Dallas.

the end

Dallas

I have no idea how everything has gone to sh!t. I swear it is hit after hit after hit for me. "You need to come home, Dallas. Please call her. She wants to speak to you. She says she wants to apologize, and make things right." My father tells me. "I know I have to come home daddy." I say and sniff. "Are you going to call her back?" he asks me. "I can't." I croak. "Dallas, what did mom and I teach you girls? You forgive. Don't let what others have done to you dictate who you are. The way you live life. The way you move. She wants to apologize, allow her to. You listen and then you move on. If you don't do this, you will just carry all of this with you until one day, you explode. You don't need to be walking around with hate in your heart," he tells me. "I know daddy. You are right. You are always right." I tell him. "Damn right I am." he says, and that gets a small chuckle out of me. "Make the call, Dallas and I expect you home by tomorrow," he adds. I'm glad he can't see me roll my eyes. "Bye", I say, and hang up. I sigh. This can't be happening. It hasn't even been a week since they all went home. We were all having so much fun in Miami. How did this happen?

Flashback

"Dallas, I am having such a hard time. I can't find a job that works around my son's schedule. I need a break to think and regroup and get my head on straight." Stephen tells me. "I will fly you out to Miami. We are doing a show and then we have an after party where T has us perform every time we are there. It's awesome." I tell her. "Great. I will pack and leave Logan with Adeline." she tells me. I hit up my sister's and tell them to pack, but of course only Virginia is available because she doesn't have kids yet and Alambama is somewhere in the middle of the jungle and I can't find her. Beckham is coming with Virginia and we will just have a blast without everyone else since they want to be party poopers. Just kidding. I am proud of my sisters. Ella has her new book she is currently editing and will soon go to printing and Cali has her bakery. She also helps so much with Austyn and has her baby boy now. My sisters are the real rock stars in the family.

"Woah, I can never get over this. You guys are amazing. Your concerts just get better and better." Stephen says as Beckham nods, agreeing with her. He has his hand around my sister and I smile. I love their love. "Yeah, dude, this place is super packed. I think you guys need to book bigger venues. Like rent out stadiums or something." my sister says. That is my one wish, that we blow up and can sell out stadiums. That is my biggest dream. That is when you know you really made it. We walk back to my dressing room and I change real quick. I get out and we head for the back entrance to get into our trucks. Tyler leaves with us and T and Albi leave in a separate car with Stephan and some other people they are hanging with tonight. We go back to the house we are renting while we are here and shower and get dressed because I will not go to the after party and continue to perform all sweaty. Everyone else doesn't care, but I also need a moment to call Tilly. She has Austyn tonight and she has been having some issues and I want to see if Tilly was able to figure out what's going on with my girl. This is what is hard for me. I should be the one there for my baby girl. The one she comes to. She is getting older and it is getting harder to be away from her. I sent her to live a normal life, not the unstable one of a rockstar, but I hate it. I just want to be a mom and raise her. But this is my life and there's nothing I can do about it now.

Ty face times his mom. Her face pops up on the screen and we are surprised that a tear-faced Austyn is sitting next to her. "Mama, daddy. I want you to come home now" she says. Ty and I look at each other. I can read his mind. He is mentally calling the pilot. "What's wrong baby girl?" I ask her. "I miss you. I want a baby brother" she says. Wait, what? That went 0-100 real quick. "Baby girl, you know we are working. We will be home when we can." I say. "Can't I go with you guys? I promise I won't get in the way. I will be a good girl. Please," she says, and my heart sinks. "I wish you could baby, but I don't have no-one to watch you while I am on stage and it isn't safe for you to be here alone. I will look for a nanny okay. Someone to stay with you. How does that sound?" I ask her and her eyes light up. "Like Scarlett's nan? Her grandma babysits her while her daddy is at work." my precious daughter says. She has no idea what she even said, but my heart sinks. The granddaughter that witch decided to recognize. She babysits her. Of course she does. She gives her everything. I am sure my face must say a lot of things right now. Ty squeezes my hand. "Hey, mama and I will find a nanny for you. Now go to bed. We love you." Ty tells her. "I love you too." our girl says and he disconnects the call. I can't even hide it if I wanted to. The tears automatically drop.

