My life goes on... ni hindi ko na tinitingnan sina Hakken... I— I sometimes just can't bring myself to look at him.... Masyado siyang mapanakit...
Everything happens for a reason— I believe so— Okay na akong masaktan— okay nang wala siya sa tabi ko... It's not like I'm going to stay in this world for good. I have my mission and that's my priority after all... Saving my friends happiness is my priority.... Saving them from guilt and pain.
And I'm also trying my hardest to stay positive... I don't want to drown into pain of being broken hearted... I don't want my friends to worry... I don't want them to drag in to the pain I'm feeling.
"Stop following me!" He said annoyed. Nakangiti lang ako habang nakasunod pa din sa kanya at kinukulbit pa siya...
My friends didn't stop me from following the Duke... Gabriél looks amused to watch the Duke gets irritated because of me...
"Ne." He glared at me. "Ne.. ne... Nathan." I smiled at him. "Let's be friends."
"I told you many times! I don't want to be friends with you. Learn to back off. Not everyone likes you!" Iritang sabi nito
"I know." Napalingon ako sa field kung saan ang mga estudyante. "Some of them likes me. Some of them hates me... And I just don't care if someone hate me as long as someone appreciate and love me.. I'm okay with it."
"You're so annoying!!!" Natatawa ako sa kanya habang sinusundan siya hanggang sa makarating kami sa forest side ng academy... Huminto siya at seryosong humarap sakin...
"Should I just kill you right here, right now?" He said smirking. Naglakad siya papalapit sakin .. hindi ako umalis sa kinatatayuan ko... I just look at him... Memorizing his face... "I will get rid of you first before getting rid of those devils." He said, voice cold and intimidating.
I'm still busy looking at his angry face not even minding that his hand is now on my neck.. then I just felt my back hit the tree....
"Ne." Hirap na sambit ko dahil sinasakal niya ako. "Kuya." Kahit na nahihirapan magsalita pinalambing ko pa din ang boses ko...
I can see that his expression change .... Lumuwag din ang pagkakahawak niya sa leeg ko... There is longing and pain in his eyes...
Nabitawan niya ako ng may dumaang kidlat sa pagitan namin...
"Eyen." Napalingon ako kay Knite na seryosong nakatingin kay Nathan. The next thing I know I was standing beside Knite while he's holding my arm.
"The next time you hurt her, I'm going to kill you." May babala sa boses nito... Nathan just look at him coldly like he doesn't care...
Tinanggal ko ang kamay ni knite sa pagkakahawak sa braso ko at lumapit kay Nathan.
"Eyen!"
Nathan stared at me coldly... Ngumiti ako at huminto sa harapan niya... "Can you please tell me that I will be okay?"
Hindi niya ako pinansin at iniwas ang tingin sakin... With a heavy heart I turn my back on him... "I will pursue my friendship with you Nathan... See you later."
Lumapit na ako kay knite at nakangiting kumapit sa braso niya.
"Seriously! You really want to be friends with everyone!!!?" Inis na sabi niya. "he hurt you."
"So? I don't mind if he hurt me." Ngumuso ako. "and beside is there something wrong being friend with everyone?" Takang tanong ko sa kanya... Tiningnan niya ako.
"f**k! I don't even know why i f*****g save you and Why the f**k I'm talking to you!" Inirapan niya pa ako... Tinawanan ko naman siya.
"Knite you're so cute!" Natatawang sambit ko at inihilig pa ang ulo ko sa braso niya. "Be cute forever."
"I'm f*****g handsome you stupid girl!"
"Hey! I'm not stupid!" Lumayo ako sa kanya at sinamaan siya ng tingin. He grin at me.
"Stupid."
"Yah! I am not!" Pinasingkit ko pa ang mata ko sa kanya.
"Now I know how to make you not sweet and nice eh?" I pouted my lips at him.. i really hate it when someone called me stupid.. tho I don't really mind that because I know I'm smart! But when someone close to me say that word to me... Nag iinarte talaga ako... Wala.. maarte talaga ako... Gusto ko talaga kapag sinusuyo nila ako ... I mean I'm always sweet to my friends and brothers and I want them to be sweeter when it comes to me.
