TAMED SERIES 3: RAFAEL AVILA

Kabanata 9

Caya

It's probably just the alcohol talking but God, I can't keep my hands to myself anymore. My skin feels feverish. Every inch of me craves to feel Rafael's sultry touch.

"Caya," he called in as sensual way that sent tingles down my spine.

Nagtama ang aming tingin. Ang mga mata ay parehong nagbabaga. There was even a hint of warning in his eyes as if he knew we're thinking the same thing on the back of our minds.

We might regret this night . . . but we can't stop anymore.

I . . . can't stop myself anymore.

Pumungay ang aking mga mata nang humaplos sa aking likod ang kanyang mainit na palad. Kinabig niya ako hanggang sa tuluyang nagdikit ang aming mga katawan. I could feel his hot breath against my cheek as he clutched my hair lightly, warning me of the things he will do once I give in.

May munting tinig na nagsasabing umatras ako. Na hindi ko dapat gawin 'to, ngunit masyado nang matindi ang epekto ng alak at ng kanyang haplos sa aking katawan para marinig ko pa at pakinggan ang boses na pumipigil sa akin.

I bit my lower lip as I ran my palms on his toned arms up to his broad shoulders. Namirmi ang aking mga palad sa kanyang leeg habang nananatiling nakatitig ang aking mga mata sa kanya.

"Hmm?" I responded.

Kitang-kita ko kung papaanong gumalaw ang kanyang panga kasabay ng lalong pagdilim ng ekspresyong nakapinta sa gwapo niyang mukha. He drew our faces closer until our lips are nearly brushing against each other.

"If I cannot convince you to break up with him, then let's give him a taste of his own f*****g medicine." Humigpit ang pagkakasabunot niya sa aking buhok. "Let's get out of here before I lose control and f**k you right here where everyone can see."

Imbes na matakot ay parang lalo lamang nag-init ang aking katawan. The rational side of my brain felt incinerated that I didn't realize anymore that I was already with him in his cabin, kissing him back with the same intensity while he's pulling the strings of my maxi dress.

"Hmm . . . t-take it easy," namamaos kong pakiusap nang halos masipsip niya nang husto ang balat sa aking leeg.

Rafael chuckled softly against my ear before he licked the edge. "Pasensya na. Nanggigigil lang," he whispered before he gently pushed me until I'm already sitting on his bedside table.

Bumagsak ang nakapatong na landline phone doon ngunit wala man lamang siyang pakialam. It was as if in this moment, I was the only one that matters.

I chewed my lower lip while I'm clutching his silky hair. Bakit ngayon ko lang napagtantong ang bango-bango at ang lambot pala ng buhok nitong si Rafael? He seems very hygienic. Hindi masakit sa ilong ang deo at pabango. Even his skin smells manly and expensive. Iyong kili-kili, parang ang sarap amuyin.

What the hell am I thinking while he's busy undoing my bra?

Napaliyad ako't sumara ang mga mata nang madama ko ang mainit niyang mga halik sa pagitan ng aking dibdib. He cupped one boob then sucked the other while he's supporting my back. Napakapit naman ako nang husto sa kanyang buhok at balikat. Goodness, why is he sucking my tip that way? Parang may puputok sa loob ng puson ko!

"R-Rafael . . ." I wrinkled his polo. "I-I'm s-still a hmm . . ."

Hindi ko maituloy. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin sa kanya na hindi ko pa naisusuko ang bagay sa pagitan ng aking mga hita. Yes, my mother sold me to producers and directors back then but all they did is ask for me to give them a blow. Minsan ay pinapasayaw ako nang walang saplot o kaya ay panonoorin akong haplusin ang katawan ko.

I was crying the entire time while doing the dirty things they asked while my mother waits outside, having tea with some of her friends in showbiz.

There were times that I wanted to give myself away already. Para kung makatyempo ng producer na pipwersahin akong galawin ay hindi na ako gaanong masasaktan ngunit mabait pa rin ang Diyos. He never allowed me to go to that extent. Kaya lang heto naman ako ngayon, mukhang maisusuko na nang tuluyan ang bagay sa pagitan ng aking mga hita.

Napasinghap ako nang tuluyang sumuot sa ilalim ng aking palda ang mainit na palad ni Rafael. He caressed my thigh to intensify the heat that's already burning my sense of reality. Nang hindi na nakatiis ay tuluyan niya akong inilipat sa kama. He removed my underwear expertly before he parted my thighs, yet the moment he had his fingers on my throbbing s*x, Rafael paused after realizing something.

Nalukot nang husto ang kanyang noo. "A-Are you . . . still a virgin?"

Napalunok ako't biglang tinamaan ng hiya. I suddenly realized how awkward my position is! My thighs were spread in front of him while my dress hangs low on my waist, exposing my big boobs.

Mukha akong bold star!

"Caya, are you still a virgin?" ulit niyang tanong nang hindi ko nagawang sumagot. Salubong na rin nang husto ang kanyang mga kilay na tila biglang nawala ang tama sa kanyang sistema dahil sa nadiskubre.

Napalunok akong muli habang ang pisngi ay nagsisimula nang uminit. "Uhm, i-is that a problem?"

Halos matampal ko ang aking noo. Why? Why did I ask if it's a problem?! Ganoon ba ako kasabik sa kanya? I'm being unbelievable! Natusta yata ng kapusukan ang isip ko!

I saw how his adam's apple moved up and down as he swallowed. "No, but . . ." He looked at me with more furrowed brows. "How?"

Napakurap ako. "W-What?"

"You and Captain Guevarra . . . I swear I heard you."

Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig. Bigla akong natauhan at tuluyang pinamulahan ng mukha. s**t! s**t! Ano bang ginagawa ko?! Why did I let us reach this far?!

"Did you do anal? Is that why?" he asked. Halatang naguguluhan nang husto.

Diyos ko, hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko!

I pulled myself up and fixed my dress. "I shouldn't be here," I said.

Kahit na medyo nanlalambot ang mga tuhod ay pinilit kong maglakad patungo sa pinto. Hindi naman siya nakagalaw sa kanyang pwesto. Pinanood lamang niya akong magmartsa palabas na parang ganoon siya kagulat sa nadiskubre tungkol sa akin.

I went straight to my cabin and locked the door. Sumandal ako sa pinto at hinilamusan ang mukha ng aking palad. Diyos kon, nakakahiya naman 'yon! Ano ba kasing pumasok sa kokote ko?!

Bakit kasi tinanong pa niya in the first place?!

I sighed. Maya-maya ay natigilan ako't nakapa ang aking sarili. Nang mapagtantong mayroon akong nakalimutan sa kanyang cabin ay halos mapasinghap ako't ang mga mata ay nanlaki.

'Yong panty ko!