Things were a little weird after the amazing make-out session Tyler and I had a few weeks back, but things went back to normal. We almost had s3x, but when he said he loved me, something came over me and I was able to push him away. I told him that I didn't want to ruin what we had. Our friendship means so much to me. More than anything and if we ruin that, what will happen to Austyn? I can't hurt her because I am h0rny and want to get my rocks off. Ty, of course, didn't agree. He wants us to be together, to get married. He gave me this huge speech about how good we are together and how he will prove it to me, but I don't know if I can go there. Too much has happened between us. I don't know if I can trust me to even put me first. I don't know what to do.

"Don't cry. I will fix this." he tells me. "I don't want a stranger babysitting her while we perform." I tell him. I know I can't ask and expect someone from my family to drop their life and come on tour with us. Although I wish dad would retire and do just that, but I can't ask him to. My family and Tilly already do so much to help me. They keep her in town to give her stability so I can work and make money to give her the best life. "Come, lets get ready. We have to go," he tells me. I nod and go hop in the shower and get dressed.

I go with a black mini dress with my signature black boots. I do a quick makeup look and straighten my hair and leave it down. I walk out and Ty is sitting on the couch wearing a black shirt that hugs his body perfectly. He looks so good. He looks up, surely he feels me staring at him. He gulps. "Wow, you look so s3xy." he says. He stands up and grabs my hand and spins me around. He pulls me in and kisses my neck. "We should get going" I say, knowing that I do not know how to function when he gets this close to me. My common sense flies out the window and if there is one thing I know, it is that I can't act on these feelings I have for Tyler Browne. All we can ever be is best friends.

We arrive at the venue and everyone is already lit. I don't drink very often, and I tell Ty he can drink and have fun and I will be the sober one. I make sure to go pee before the performance and I bump into a very random person. What is he doing in Maimi and at this event? I swear I always bump into this man at the strangest places. It sucks. I actually wish I would never see him or anyone from his disgusting family again. I guess that is too much to ask for though since he is standing here grinning at me. Eww.

"Hey you" he says, like if we are life-long friends meeting up. I hate him. Doesn't he know it? Can't he tell? I feel when people hate me, why can't he? His family can suck my a$$ and fall off a cliff for all I care. Maybe not 2 of them. The younger ones. They aren't so bad, but the rest can go straight to h3ll. He steps closer to me and I step back. I need to make sure there is distance between us. "Oh hey" I say, suddenly feeling very uncomfortable. I always feel this way when he is around. I hate the way he looks at me. "So I was thinking" he starts to say when he is cut off. "D-dog, we got your dressing room right here. Go in there and do what you gotta do. You guys are on in 20 minutes," T's friend Noah tells me. I smile and nod. Mr. Miller just stands there. This is your hint sir, f*ck off. "So you are here for the show?" I ask him. "Yeah, a work colleague and his son wanted to come out here. We were at dinner, you know having some drinks, and the son mentioned this show and he said your band was performing and since you never gave me those tickets your promised, I thought I would come out tonight. It's always good to see you. You look great!" he says, and I swear he is undressing me with his eyes. What a creep. I am glad Beau would hardly ever bring me home when we were dating. His dad always gave me the creeps and was overly nice when it was just us alone, but in front of others, he acted like he didn't even know me, which I always thought was weird, but never cared even to figure out why. I just brushed it off as he didn't want to go against his wife and, well, she has always made her hate for me known. "Oh wow, yeah, those tickets. Like I said before, we will be at home offering a free tour. You can come there." I remind him. "Yeah totally, I will come. Well I have to get back to business" he says and acts like he is about to hug me or kiss my cheek, I don't know, but I step back and I feel a warm hand slide around my shoulders. I already know who it is, because I feel comfort every time he is near. My body just knows him. "Tyler Browne" Mr. Miller says. He gives him a look like he is proud of him or something. So weird. Ty completely ignores him and leads me away to my dressing room.

