Their Obsession

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

Did I heard it right? Hindi ba ako dinadaya ng pandinig ko?

My biological brother likes me? No! Kuya Kane is inlove with me? When? How?

Ilang minuto akong natulala sa kuwarto. Kahit kailan ay hindi sumagi sa isip ko 'yon, not until he said earlier that he is inlove with me.

Hindi ko iyon inaasahan. Akala ko ay pagnanasa lang talaga ang nararamdaman niya para sa akin. Puwede naman 'yon hindi ba? Ako ay kyuryosidad samantalang siya ay marupok kaya nangyari ang hindi dapat mangyari.

I am convincing myself that my brother is just mistaken about his feelings. Maybe he has not found the right girl for him yet.

"Nandito ka lang pala."

Dumako ang tingin ko sa nagsalita. Kumportbale siyang nakasandal sa hamba ng pinto habang hawak ang doorknob. Bagong ligo rin ang gago. Maybe, they did it the sand? They sweat is too much because of their heated momentum...

Wala sa sariling napatiim bagang ako. Really? Iisipin ko pa ba talaga ang kabalbalang ginawa nila?

Dapat wala akong pakialam! Dapat wala! Dapat hindi ako nasasaktan. 'Yon ang dapat pero hindi ganoon ang nangyayari.

"s**t! Ba't ka umiiyak?" nag-aalalang tanong niya at mabilis na lumapit sa puwesto ko.

Wala sa sariling napahawak ako sa pisngi ko. Basa nga ng luha.

"Hush, Myreen. Why are you crying? Sinong gago ang napaiyak sa'yo?" malambing niyang tanong habang pinupunasan ang luha ko.

Umangat ang tingin ko sa kanya.

"Edi inaamin mong gago ka?" paos kong tanong.

He give me an amuse look.

"Woah! Wala akong ginagawa." he said and raise both of his hands.

Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. Hindi niya sineseryoso ang sinasabi ko. Talaga bang nagkakagusto na ako sa gagong 'to?

His bright smile infront of me made my heart beat beyond normal.

Kahit mabilis ang t***k ng puso ko ay hindi ako nagpahalata sa kanya.

I shot my brow up.

"E, sino 'yung babaeng kasama mo sa may dalampasigan? Did you f**k her on the sand?" mataray kong tanong.

Mas nadagdagan ang mangha sa mukha ni Blant. Parang hindi niya talaga inaasahan na itatanong ko sa kanya 'yon.

I've never been nosy about his girls before. I don't give a damn! Noon, kahit ilang babae pa ang ikama niya ay hindi naman ako nasasaktan pero iba ngayon.

I don't own him. I'm just his friend. And I don't know why my mouth betrayed me.

"'Yan ang dahilan mo kung bakit galit ka?" kahit pinipigilan ni Blant ang saya sa boses niya ay pilit pa rin iyong kumawala.

Nag-iwas ako ng tingin. I heard him chuckled and uttered some curses.

And the moment that I laid my eyes on Blant again, I admitted to myself that I like him.

I gasped when he attacked my lips. Mabagal, nanunuya, nagtatanong, naghahanap ng kasagutan.

Without any hesitation, I kissed him back. Our kiss is so passionate. His right hand stayed on my back and the other one is cupping my face.

I closed my eyes to feel more of his kisses. Gentle yet hot.

We gasped after our long passionate kiss. Hinahabol namin pareho ang aming hininga. Mapula ang labi ni Blant ang bahagyang nakabuka. Magkatitigan kami at nakaramdam ako bigla ng hiya.

He already knew that I have feelings for him. Ako pa naman noon ang nagsabi sa kanya na hindi na ako magkakagusto sa iba tapos ako pa itong mas lamang ang pagkagusto!

I think I'm going to loose my mind! My brother likes me! Blant likes me! Hash likes me! And most of all Jandrex loves me!

Ang ganda ko naman yata masiyado para magkagusto sa akin ang apat na lalaking kasama ko sa Villa na 'to.

"What are you thinking Myreen?" Blant asked.

I stared at him straight in the eyes. I'm curious. Very curious. When did it started? When did he like me? Bakit hindi ko agad napansin? I know that he cares but he never get jealous.

"Kailan pa?" tanong ko.

He smiled, more like amused. Napailing pa siya ng bahagya.

"Ako dapat ang nagtatanong niyan. Last week, you like Jadrex and now you like me?" hindi pa makapaniwalang sabi niya.

Kahit ako naman. I never imagine liking him. Not in my wildest dream. Yes! We're wild when we were intimate but no feelings involved.

