Born to love you.

Chapter 4

Chase POV

Ahhhh! No! Erase. Erase. Not like that! Gosh. So hot! Why do I end up having s*x with Raven in my imagination? You are crazy Chase. I slap my face as I scold myself. That was fast. Whew!

Why did I imagine our first meeting after six years like that? Haist. Shameless me.

I've been waiting for him for an hour now. What took him so long. He said after forty-five minutes he will come but why is he not yet here?

Ah, Raven...you are driving me crazy.

I thought, if I go to Korea I will forget him easily but the more I think of forgetting him, the more I am excited to see him again. I met a lot of good-looking men in Korea and even here in China, but nothing beats Raven. He is the only person who made my heart beat like crazy and abnormally, who makes my life complete every day even though I haven't seen him for six long years.

I prepare myself. I know he will arrive anytime so I must act naturally and not too obvious in front of him. I wonder what Raven looks like now. He must be very handsome. I lost our communication because of my busy schedules but it helps. Maybe fate meant that for me to focus on my studies. My parents are expecting high on me. But anyway, I am here now. I sighed.

I looked around, I forgot to send a photo. He doesn't know that I have long hair now and colored it blonde. I want to see his reaction. I feel a bit nervous yet so excited to see him again.

I was too busy thinking about how I will react in front of Raven when I meet him again, while my head is just staring at the floor blankly, fidgeting my fingers, when I saw a long-legged man stand in front of me.

I slowly lift my head and see who is the owner of those legs.

"Raven...." I mumble when I recognize the man but he is not smiling. His serious face makes me feel nervous and my hand's trembles.

"Chase, why didn't you tell me that you dyed your hair and you have long hair now? It takes me time to look for you." Raven said while taking my luggage from my side and pulling it to his side.

"Ahm...I'm sorry...I forgot.." I just said I feel more nervous. His face is serious and not even glance at me.

"Chase, let's go." He started to walk and I just followed him.

What's with him? Why is he so serious and looks like he is mad or upset? I just sighed. All the anticipation and imagination I was hoping earlier was the opposite of what is happening right now. He changes a lot. Does he like my hair dyed and long or is he disgusted? I pursed my lips.

Did he not miss me? I thought when we meet again, he will miss me, hug me, and even at least smile for me, but what is this? Suddenly, I feel a pang in my chest. Maybe I disturbed him and he was busy earlier. My heart clenched in pain, after all, I am the only one who knows that I love him and my parents. I have no guts to show my real feelings to Raven.

He walks so fast so I walk fast too. When we reached the car park, he put my luggage carefully on the back of the car and closed it. Because I was bewildered by his actions and I don't know if he is happy to see my face or not, I decided to sit in the backseat but the truth is I want next to him, on the passenger seat.

I thought he would react or stop me or would at least protest and let me sit in front but it didn't happen. I saw him jog to the driver's seat and buckle the safety belt and start the engine. I lazily get in and slam my body to the backseat, I buckle up and flatten my back.

I saw him looking at me in the rear mirror. When he thinks I am safe and ready, he starts to drive without looking at me at all. What is this feeling? I am so confused and hurt. He didn't even greet me or at least start a conversation.

Why do I want to cry suddenly, I want to regret asking him to pick me up at the airport. Maybe I just forced him. Oh my god.

This unrequited love is killing me but I can't stop my stupid heart to love him. Why is he treating me like this? It's just fifteen minutes since we met again but it's like I'm dead already.

Does he have a girlfriend already, a family? Is he married now?

Suddenly my heart pounds hard and my breathing becomes heavy. I can't control it anymore, I pretend I am sleepy so I lean my head to the headrest and close my eyes. I want to cry, I want to cry hard.

I gritted my teeth and bit my tongue inside my mouth until I felt the pain to suppress the feeling of crying. I must be strong, I must not show that I'm hurt and suffering from being heartbroken right now. I think I am losing breath and I feel suffocated until I don't know what happened next.

Raven POV

My heart jumped out of my chest when I heard that ringtone after how many years I never heard it. Ahhh, I miss you, Chase...my Chase, finally, at last!

He is still sweet, he surprised me huh. And even said he missed me.

Ahh, he doesn't know how much I miss him. He wants me to see him first instead of his parents so he is requesting me to pick him up at the airport. I bid goodbye, I don't want to be drowned by his sweetness so I cut the call already.

