Married to a rich man

Unexpected Days

Jehan and me we used to speak as usual and we had good quality time togeather at school. We never spoke about the love matter again . But after 2 months I once again asked him if he still has feelings on me. I dont know if what I did was right or wrong. I have been building hopes about both of us and I was scared of being rejected.There is nothing easy about getting rejected. He gave me a big explanation that day and told he loves me . That was the best day if my life. That day we decided not to spoil our names at school and just concentrate on our studies. We wanted to build our education and future and then go futher about our relationship. We never wanted anyone else to know about our relationship other than the close friends at school. 2 months passed, My sister has seen me few times talking with Jehan at school. One day she asked me "I saw you with a guy at school few times. What is going on between you two"? I freaked out and replied "He is my close friend". Sister gave a strange smile I didn't stay there to continue the conversation.

Days passed and in the end of 2013 Jehan finished his advanced level exam and it takes three months to get the Advanced level results. He waited three months for his results to come. The hardest time of my life . He was waiting until he got his results. He visited school once in a while . I missed him so much. I realized that love is a set of emotions that we experience. Its not only happiness its also sad/missing and many more emotions . I never thought that we would not be able to meet like we used to meet daily. Back in 2013 we didnt have smart phones to communicate easily . It was hard to stay without talking to each other. I knew there is no distance that can truly keep us apart. , It is an exhausting feeling that follows everywhere I go. All I wanted was to be connected to that person in any way . I miss people because he was with me once, and now he is not. I am not able to fix this longing feeling. It took me few weeks to get used to the feeling of not talking to him. All I wanted was to concentrate on my studies . Jehan used to come to school like once in 2 weeks . So I natually got used to it. In April Jehan got his Advanced level result he has passed his exam really well. That day I felt extremly happy for him but I knew Jehan has officially finished his school. jehan came to ma and told "I am planning to do higher strudies at a private unviversity. I know its hard for both of us to be away from each other but It will help our future one day" I was queit and I was afriad .Tears rolled out of my eyes. I constantly thought about how much easier this would be if I was leaving too. Long distance is hard, but as long as you follow a plan, it is easier to be away from each other . We had conversations about the future and what we are going to do in future as we felt that it is extremely important to plan . We thought to make time to see each other. While we may not see each other every day. we planned to spend time with one another whenever possible.

First thing I told Jehan was to open up about our relationship to his family. I didnt know if i was too early to request him to do that but for me this was not a puppy love . I wanted everyone around me to know that we were in relationship though we were small . Jehan was not happy with that "Listen zohya , I will never leave you . But I dont feel we are big enough to tell this to our parents. Let me settle first I willl talk to tell him after that"

I held his hand and didn't utter a word. That was the last day I spent with zayan at school. Being apart from Jehan was tough, especially because we two shared a deep bond and did many activities together. Not having him around for a substantial period seemed like t*****e at times .However, instead of letting myself be consumed by sadness, I tried to be positive. I stopped going to school early and I miss him a lot at school .

Jehan's dad gifted a mobile for Jehan but I didn't have a mobile to contact him. My father had a nokia mobile . When ever Dad comes home after school I drop a text to him. we dont spend time chatting with each other we just share two three messages. Now I can't imagine life without mobile phone, I'm not going to lie -- life before cellphones was pretty bad. Especially when it came to dating.I lived the early years of my romantic life smartphone-free. Only rich people used smart phones then. I call Jehan whenver my dad is at home. He comes near school once a month and we meet there. few months passed . I usually dont go home after school with my sister. As I was a prefect I get a bit late yo go home. So my sister goes few minutes earlier to home before I go. One day night when Jehan came near the school to see me. I went to talk with him and I was extremely happy.I came home from school that day feeling super happy .As soon as I walked in, I said hello to my mother and rushed to the bathroom to change. That day at night , my mom walked into my room and told me that she wanted to talk to me about something.This was strange to me.I immediately freaked out, because I knew something was not right. I had absolutely no idea as to what my mum had to ask me. But I wanted to be fully prepared. A worrisome expression plastered across my parent's face. My heart dropped. It couldn’t be what I think it could be about. My mother began talking, and my heart started racing as I could feel tears fill my eyes.

"Who was the that you were talking in the road?" "Is he your boyfriend?"

Me being me I responded with a weak, “Uh, no?”

Then my sister told me " I have seen you with that guy many times and I have heard students talking about you both. And I have seen you talking over the phone outside several times" I was speechless. Father remaind quiet and evidently disappointed. Tears were streaming down my face.