Jimmy's Crush

07: Still

“May I ask ma'am, what is your name? We've been gathering here for so long, and yet, we didn't even bother to hear or even see your name.” I asked.

“Ah, yeah! I'm Criza, don't call me ma'am, it's too formal. Just call me Riza” she said.

“Oh, I see. I'm Jimmy, you can call me Jim, Riza” I said.

“I am Britney, just call me pretty!” Britney said.

“I am Sam, just call me----Sam” Sam said as if she's not sure what she's said.

“And I am Lyka just call me love!” Lyka said and wink at Criza. Criza was just mesmerizing in those introductions.

“Nice to meet you girls! I'm glad to know your name. I've been looking at your friendship from a far.”

“Really? I'm so happy to hear that, Riza” I said.

We’re done with Britney’s late birthday celebration, and we’re currently chatting with the owner of Milk Tea.

“You're such the best actress, gorgeous Riza!” Britney talks to her. We're done with our celebration, so she chatted with the owner of Milk Tea shops.

“What are you! Don't be like that! I'm just happy with the friendship of the four of you.”

I was about to speak when she spoke again.

“You know, friendship should be valued. Just like your family is valued, so are our friends. Well, there are times when it's inevitable that there will be misunderstandings. It's only natural in a circle of friends because That's the measure of how long you'll be friends. That's the measure of how strong your friendship is. That's how lucky you are with each other.” Criza said.

Reason for Sam to sigh. When we both turned to look at her, we just laughed at the same time because of her ugly face.

“Don't cry Sam, your face turn into ugly crying witch!” said Britney while laughing out loud.

“Shut up Barney! I'm crying because of Criza” she said then wiped her tears.

“It's just like that! Your reaction was, look like an equivalent of winning a lottery!” Lyka complains to Sam.

“Shut up Charade!”

We laughed even harder at what Sam said to Lyka, this is how we would tease each other's. For us, it's not really a tease, it's a compliment to each one of us.

We are teasing Britney as Barney because it suits her body. We tease Lyka as Charade because she really looks like her. I'm sorry girls if you're reading this. No personal issues, just work only. That day I was happy to come home, if only my good and freaking sister hadn't ruined it.

“Oh, are we having fun today?” Lea opened up to me when I got to our house.

“Why is it bad? Are you jealous of me?” I asked her.

“Why should I be jealous of you? Eh, you look like an alien!” Leah's teasing of me caused me to beat her. That night, I slept peacefully, but there was still hatred in my heart.

February 14, it's Friday, day of hearts. Floyd invited me to meet him later after class. I ask permission of my little phonies. Today is the last day I will be with Floyd. I will be explaining to him on how I feel about him. I'll let him know. Furthermore, I just hope he understands. When the bells ring, I immediately said goodbye to Britney, Sam, and Lyka.

“Be careful witch! Spread love, don't spread your legs, oki doki?” said Britney.

I would have beaten the three of them for what they said when they ran away. I was just shaken by the attitude of the three.

When Floyd arrived, I suddenly felt nervous.

“I'm sorry, I make you wait” he said then took my hand.

With him now, Reagan was looking at Floyd and I's hands. I immediately took it back from him and pretended to take something from my bag.

I feel like every time Floyd does that to me, especially when Reagan is there, I feel like he doesn't like such gestures. When Floyd and I were together, he was always the third wheel with us. So, I'm ashamed that he's there and Floyd has these things on me.

I thought I could escape Floyd's holding my hand, but he immediately took it and pocketed my hand. This time it was so tight, I felt that Reagan was staring straight at me.

When he saw me looking at him, he immediately avoided me. I can no longer hear the two of them talking because of being too isolated with Reagan. Every time he looks at me, I really count.

“Jimmy, you're with us now, we'll get together for a while, please” Floyd begged me.

“O-Okay” I stammered to him.

“Yes! Let's go, bro.” Floyd said and pat on Reagan's shoulder.

I rode Floyd’s motorbike, while Reagan was alone on his motorbike following us. I sense that he's still looking at me. While we were on the trip, Floyd suddenly strike a break, causing me to hug Floyd’s hard back. I was about to take it back when he took it and placed it neatly around his waist. I was even more upset by what he did.

“W-What's wrong?” I stuttered when I heard Reagan ask that his motorbike had now come down.

I would have taken my arms from him again, but he immediately grabbed it.

“No, there's just a cat, bro” Floyd said to Reagan.

“All right, I'm back on my motorbike.” Reagan said, before he left, he turned his gaze to me causing my face to sink behind Floyd's back.

It moved again towards where we were going. When we arrived I was immediately amazed at the garden-like set-up and there were more saris placed. It's a pleasure to look at, especially at night.

Floyd and I walked over to his friends. He was still holding my hands while Reagan was behind us with his DSLR.

“Wow! What's up bro! Miracle, and you brought a girl?” opening of a friend of Floyd's to Floyd.

I was just standing on the side watching them greet each other when suddenly everyone's eyes turned to me.

“Ah, yeah! Everyone, please meet Jimmy Nam Fontana, my girlfriend.” Floyd introduces me to everyone.

I frowned at him while looking at everyone. Surprised by what he said, I just smiled and shook hands with them all. With so many of them, I can’t remember their names. We sat in a circle with a fire in the middle of us. I was sat next to Floyd, while Floyd was next to Reagan.

“Oh, Floyd! True or Dare?” asked a friend of Floyd's.

“Crazy witch gay! That's truth, isn't true!” Floyd's friend said that cause everyone laughed except me.

“Dare!” Floyd answered briefly and then gulped down a glass of juice.

“Oh! Brave tolls!”

Floyd just shrugged and put his arm around me.

“All right. Kiss Jimmy on the cheek” a friend of Floyd ordered Floyd.

I turned to look at him as our lips met. It was too late for me to back off, but Floyd insisted even more. I immediately pushed him and ran away from my seat. I felt him follow me.

“Jimmy what's wrong?”

“Let's go home.” I answered, reason for him to hurry to get on his motorbike.

When we got outside our alley, I immediately took off the helmet and gave it to him. I went down without looking at him, but before I could enter the alley towards us.

“Won't you talk to me before you leave? Look, I apologize for the kiss it was just a dare” I heard him say to me, his voice was a bit irritated.

“It's not the kiss that makes me like this, Floyd. Please don't own things you don't really own, Floyd.”

“Why? Don't I own you? You're my girlfriend, ah?” he said, and he seemed to be annoyed with me.

“That's my point, Floyd! I'm not aware that I'm your girlfriend. I never give you permission to be your girlfriend!”

“But you give me permission to be with you” his eyes widened as he told me reason for me to pause for a second.

“That's because, I don't mean to hurt your feelings, that's why I refuse to answer your confession, but I guess you take that as a yes” I said gently, I couldn't help but cry because I was having a hard time in this situation.

“If you don't want me to get hurt, then you should reject me from the first place!”

“How can I reject you? When every time I open my mouth, you've always shut me down like I don't have a right to say my words to you!”

“Well, it's too late, you already hurt my feelings for you”

“Let's stop. Let's end this, Floyd, I'm sorry”

I cried, turning my back on him. I never looked back at him again.

“Jimmy …” I heard him say my name.

I didn't look at him, I just kept walking into our house. I dropped myself on my bed and there sobbed.

Furthermore, I was crying because I was hurting someone. I'm crying because I have no guts to tell with you that I'm in love with your best friend. And that's him …. Reagan Dave Ramirez. You still are until now.