Scented Blood

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Cadence Dracarys. Cadence Dracarys. Cadence Dracarys. Your name is Cadence Dracarys.

Cadence...

Dracarys...

Cadence...

Cadence...

Caden-

"Cad stop!"

"Callysta! Shut up!!!!!" I screamed at my mind. I cover my ears.

"You're not insane, Cad. Stop it...Remember what I told you? Stay calm. Relax and focus. You need to train your mind. You can't escape here if you're acting dumber each day. "

"No. I don't want to escape. I don't want it. I deserved this. I deserved to be tortured." It has been like a mantra for months now after Savant left me here to rot as he said. I accepted it because it is my punishment I need to atone for. And because the guilt won't let me even think of them without knowing I am the root of their demise.

"You never killed anyone...You've never killed anyone, yet. Cad. Remember that."

"But I'm the reason they are killed!" I shouted at myself again. It's becoming a habit to shout at myself. I am frustrated at myself. I want to kill myself because the guilt is already in my neck waiting to snapped the life out of me. "And I don't want to kill. I never wanted all of this. I wish I could could go back in time. Then I never would've leave when they found me and took care of me. I wish I could go back in time. Maybe I could've save them. I could've pierced those Humans hearts to shreds and suck their blood dry. I could've snap their necks and...and throw them away so they could never hurt Mom and Dad. I wish I could-

"But you didn't. Why?", She paused to let me remember the coward I am. " It was because you were too afraid of yourself. You wanted so much to become human back then you deprived yourself of our food-

"No. I never wanted Humans blood. It tastes weird and I-I only drink animal's blood. "

"Stop lying to yourself, Cad. You can't change your DNA. You need to accept your being and take advantage of it-

"No! No...I am not a monster. I am not a monster. I don't suck people's blood out of their neck. I don't-

"Then why do you feel a deep thirst for blood? Why do you think of blood every second? Why can you hear Humans heartbeat and thought of blood? It has only been three months now, Cadence. Even if you don't drink blood now, you will seek it later because it's our food. And food is survival. "

I felt splashed out with cold water. Still yet I deny it. I deny all.

"But because of me, the Humans who cared and loved me are now cold and lifeless. They're never getting back...they're never coming back. I'll never hear their voices again. I'll never see them again..."

"STOP BLAMING YOURSELF! AND THINK!"

"Now, who killed your kind foster parents?"

"Me. I killed them. It was me who lead them to their coffins.

"But who killed them. Who fired the g*n at them?

"The Humans." I answered.

"Yes. Yes. Right, the Humans. Now what did we talk about the Humans again?"

"You said,

KILL.

THEM.

ALL."

"Absolutely!"

"Now get your mental f*****g health in line because we can't be weak, Cad. We can never be weak because the Weaklings that are caught are already dead and sixty feet under this ground. And now for whatever reaso they are keeping you from getting your life on the ground, use it as a chance to escape. You understand that?"

I nod.

"Okay. Do you know why they are not checking on you until now?"

"Because they want me to weaken in hunger."

"Good. Do you feel a deep thirst like you feel dying because you haven't had blood for three whole months?"

"No. I can endure longer than that because I have tried avoiding drinking blood before for months."

"Well, let's see. How much longer do you think you'll last?"

"A year."

"Are you sure? Because most vampires don't last half a month. And weaklings don't even last a month without blood making them alive."

"You know very well what happened on my recent years before I was adopted. You know I'll last for a year without it. "

"But you've been drinking animal's blood when you were adopted, maybe you got used to it."

"I'm fine. I don't know where I get the strength but the solid proof was how I am still alive today."

I look at the wall straight ahead of me. The metal electrified wall I am unable to pierced through.

When was the last time I have savoured blood in my tongue?

When was the last time I saw Savant?

When was the last time I felt warmth in my cold heart?

When was the last time I saw the stars or the trees outside.

When was the last time I felt alive? When was the first?