Lumapit siya sakin at pinitik ang noo ko. "Don't pout your lips if you don't want to be kiss by me, okay?" He said dangerously... I covered my lips... He show me his amused smile before he turned his back on me... Sumabay naman akong maglakad sa kanya. "Do you have the power to make someone talk?"
"No?" Inosenteng sagot ko sa kanya.
"Hmm."
"Yieee. I will make you talkative!" I poke his arm
"You can't! Tch." Mahina akong natawa pero nahinto din ng makita kong nakatingin sakin si Hakken... He's staring intently at me and I can't help but to stare back...
"Stupid Eyen." I glance at Knite and look at hakken again... But he's not there anymore.
That one time I took my eyes off him... He's gone.
"Eyen." Tiningnan ko ulit si Knite habang hawak ko ang dibdib ko... "Masakit?" He ask.
"Knite baka!!! Baka! Hontou baka!" Nakangusong sabi ko sa kanya at nag iwas ng tingin.. Huminto ako sa paglalakad kaya huminto din siya... I look up to the sky and tried to reach it. "I want someone that I can't have and it's him. It hurts so bad, Knite."
"Then why are you smiling?"
"Because I'm so use to smile even if it hurts?" Still the smiled plastered on my lips when I look at him. "I maybe smiling but it doesn't mean I'm not hurting while seeing them together... I'm so used of emotional pain so I can endure the pain."
His red eyes stared at me... I can't help but to compare it to Hakken... Knite eyes are pretty but Hakkens eyes is prettier...
"Endure the pain... You will have him."
"I don't want to have him." He arch his brow at me.
"You want him right?" Takang tanong niya. I smiled.
"Yes. But I rather see him with her, Knite, even if it hurt.. It's not like I will live longer."
"What do you mean by that?"
Nauna na akong maglakad sa kanya... Ramdam ko namang nakasunod lang siya sa likuran ko. "Vampires live longer than humans, Knite."
"I can turn you into vampire."
"No thanks." I chuckled.
Bumalik kami sa Field... Nakaupo na ang lahat ng mga estudyante at nagpapahinga... Lumapit naman ako sa mga kaibigan ko kasama si Knite na hinila ko...
"Where's the Duke?" Olson ask.
"Forest." Sagot ko sa kaniya... Tumabi ako kay Tyron at kumuha ng cookies na kinakain niya... binigyan naman ako ng tubig ni Kyle.
"Thanks."
"Why am I even here." Bulong ni Knite kaya tiningnan namin siya.
"Kasi pumunta ka dito?" Sabi ni wendy na ikinatawa ko.. Knite glared at her and then look at me.
"Stop laughing stupid!" Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin.
"Eyen is not stupid." Pagtatanggol sakin ni Gabriél so I stuck my tongue out at Knite. Inirapan niya lang ako.
"Ang talino ko diba, Gab?"
"Yeah." Sumang ayon din naman ang iba.
"Matalino nga pero nagmahal naman ng maling tao." Napanganga ako dahil sa sinabi ni Henry.
"Henry you meanie!" Wala sa sariling sagot ko sa kanya... The next thing I know Henry and Wilson started bickering— sumasali din sa kanila si Wendy at Aubrey.. It's 1 vs 3
"Eyen." Napalingon ako kay Callaile.
"Bakit?"
"May napanood kasi ako sa phone mo."
"Na?" Wala namang porn diyan sa cellphone kong pinahiram sa kanya and it's my personal phone... Sa agent phone ko na nandito sakin.. meron ata.. It's Aleandro sending me those— hindi ko pa ata nade-delete.
"Your world seems peaceful." I stared at him... Napunta ata siya sa videos ko...
Ngumiti ako sa kanya. "not really peaceful." Sinandal ko ang likod ko sa braso ni Knite. "This world and the Earth is like the same in some ways. Bad people exist there too. Slavery as well as rich and poor people.. Our world maybe don't have magic existed there but we have weapons that can destroy the world.. that can kill the humans..."
He tilt his head to the right. And stared at me.. I chuckled... I reach my hand on him. "Give me my phone." Binigay naman niya yun sakin...
"Maraming magandang lugar sa mundong pinanggalingan ko— pero meron din namang hindi."
"I want to see." Kyle said. "Ang daya! Siya lang nakakita ng mundo kung saan ka nabuhay!"
"Oo nga!" Sang ayon ni Olson.
"Hmm. Okay ... You can only see the place where I used to go or travel though."
