Chapter 21 - If You Marry Me
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Chapter 21 - If You Marry Me
I was frozen in place when I felt his arm encircled on my tiny waist and his chest pressed on my back. He rested his forehead on the top of my head.
“I’m sorry.” He uttered.
I know that moving away from him is the right thing to do, but I feel so much comforted with his arms around me. My mind is telling me to move but my heart says otherwise.
“Are you mad?” his voice is quiet and soft, different.
I couldn’t get myself to answer. My mind is in a haywire and my heart is beating so fast.
“I’m sorry, baby. Please don’t be mad.” He mumbled.
Did he just call me…
“I didn’t mean to talk to you like that earlier and call you childish.”
Kahit naman ata hindi ‘to mag-sorry, mapapatawad ko parin. Alam ko rin naman na hindi tama yung inasal ko kanina, pinangunahan lang talaga ako ng nararamdaman ko kaya hindi ako nakapagpigil na ganon umakto sa harapan nila.
“A-Archer” nagaalangan kong sambit.
“Hmm?”
“What are you doing?” Why is he doing this to me. My head is already in a mess because of his actions!
“Nothing.”
“Nothing? You’re caging me in your arms, Archer.”
“uh-huh.” He even agreed?
“y-you should let go now” I tried to remove his arms but he tightened it more to hug me from behind, and his head moved now to my shoulder. I looked at him and he just stared at the water surface below us.
“Hmm. No.” aniya na parang bata na ayaw bumitaw sa magulang.
“Archer. Let go.” Hindi naman pwedeng pang-habang buhay kaming nakababad dito sa tubig diba.
“I don’t want to. You’re still mad at me.”
“No. Not anymore. Let’s go back to the shore.”
“Really?” he asked hopefully which made me giggle. He’s like a little Sophia male version.
“Yeah. The sun is setting. I want to watch.”
“Alright.” he held my arm to help me walk back to the shore. I did my best not to look at him and stare at his body.
Ilang abs nga ulit yun?
Omg Rain Amira, ang landi!!!
Lihim kong pinagalitan ang sarili ko. Kani-kanina lang nagdesisyon akong huwag i-entertain ang nararamdaman ko tapos ngayong dumating lang siya, bumalik ulit. What’s wrong with me?
Nang makarating kami sa buhanginan ay dumiretso ako sa pagsuot ng aking palda. I have no problem wearing swimsuits in front of everyone because I am confident about my body. I’m not saying that I’m sexy or what, but I’m just proud of myself.
I know out there, there are lots who are ashamed of their body and decide to stay hidden because of those body-shamers. But, people should be more proud and confident for who and what they are, it doesn’t matter what your size is, if you want to wear a bikini, then go girl! Flaunt that gorgeous body of yours. Don’t mind them, they just don’t have the confidence like yours.
“You’re still blushing, Rain.” I know kanina pa ‘to, but it’s not like I can stop my blood from rushing to my face.
I turned to him after putting my skirt on saka wala sa sariling napatitig sa kanya. He’s still shirtless and…hot.
“You’re staring, Rain.” Nangaasar niyang sambit saka mahinang tumawa
I cleared my throat and looked back at the sea.
“Put a damn shirt on, Archer.” Tinawanan lamang ako nito bago ako lumayo konti sa duyan at doon umupo. I watched the sun as it starts to set.
Soon enough it will be behind the horizon while displaying its final beauty for the day, turning the blue sky and the seawater into a mixture of red and orange.
I felt Archer sit beside me and thank God he’s now clothed.
Pwedeng alisin ulit?
Ba’t ang landi ng utak ko.
We both watched the sky turn into another color, listening to the soft sound of the waves, feeling the sand under our feet, no one’s uttering a word as we silently enjoy the view in front of us.
“It’s beautiful.” I quietly uttered as if afraid that my voice would shatter the scenery before us.
“Yeah. Just like you.” I felt his eyes on me but I did not turn to look at him.
Questions linger in my mind, but I am not sure if I want them to be answered now. I know my priorities, it is my studies and I have to get the license before anything else. If this is love, I know it will just hurt me and may affect my studies and dreams if I let it grow in me. At least not now, not yet, coz I can’t.
May gusto ba siya sakin? I want to ask him, but I honestly am afraid of his answer. It could either be ‘yes’ or ‘no’, and both answers scares me.
I don’t want to know. At least not yet, not now. I am not ready.
But will I ever be ready?
What happened to Mom and Dad made me more afraid to engage myself in love. I don’t wanna be with someone like Dad, I don’t want to be hurt, and I know that hurting is a part of loving a person, and that is why I don’t want to.
“Why are you here, Archer?”
“I always come here, Rain.”
“Oh, right. It’s your resort.” I sarcastically laughed because obviously I already know that and that’s not what I meant when I asked him why he’s here.
“Did you know that I’m here?”
“Maybe? I often come here to watch the sunset. After the lunch, I went to your unit but you were not there so I figured out that you may be here… in my place.”
“In your place? I know you own this resort, Archer, but don’t regard this spot as YOUR place.”
“Oh no, missy. This is MY private spot. You’re the intruder here.” Agad akong napatingin sa kanya.
“What do you mean?”
“No one comes here this part of the resort, Rain, I forbid them to.”
“Uh.. but the Dean and---
“because I was with them?”
Oh, right!
“but, no one stopped me before?”
“I saw you the first time you came here and you were headed to this place, a crew was about to call you before but I told me to allow you wherever you want to go.”
“I…umm. Sorry. Don’t worry, I’ll not come this far again.”
Or can I just ask him to sell me this part of the resort? It’s a great place, away from the noise of the other guests.
But of course I don’t have the money to buy this… can I just rent it? or just pay additional fees at the entrance so I can use this place?
“You can have it, Rain.”
“What?!” gulat akong napabaling sa kanya
“You can come here anytime you want. I can share this place with you.”
“I see. I thought I can have the whole resort now.” I joked and laugh at that stupid idea.
“You can have it too, if you marry me.” He looked at me intently without any hint of amusement or joke on his face.
I nervously laugh at what he said. Marriage is not a light thing to joke about.
“I-I was just k-kidding, Archer. I don’t want your resort….. I-I just like this spot that’s all.”
“You don’t want to marry me?”
Ano bang pinagsasabi ni Archer, ba’t napunta diyan. Bata pa ako para diyan.
Bata? Pero lumalandi Rain Amira?
“W-what are you talking about Archer…. Don’t joke about things like that.”
“I’m serious, Rain Amira.”
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