"What was that?" he asks. "I don't know he keeps asking me about tickets to a concert. I am surprised he likes our music. He said he's here on business with some colleagues." I say. He grabs a bottle that is in here, and pops it open and drinks straight out of it. I hate those damn people. I hate it when they are near. I hate that they look down on us. They see us as trash. They think they are above us. I hate that Austyn is a part of them. I f*cking hate it so much." he says and my heart drops. I hate it too, buddy, but it is what it is. I can't change that. He comes over to me and picks me up and sits me down on the table. He is so tall and can easily do these things. I am so short. He brings his face right in front of mine and looks into my eyes. "You are so beautiful. Ready to rock and roll?" he asks. Thankfully, changing the subject. I look down at my hand. I have been having trouble with my hand. "They want you to sing. I will be the drummer tonight." he says. He grabs my hand and touches the raised part with his fingers. I try to pull my hand back, but he brings it up to his lips and kisses it. I hate that my hand got burned and now isn't functioning properly. After a bit of drumming, the pain becomes too much. I have to take physical therapy, but with us moving from city to city, it is hard for me to do it regularly. "What if I am never able to play the drums ever again Ty?" I ask him. "Hey, don't worry your pretty little head about that right now. Everything will be alright." He tells me. I smile and nod. Typical Tyler, always telling me everything will be alright. He is always fixing everything for me. I decide that just for tonight, I will believe him. I will sing, he will drum and everything will be alright. He once again kisses my neck and we head out to do our thing.

Tyler

We performed, and it was a blast. The crowd is completely vibing with us. Dallas has the voice of an angel. I swear this girl is so amazing. Her voice is just out of this world. When people tell her she should go solo and that she would hit and possibly become even bigger, they are not lying to her, but Dallas being Dallas is not interested in that. She loves our group and says it is us til the end. I wish she would have that same mentality when it comes to us becoming an official couple, but we will get there. I am working on her and refuse to give up. We are meant to be. I mean we are already basically a family. Her and Austyn are my girls. I actually am surprising her with new tattoos that I am getting done tomorrow. We normally go get tattoos together. We have many matching ones. So far my favorite ones are the ones we both have on our hands, but these new ones will be my new favorite ones. She has been down lately and I think these will cheer her up. I make sure she is fine with her sister and tell Beckham to keep an eye on her and I make my way to my dressing room to call my mom. When she spoke to our daughter earlier, that sh!t broke my heart.

"Hello" my mother answers. "How is she now?" I ask. "She fell asleep after the conversation" she tells me. "Mom, what can I do to convince you to go on tour with us and help with Austyn? It doesn't even have to be all year. I am sure we can compromise. Mostly while we are on tour. Maybe during the summers or when she is off from school, or when she misses us too much." I ask her. She doesn't say anything. "I know you have the restaurant, but you have a manager. They can take over. I will hire more staff for you mama, please. Dad can come too. I will pay you guys. I will pay your mortgage and bills." I am begging at this point. I would be so happy if they came along with us. I always wanted to give and show my mom and the man who stepped up and raised me the world, but I f*cked up and gave mom Tillys and, well, she is a workaholic and dad is a fire fighter who hates taking off. I have no idea how I will ever convince them. "Okay Ty." she says. "Wait, what?" I shout. "Your dad and I have actually been talking about it. We could use with more vacation time and I miss you and Dallas so much and our granddaughter needs to spend more time with everyone together, so we can work something out. Plus, what's the point of having a rich son if you can't get all of the perks that come with it." she says. "Mom, thank you so so much. I love you. You are the best." I tell her. "Yeah yeah yeah. I know you love me, but you are doing this for Dallas. I know you love her too. Have you talked to her about it? I want more grandkids already. Austyn wants a brother. It is hard to peel Cage away from her every time we see him." she tells me. "I'm working on it mom."I tell her.