"I never said that I like you." I said.

He laughed, a sarcastic one.

"You kissed back!" giit niya.

"I always kissed back when you kiss me." I answered, trying to save my ass off.

Bakit ba napunta kami sa ganitong usapan?

"But not with feelings. Hindi ako manhid Myreen! Alam kong hindi ka rin manhid. You know that I'm hitting on you for the past few days. You're just kept on denying it!" he said with a low voice.

Malalim na bumuntong hininga ako. Wala na akong takas. Blant wouldn't let this slide. I know him. He will going to pursue me until he get what he wants.

"So what if I like you?" I asked. Tinaasan ko rin siya ng kilau.

"I'm going to court you." he said with a serious voice.

I want to mock him but I don't have the courage to do that. Halatang hindi nagbibiro at buo na ang desisyon.

"You're far from Blant that I knew. You should get going. I'm really confused." sabi ko at nagtalukbong na ng comforter.

Agad na nanuot sa ilong ko ang bango ni Kuya Kane. Isa pa siya! How can he fell inlove with his own sister?

Ano na lang ang iisipin ng magulang namin? Well, they didn't raise us. Their money are.

Dahil ba doon kaya umabot sa ganoon ang kapatid ko?

"Rest well. Doon muna ako sa kuwarto." pagsuko ni Blant ng hindi na talaga ako humarap sa direksiyon niya.

Narinig ko ang yabag niyang papalayo kaya bumalikwas ako ng bangon.

"Sigurado ka bang sa kuwarto ka pupunta? Hindi ka makikipagkita doon sa kasama mong babae?" nakasimangot kong tanong.

Mabilis na lumaki ang ngisi ni Blant. Halatang gustong-gusto niya ang naririnig niya.

"Oo naman. Gusto mo samahan mo pa ko." he teased.

"Alis na nga!" I said and rolled my eyes.

Bumalik ako sa pagkakahiga. Tuluyan na talaga siyang umalis. Siguraduhin niya lang na sa kuwarto talaga ang punta niya.

I'll check him later. At kapag wala siya doon. I'm gonna...

Nahampas ko ang unan na yakap ko. At ano na naman ang gagawin ko? My god! I'm not a jealous type! Ano bang nangyayari sa akin?

Baka naman ginayuma ako ni Blant? Nevermind! I should get some rest and deal with my headache to those four later.

Kahit papaano naman ay nakatulog ako. I woke up by my brother's gentle kisses.

Pinapaulanan niya ako ng halik sa leeg at nag-iiwan pa ng marka.

"What are you doing?" I asked in a hoarse voice.

"I'm marking you." he answered and continue showering kisses on my neck.

Naramdaman kong marahan niyang nilililis ang strap ng maxi dress ko.

"I'm not yours." I whisphered.

He continue undressing me but I didn't do anything. I let Kuya Kane do whatever he wants.

Lumalalim na ang bawat paghinga ko dahil sa halik niyang bumababa na sa dibdib kong nakahain na sa kanya.

He got off my brassiere so easily. Naiibaba n rin niya ang maxi dress ko. I got up to give him more access.

"You weren't mine yet your submitting yourself to me." may halong pait niyang sabi.

Tumigil siya sa ginagawa niya. Bakas ang sakit sa mata ni Kuya.

"I thought you're better than this, little sis. You never give any boy mixed signals but what are you doing to me?" he asked calmly.

My mouth parted. Am I? Ganoon ba ang nararamdaman niya?

"I've settle for less for a long time..." panimula niya. "I've settle on the things you can give! Kapatid mo ako kaya tinanggap ko na hanggang kama na lang tayo. Everytime you moan my name, it's music to my ears Myreen." bakas ang lungkot ko sa boses ni Kuya Kane. And it breaks my heart.

Hindi ko akalain na ganoon ang nararamdaman niya. Akala ko wala lang. He's a guy. Having s*x is just casual to guys but I got it wrong. I forgot that my brother has feelings too.

"When the first time you seduced me, hindi mo alam kung anong pagpipigil ang ginawa ko para hindi ka patulan. I thought it's normal! We're in puberty stage, just curious on how mature things would feel like but when we tried it, I realized that it wasn't! I f****d my sister and I liked it." he said, laughing a bit without humor in it.

Nang magtama ang mga mata namin ay pinaghalong sakit at lungkot lang ang nakikita ko.

I didn't see this coming. Akala ko ay magiging bonding namin itong magkapatid. Is this the reason why he distant himself? He was hurt because of me? He was hurt on what he's seeing?

