her darkness

Im sitting in the corner of the room my knees are al the way up and i rest my head in between. With my hands i grap my hair while i scream until there is no voice left to scream with. I see the darkness coming my way within the darkness is this beautiful woman standing in a white dress. She calls out my name the coosepumps spread across my body as she comes closer. The closer she comes the better i see, her flesh is rotting and her dress is ripped. She starts to scream and i grap my hair even harder until i pull it out. I begg her to leave me alone i beg and plead but she does not stop. Just before she can grap on to me i wake up. My bed soaked in the dread sweat of this terrible dream, i take a sip of water before i take out my dream diary. I just started this one and im already on the last page. Every night its the same dream the same dream that every woman in my familie had. And every woman in my family did not survive these dreams. I try to write the dream down, I just cant i cant keep doing this i cant keep going on like this. I want to scream i want to throw everything out of my room i want to run, but i cant i cant let these dreams work i just cant. As soon as i try to calm myself down i feel a hand on my shoulder, i jump up and look at the place i was just sitting. Its empty there is no one there. I run towards the light switch and turn it on, i try to check everything in my room untill i notice a weird spot on my bed. It seems like someone is sitting on my bed, but there shouldnt be anyone. He...hello? Is ... Is someone there? No answer just when im about to turn around i hear a voice say, oh my sweet dear the dreams have started didnt they? I feel my heart drop down to my stomach as i turn around, grandma is ... is that you? There on the spot on the bed is the sweetest old woman in the prettiest dress i have ever seen. I run towards her and kneel on the floor before her i burry my face in her lap. Please grandma please take the dreams away please grandma help me! please! she places a hand on my head while explaining that she cannot do that. grandma: my dear sweet girl our family is special always have been, every woman in this family deals with thr same. None of us were strong enough but you my dear you are. You can win thus fight dont give up. Love is waiting for you a love so strong That it will give you the power to keep on going. The darkness its a curse one we had to live with for far to long, you my dear may break it but you cannot do this alone. I will always love you... Just as my grandma tells me al this she slowly started to fade away. I get up still a little shakey and the tears still streaming down my now red cheecks. I get back on my side of the bed and look at the time. s**t im gonna be late for work. I jump up from the bed en run towards the shower, after a hot shower i start to get dressed and make a run towards the door. As soon as her hand touches the door handle a sharp pain shots trough her head. She grabs her head and screams screams for the pain to stop. As she looks op her eyes are white white as snow, She sees a man sitting on the bed asking himself who the woman in his dreams are. She walks towards him and touches his shoulder, as soon as he looks up she returns back to her body. A bit confused and scared she looks around her livingroom realising that she never left te place by the door. she feels her head and there is still a sharp pain, she holds her head while rushing to the bathroom. While looking in the mirror she touched her face to see if anything is different. Nothing seems to be different so she leaves the bathroom and heads towards the kitchen. While grabing some painkillers she starts to think about who the man on the bed was. And why did she see him? How did she see him? It was quit a beautiful man with sea blue eyes and full lips, but she doesnt remember ever meeting him. She shakes her head to get the images out and walks towards the front door. She walks out of the door and looks behind her at her living room while closing the door. She has to forget what just happend, she has her work to do. While walking towards her work all she can think about are those sea blue eyes. Who is this man and how did he get inside her head. Please leave me alone, please let me forget she whispers while stepping into her work.