Dallas

We take pictures and hashtag them with the simple word #sisters, because even though Stephan is not my blood sister, she is my sister at heart. Adi and I are in a weird place. She isn't speaking to me. She never replied to my messages asking her to call me. But we all grew up together. I will always love them. I had nothing to do with what happened between her and Ty. I never allowed him to tell me about it either. He tried. All I know is that Adi had another boyfriend and I asked to be kept out of it. For the sake of all of us. I was already getting upset with Adeline and that isn't fair. I didn't want to choose sides or hate anyone. Plus, Stephan is in the middle too. They have been my extended sisters forever and Albina is my sister now too. That girl has no family and she was adopted by us. She calls dad dad too now. That is my sister for life. She is stuck with me now.

We share the pictures all over social media. Videos of Stephan and us singing. Virginia also films it, because she is a content creator and she says this type of stuff gets her a bunch of views and gets her paid and she is a college student, so she needs all the money she can get, since she wont take my money. Hard headed a$$. Albina and Virginia sing a duet and Stephan and I are the backup singers/dancers. We have so much fun.

"Don't forget the abandoned haunted hotel we are going to go tour," Virginia tells me and I groan. "I have a whole movie idea, ready for us to film sister. People are going to flip out," she tells me. I roll my eyes and look back at where Tyler is. Of course, with Terrance and a bunch of girls surrounding them. Ugh. "Go over there with him." Virginia says. I shake my head. 'let's dance," I tell her instead. She smirks. She knows exactly what I am up to. Tyler hates it when I dance because it attracts a lot of attention. Bring Virginia into the mix, and oh boy. Beck lives for this sh!t. He loves to show Virginia off. "Beckham sandwich" she yells once he walks over to us and he jumps up and down with his hands in the air while my sister and I dance around him. She grinds all over him. I don't do all of that, but I feel his eyes on me. I glance his way and oh yeah, he is pissed.

Stephan

I am so glad I called Dallas and came out here to spend time with them. I always have so much fun with them. Plus, Dallas always comes through. She gave me $5,000 so I can have money to take care of my son. She always gives and never asks to be paid back. That is who she is. A giver. She takes race of the people she loves. I will forever be thankful to have her in my life. She is the sweetest person I know. That is why it is hard to be close to her when her and my sister's relationship is so rocky, but that is all Adeline's fault. I do feel bad, especially after what my sister did, but I didn't ask her for the money and we grew up together. We are sisters. It isn't my fault Adi did what she did. Why should I miss out on her friendship?

I step out the restroom stall and fix my hair and makeup and go back outside. Terrance is looking mighty yummy and he has been flirting all night. I think I might ride that tonight. F*ck it, go big before I go home. I leave the restroom and is that who I think it is? The person closes the door and looks around. Is Dallas in there? Hmm, I begin walking back to where everyone is. I feel eyes on me and all I can do is hope that person didn't spot me. I have no idea what that person is even doing back here. I begin walking faster, before anyone starts asking questions.

We party all night. I don't miss the glares Dallas gives girls who get close to Tyler. When a girl asks for an autograph or a picture, she tenses up. I can see the steam coming out of the side of her head. Even if she wants to act nonchalant about it, I can see her burning with jealousy. I have no idea why they won't just hook up and make it official already. They clearly love each other. The s3xual tension is off the charts with them. I chuckle as I watch Tyler glare at the security guard who is animatedly telling Dallas a story. They are both so far gone. It's hilarious. "So pretty girl, you want to get out of here and let me rock your world?" Terrance asks me. "H3ll yeah baby" I say.