"Noong nalaman ko ang ibig sabihin ng pagmamahal, ikaw agad ang naisip ko. You know when is it?"

"Kailan?" mahina kong tanong.

"When I was eight. It was your seventh birthday. You were so happy because Mom and Dad were home." ngumiti si Kuya Kane. His smile is like reminscing the past. "Your smile was priceless and my heart beat weirdly." napapailing niyang sambit.

"You..started to love me since then? As a..."

"...yeah, as a girl I want to be my partner in life. Not as a sister. And then you made it more harder for me since we took each other's virginity."

"Kuya!" I hissed.

"What? You're the one who give motives." he fired back.

"Bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi? Are you hurt when I fell in love with another guy?" I asked, eager to know the answer.

"What kind of question is that li'l sis? Are you that insensitive?"

Napanguso naman ako. I know it sounded so insensitive but I want to know.

"Gusto ko lang malaman."

"If it isn't obvious then I am. I am very hurt knowing that the princess I fell in love with wouldn't be my queen." malungkot siyang ngumiti. "No matter how I tried, you'll just be a princess to me and you are destined to be some else queen."

"How can you decide that way Kuya? Tinanong mo ba ako?" I asked.

My brother stood up. Inaayos na niya ang hinubad niya. He put back my bra as well as my dress.

"You should rest, Myreen. I'm sorry for bothering your sleep." he said ang kissed my forehead.

He stormed out of his own room just like that. What the hell?

Talaga bang akala niya wala siya lang ang may nararamdaman? My stupid brother didn't bother to hear my side first.

Napabuntong hininga na lang ako. Masiyado na akong naguguluhan sa nangyayari. Is it really possible? To like four guys?

Well, I couldn't also imagine that Hash will like someone else. Gusto ko ako lang. Gusto ko ako lang ang magmamay-ari sa kanila.

Is that even possible? Nababaliw na ako! Paano naman sila papayag sa ganoon? Parang noon lang gusto kong ma-experience ang fivesome.

How does it feel when I do it with the one I like! Or should I say with the four I like?

My stomach made a weird sound.

I checked the time. It's one in the morning. Madaling araw na. Masiyado na pala akong matagal nag-iisip.

Siguro naman ay tulog na sila. Maingat akong bumangon para pumunta sa kitchen. Sa bandang labas na lang ng Villa bukas ang ilaw.

Dumiretso ako sa kitchen. Binuhay ko ang ilaw at tiningnan kung anong laman ng ref. Nakakita ako ng fresh milk kaya kinuha ko 'yon. Maybe, this can help me to easily sleep.

"Can't sleep?" muntik ko ng mabitawan ang hawak kong lalagyan ng fresh milk dahil sa nagsalita.

"Hash!" gulat kong sabi.

Wala siyang suot na glasses at magulo ang buhok. He looks more attractive. Napadako ang tingin ko sa labi niya.

"Nagulat ba kita? I just woke up and can't sleep anymore." aniya at kinuya ang fresh milk na hawak ko.

Siya na ang kumuha ng dalawang baso at sinalinan 'yon.

Tahimik kami habang sinisimsim ang gatas. The silence is a little bit awkward. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko kay Hash.

"Did you know that they have a fight earlier?" basag ni Hash sa katahimikan.

Umayos naman ako ng pagkakatayo at hinarap siya.

"Anong nangyari?"

"Your brother punched us. He looks so mad. Tinatanong kami kung sino daw ang nagpaiyak sa'yo." he laughed a bit.

Hash drink his milk again and finished it. Maingay niyang inilapag ang baso sa sink. He give me his rare smile.

Hinapit niya ang baywang ko para malapit ako sa kanya.

I gasped.

He pulled me for a hug. His body feels so warm and welcoming. I close my eyes to feel it more.

"The moment I saw your brother mad at us. I already knew that it is not just a brotherly love." he whisphered.

"Hash."

"Alam kong lahat kami sa Villa'ng 'to may gusto sa'yo pero isa lang ang nasisiguro ko. I would never hurt you, Myreen. I will not make you cry like they did. Kung hindi mo kayang pumili, handa akong makihati." he said with a gentle voice.

Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko. Hanggang sa siya na ang kumalas sa pagkakayakap sa akin.

Unti-unti kong naramdaman ang pagdampi ng labi niya sa noo ko.

"Goodnight, Myreen." Hash said and left me in the kitchen alone.

What should I do now?

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8.23 AM. January 23, 2022