I arrived at the airport five minutes earlier than I estimated. I don't know what he looks like now, so I searched well in the arrival hall. There! I saw his beautiful small face, but wait! He is blonde and has long hair now? I walk slowly closer to his place and hide on a pillar where he can't see me.

I saw his face is so red, I don't know what he is up to and what he is imagining earlier to turn his face like beet red. Chase, you never change, you still love daydreaming and imagining things and stuff huh. I stand behind the pillar for how long just watching him and staring at his beautiful face.

I want to touch and cup that face on my palm and kiss those red plumpy lips. When I feel he is bored already, I smile and chuckle. He is still impatient with his pouty lips when bored. I saw him lower his head, that's when I came out and stood in front of him with a serious face.

I don't want him to see me smiling. He starts to lift his beautiful face with that blonde hair and oh god, my heart pounds hard seeing his face that close.

"Raven.." he mumbled when he recognized me. I want to hug him. I internally panicked when his eyes are looking straight to mine and I can't handle it. My heart will betray me if I show my smile. I made my face look more serious.

"Chase, why didn't you tell me that you dyed your hair and you have long hair now? It takes me time to look for you." I asked without showing any care and took his luggage from his side and pulled it.

"Ahm...I'm sorry...I forgot.," he explained and his deep voice is like music to my ears. He is sorry and shy while clipping his hair on his ear. I sensed he was nervous because of my authoritative question.

"Chase, let's go." I start to walk, pulling his luggage and not to destruct from his cuteness and I know he just followed me.

I am walking fast and I know he adjusted his pace because my legs are long, he is chasing me. I am smiling secretly and I don't want him to see my face so I walk ahead to the car park. I opened the back of the car and placed his luggage very carefully.

I am excited to talk to him when he sits beside me in the passenger seat while I am driving but I was deadpanned when he opened the backseat door and slammed his body and buckled himself.

I started the engine and I checked him in the mirror, he was safe and ready, I drove carefully. He didn't notice that I am glancing at him from time to time, I don't want to get caught.

I don't know what's going on but his face is so red and gloomy. He leaned his head on the backrest and closed his eyes. I saw tears dripping on his cheeks.

We were almost at the mansion gate, I saw him breathing heavily on his chest. I parked the car in the garage quickly and got out of the car and quickly opened the door where he seat. Before he fell on his head, I caught him and he fainted.

I carried him in a bridal style and the butler opened the door for us. I asked him to call the family doctor. I brought him up to our shared room and laid him carefully. Maybe he is just tired. I removed his shoes and socks. I removed my leather jacket and hung it. I prepare a small basin with warm water and a face towel.

I remove all his clothes including his underwear. I start to clean his face and his body. Ahh, my Chase is such a baby even though he is twenty-one years old already.

I stare at his face carefully, he becomes more beautiful. He looks sexy and seductive. I quickly grab the duvet and cover him. I run to the closet and take out his favorite pink pajama set and underwear.

After I finished, I leaned closer to his face and kissed him on his forehead and his lips. I know he is suppressing something in his heart that made him faint. I have known him since he was a baby until he reached fifteen. Chase doesn't speak much and keeps what he can't express to himself until he can't handle it, especially when it's too much for him to bear.

After five minutes, the doctor arrived and told me to let him rest more. He will be waking up after two to three hours and prescribed some medicine. The doctor said he was just really tired and thinking too much made it hard to breathe.

The doctor has been their family doctor since they were young so he knows both of us, every member of the family's condition. Chase must avoid thinking too much of unbearable or uncontrollable things. The solution is to express it openly and freely to avoid stress and suffocation.

The doctor bid farewell and I asked the butler to let the driver buy the medicine the doctor prescribed.

I got back to our room and I saw him sleeping peacefully. I sit on the couch inside our room and lean my head to the armrest and I fall asleep. I don't know how long I slept, but I was awakened by a pair of lips brushing into mine. I was shocked but I didn't open my eyes and pretend I was still asleep.

The lips are so warm and wet and I can hear the sound of the sloppy kiss. The warm breath and the scent of the familiar smell I love to sniff. I know Chase is kissing me. When he is satisfied, he kisses me on my forehead and I tilt my head pretending I just stir and still sleep.

I hear him run quickly and jump to the bed. After a few minutes, I opened my eyes and smiled. I walk towards our bed and look at the beautiful man who just kissed me earlier and pretending like a heavy log sleeper.