Dallas

We get home and Stephan goes into Terrance's room with him. My sister and her bf go to their room. "Lets get in the Jacuzzi," Albina says, and I think I will join her. I go to my room and put on a bikini. Ugh, why is my a$$ so big? I swear it swallows my thong up more than it should. Normally women wants bigger butts. Well, I want a smaller one. I swear we always want what we can't have. The opposite of what we were blessed with. Oh well, nothing I can do about it. I grab a towel and head outside.

Tyler is in the Jacuzzi, but there is no sign of Albina. I suddenly feel self-conscious. He looks over at me and he eye f*cks me. I don't feel gross or creeped out like when Mr. Miller did it earlier. Tyler looking at me like this makes me feel hot. Oh my. Is it hot out here? Is it just the way he is looking at me? I can't imagine being inside the water with him, but I can't walk away now. It is like he is pulling me towards him with just a look.

I put my towel down. I fix my top. His eyes watching my every move. I climb the 3 short steps. I put one leg inside and he grabs my hand as I get fully inside. Once both legs are in the water, he grabs my waist and slowly brings me inside. He sits me on top of him. This is so wrong. Not best friend like. "Ty" I say. "Shhh, I have a surprise for you." he tells me. I smile. I love his surprises. "Your surprises are always the best. What is it?" I ask, bouncing up and down. Oh. My eyes widen. He smirks. I clear my throat. "Give it to me." I say. "You want it?" he asks, pushing me down on his thick, hard erection. "This is my surprise?" I ask. He lifts his eyebrows. His perfect lips turn up at the corners. "Nah baby, but you can have it whenever you want, okay." he says, and I feel the blush on my face. "So beautiful" he says. He pulls me closer, but luckily for me, he doesn't push me down anymore. I am afraid I will rip my little bit of clothes off and let him have his way with me. "You don't have to look for a nanny anymore. I found one." he says. "Who?" I ask him. Ty knows I don't trust just anyone with my daughter. I don't think he would come to me about someone if it wasn't someone he trusts too. "Mom says she and dad are going to retire well, kind of. We can all figure out schedules, but they will take care of our princess while we are on stage." he tells me and I am so happy. "Ty, this is the best news ever. Oh my god. Your parents are the best.!" I say, and wrap my arms around his neck. I look at his lips. I want to kiss him, but I don't want him to get the wrong idea. I kiss his cheek instead. He frowns. "Aren't you happy?" I ask him, trying to smooth out the wrinkles in between his eyebrows. All of a sudden, he grabs my face and his lips crash with mine. I can't help it. I lose myself in the kiss. It is like fire, but I hear noise and I pull back and it is now like ice. Like someone threw a bucket of water on my head. This can't happen, Dallas you dumb dumb h0rny girl. I remind myself.

"Thanks for the best weekend we have had in a long time. I really needed this. School, exams and work are stressing me out. At least we have his baseball games to help us relax, but this little time away helped us too, right babe." My sister says. She looks at Beckham with so much love. He kisses her nose and I can't help but smile. Ty, Albi and I watch as they load on the jet and leave. We go back home and Terrance is finally awake. He parties so hard and ends up blacked out. It is actually quite scary. Sometimes I wonder if he will even wake up. He really goes hardcore and I wish he would chill a bit. When he is busy, he doesn't drink, but as soon as we have concerts, well after parties, he drinks alcohol like it is water. I am going to talk to Tyler and Albina about it. Maybe we can set something up to get him help. We then had a nice day and in the evening we ate dinner together and all crashed, trying to regain some energy for our upcoming concerts.

End flashback

How did we go from that perfect weekend, to this? When did things get so ugly? How did it end like this? What the f*ck happened? I wipe the tears from my face. The phone trembling in my hands. I just can't do it. I can't make the call. It will make it too official and I can't believe it. I can't wrap my head around it. I will just speak to her when I get to town. Yes, that is the best thing to do. Right now, I have to get my head on straight. My daughter can't see me this upset. "I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I'm going to get it done. No matter how hard it is." I repeat my favorite quotes. What I have been telling myself since I hopped on that bus and left town to pursue my dreams.