos niya. The first touch of water sent shivers in my body. Ang lamig!

Pumwesto siya sa likod ko habang ako naman ay pinasandal niya sa matitipuno niyang dibdib. Sana ganito na lang.

"So have you made up your mind?" tumingala ako sa kanya dahil sa bigla niyang tanong.

"Huh? About what?" he smiled at me. Ano puro na lang ba ngite?

"About talking to dad" I gulp again at what he said. Kung buksan niya ang topic nato parang napakadali lang. Kung banggitin niya ang tatay niya parang walang nangyari.

"I am not talking to him Nathan" I said with a stern voice. Never in his dreams.

"But you should try Alyza baka pakinggan ka ni Daddy." hindi ko alam kung nagpapatawa ba siya o sadyang sunod-sunuran lang sa ama niya.

"Nathan walang usapang magaganap. If the Montessa and Sy clash again then I have no choice but to start a war" nabigla siya sa sinabi ko. He doesnt know huh?

"There's no need for a war Alyza! You talk like this is a big deal!" padabog akong lumayo at tumayo paalis ng bathtub.

I furiously looked at him.

Mahal ko talaga tong lalaking to kaso ang laking tanga eh!

"This is big deal for me Nathan! It has always been! Buhay ang kinuha sa akin! Buhay! You talk like this isnt hurting me at all! f**k you Sy!" I stormed out the room. I grab a robe from the cabinet and went to my own room as fast as I can because surely he will catch up on me.

Agad kong nilock ang pintuan. My tears were showing and flowing fast! Damn it!

I heard his knock on the door.

"Baby please, I'm sorry. Gusto ko lang na maayos natin to para wala ng makahadlang sa atin" it made me cry more.

His words made my heartache a little more.

"Please go home. Leave me alone" I whispered enough just to make him hear what I said. It was a miracle my voice didnt broke.

Lagi na lang akong umiiyak. Lagi na lang akong nasasaktan. I am so f*****g tired!

"No. I wont leave. If I leave now I know I will lose you"

"I was never yours to start with. I just use you so that I can get close to your father." I felt the sudden silence of him. If this will make him stay away from me so be it.

I will always choose my family over love. I will always choose my father over the man I love.

"I will leave your for now but I will return and make sure that you'll be mine Alyza" the coldness in his voice made me stare at the door.

Kung babalik siya sisiguraduhin kong hindi niya na ako makikita. If his stubborn to come back then I'm more stubborn to leave him.