I made the Hologram Appear at pumunta sa Photos. "This is Spain."
"Woah."
"I grow up in spain." Pinakita ko sa kanila ang ibang lugar sa spain. "This is Madrid in spain.... Barcelona... Seville..... Valencia." The next thing I know— The knights and the students and as well as the teachers are looking at the hologram and listening to me.
"Then this is Paris in France.. that's the Eiffel Tower." I can't help but to smile at their reactions... "This is Montpellier... Nice." I mentioned a lot of places in France...
"This Country is Japan." Tiningnan ko si Cal. "Anime came from Japan." Tumango tango siya sakin at parang excited.. "this place is Tokyo Japan."
"You have a video right?" Tanong ni Cal sakin.... Ito ata ang nakita niya.
"Yeah." I show them the video— kasama ako sa video syempre.. gumagala talaga ako sa japan... Every year I go there...
"What food we will try first, Babe?" I was smiling at the Camera... I'm with Chaos that time and he's the one filming me.
"Sushi, Takoyaki, teriyaki are your favorite, babe." Ramdam kong natigilan si knite ng marinig ang boses ni Chaos... Hakken, Knite and Nathan have the same voice like Nate, Chaos and Kean.... They have same personality... they're just living in a different world.
"Maraming masarap na pagkain sa Japan..." Pinakita ko na lang sa kanila ang Video na in-edit ko... Where we can watch the Japan Cities and Their foods without me talking in the video binigay ko din ang cellphone ko kay Cal na kaharap ko lang naman.
"That voice, Eyen." Bulong sakin ni Knite...
"I have a fiancee in that world, Knite and you look like him." I whisper.
"But why did you love Hakken?" He whisper back.
"I don't know... Ask that to my heart." Natatawang sabi ko. Mahinang pinukpok ni Knite ang ulo ko— nakasandal pa din ako sa kanya..
"Does your heart speak?"
"Yes. It says hakken, hakken, hakken." I kidded.
"Wow. Funny." He said with sarcasm "Kaya ka nasasaktan."
Natawa lang ako sa sinabi niya at bumaling sa Hologram ng marinig ko ang boses ko.
"Kelvin Aleandro!" Nakasampa ako sa likod ni Aleandro habang hawak ang camera... Nasa Paris kami niyan at tapos na yung trabaho namin— Kasama ko siya sa trabaho that time dahil part time model din yan— Kelvin Aleandro's face is now showing on the Camera... We're both wearing a black shades... Parehas ding itim ang buhok naming dalawa... Nagpapakulay talaga ako ng buhok— I used to be blonde.. My dad, me and my siblings are blonde while mom is the only one who have Black hair.
"You look good at Black hair." Knite commented.
"She's beautiful with her silver hair as well."
"Kahit anong kulay ata ng buhok bagay sayo." Wilson said.
"You know that you're heavy, right Eyen?" Kelvin Aleandro said. I giggled and kiss his cheek.
"Okay lang yan. You love me anyway." I laugh as I hear him grunted "I love you too Kelvin Aleandro! Hehehe My Captain is so strong."
"And handsome too!"
"Yep and a Maniac who always send me porno!"
"Cal! Stop watching that!" Nakangusong sabi ko. Agad naman niya yung pinatay dahil sa gulat kaya wala ng imahe sa hologram... The people who watch that grunted... I laugh.
"Sorry— but that one is private."
"Why?"
"It's an adult stuff we are talking about."
Ngumiti lang ako sa kanilang lahat— bumalik na din naman sila sa pag eensayo... Sina Shoyo-kun naman— they're sparring with each other .... Nanood lang din naman ako sa training nila— I tried my hardest not to look at Hakken...
Nang gumabi kasama ko si Poseidon— we're patrolling the school premises... Some of the Council— including Callaile are patrolling as well.. And Nathan is a Council too!!!!! He's a vice president... Second year as well— he's with Red right now.
"Hey." Tumingin ako kay Poseidon. "Pwede bang palit kami ni Red? I want to talk to Nathan."
"Ayaw mo akong kasama?" Natawa ako ng magdrama siya...
"No! Of course not.. it's just that I want Nathan to be my friend!"
Tumawa naman si Poseidon. "Fine!" Nagsimula siyang maglakad kaya sumabay ako sa kanya. "Malapit na ang School Festival pero hindi ka nag eensayo."
