I went home that night with a less heavy feeling. Selene’s words gave me the kind of hope that I wanted to use. It was like a permission I needed from someone I did horrible things to. I cleaned my unit that night at halos alas kwatro na ng umaga ako natapos. Pero kahit sa mga oras na iyon ay hindi ko magawang makatulog, hindi dahil sa bigat na pakiramdam katulad ng mga nakaraang gabi, kun’di dahil sa mga mararaming bagay na tumatakbo sa aking isipan. I wanted to do many things for the things I’ve missed and for the people I lost. When the sun was almost peeking on my window pane, I cleaned myself and decided to go to the nearest gym. It was almost 8 in the morning when I went back to my condo unit to eat my light breakfast and readied myself to finally attend work. That morning, my