"Hahaha Nag eensayo ako no!" Sagot ko sa kanya.
"About Hakken." Pag iiba niya sa usapan... Napahinto ako pero agad din namang bumalik sa paglalakad. My heart pounding so damn fast dahil lang sa sinabi ni Poseidon ang pangalan niya.
"What about him?" Poseidon look at me over his shoulder.
"Nothing really." He smiled at me. "I just want to tell you that don't believe in everything you see."
Napanguso ako tumakbo at sumampa sa likuran niya. "Hey!"
"Poseidon the great you will carry me!!" Poseidon heave a deep sigh at hinayaan na Ako... I wrapped my arms around his neck and rest my chin on my arm. "Poseidon... Poseidon.. Poseidon." I even howl making him laugh.
"So annoying Eyen! Nagbabantay tayo."
"But you're laughing." Hindi na siya sumagot at tumawa lang.. nakarating din kami sa pwesto nina Red at Nathan .. kumaway pa ako sa kanila... Poseidon talk to Nathan that he will be taking Red because they will talk something important.. ngiting ngiti naman ako kay Nathan.. I even kissed Poseidon cheek when they left...
Nathan's glaring eyes look at me... "Good evening duke." Bati ko sa kanya... Hindi nagsalita si Nathan... Lumapit ako sa kanya at sinundot sundot ang braso niya.
"Nathan." Masayang sambit ko sa pangalan niya. "Can I call you kuya?!" I said tilting my head to the side.
"You're not my sister to call me that!" Madiin at seryosong boses na saad niya.
"I know." I pouted. "Kuya... You really hate me?"
"Yes!"
"Still I want to be friends with you and be super duper close with you— Kuya!"
"I told you! Stop calling me kuya! I will definitely kill you one day!!!" Galit na sabi niya. I poke his arm— still smiling sweetly at him— ignoring the glaring eyes his throwing at me..
"Kuya." Malakas na tinampal niya ang kamay ko... My eyes went teary... "I just want to be with you." Sabi ko sa mababang boses at maiyak iyak.
"Damn it!" Lumayo siya sakin.. nakaharap sakin ang likuran niya...
"Can you... Can you just tell me I'm going to be fine?" I said trying my best not to cry...
When it really comes to my brother— which is Nathan in this world— I'm really weak— I'm always showing my weaknesses... I know my friends knows my weaknesses too... But my brother is different case.. he's my twin... our bond is different from my friends... My twins bond is stronger...
Kahit na maliliit na bagay alam nito at inaalo ako... Mabilis talaga akong umiyak kapag kakambal ko ang kasama ko ... I.. I just want my brother right now maybe that's why I want to be with Nathan because he looks like Nate...
I shake the pain I'm feeling right now to make the surrounding comfortable... Huminga ako ng malalim...
Stop using him, Eyen. He's not your brother... Don't be friends with him because he looks like your twin! Be friends with him because you really want to be friend him! Kausap ko sa sarili ko...
"I know that you hate me because the Devils are my friends." Tumingin ako sa buwan... "Hindi naman sila masama."
"You don't know them!" Galit na sabi nito.
"And so are you." Sagot ko pabalik na hindi siya tinitingnan. Inangat ko ang kamay ko at pilit inabot ang buwan.
"You know.... I really want to remain Neutral even back on the world where I used to live.... There is always a reason for peoples behavior that's why I don't want to be Judgmental... I mean... Who am I to judge someone? I'm just a mere person." I close my hand trying to capture the Moon. "and I don't know their story, anyways..... Some are born to be evil but some are not ... Some of them are push to be one. Either they were push by someone to do bad deeds and became a bad person we see or because of revenge or it's just natural to them— there are always a reason behind an action or the behavior of someone. Well, in every actions there will be a corresponding reactions. Wait? Tama ba yun? Anyways they also should know the consequence of the action they made. Not everyone are open minded... not everyone can understand them... But you know people can change— well, it's humans cycle— people who are bad turn into good and the Good turn into a bad one and some remains as good and evil."
Nakangiting humarap ako kay Nathan at nakitang nakatitig din siya sakin. "I don't know the pain you're feeling— and how much you hated them but I hope you will look at the good sides... I hope you will able to forgive them.... Kuya."
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