Torn between the Devil and Angel.

Studies have shown that the first guy that catches your eyes in a room is your exact type and its probably the one you should stay away from. I have always had a soft spot for guys like that, perchance, things were going to be so much better this time around, I was looking for an escape and landed myself in a bigger trouble. An escape from college, the assignments, the test, the lectures and going away from home all together. I don't necessarily have overly protective parents but absolutely nobody, prepared me from what I was experiencing right now. I don't stay so far from college but I couldn't just go and vent everyday at home, I had to wear my big girl pants and handle my own s**t. Having tried basically every coping skills possible, ranging from daily affirmation, my favorite one at all time is "everything is okay", "you are fine they can't hurt you now, To dancing in the bathroom, to chewing mint gum all of the time, to having extreme mood swings, to taking excessive long hours of naps, to doing chores at odd hours. Everything wasn't just working and I was about to loose it basically, I decided to let out some steam, so I contacted my home girl. This girl had always supported me in all of my craziness, and that's a whole lot of support because I was one very crazy person. Paige has always been at my corner since day one, we have had our issues, a whole lot of them, if I must add, but somehow they made us even stronger. She always had weird proposals that were surprisingly a solution to whole lot of problems, even very the most sturdy ones. She picked up her phone and I kinda briefed her on the situation on ground, she promised to come through for me, definitely I knew I wouldn't cheap. Against my better judgement, I had to first promise, I will be down for whatever crazy idea she had in her head, I honestly wouldn't have agreed if I wasn't that desperate. But, I knew I could trust fully, I knew she wouldn't intentionally put me in the harm way, but sometimes we don't usually plan this things, do we? I tried shutting up my over thinking brain, I didn't have a lot of time to do that though,as there was a huge distraction. There was a loud knock on my door and that probably snapped me out of whatever I was thinking. Before I could get up from my bed, Paige was barging into my toom, she strolled into my room at the dormitory which I shared with 5 other girls in her usual aesthetic, It took her awhile to register that I had roommates and when she said she just said a very passive hello. I knew I had other things to worry about but I couldn't stop thinking about Paige aesthetic, which I don't honestly have a big issue with. I believe one should have different aesthetics, like switch it up every now and then but its just Paige being Paige. Paige has a beautiful body and she should really really flaunt it by wearing other aesthetics, I mean, this girl probably doesn't know what she has, she is 6'2 and fair skinned with almond eyes, looks about 5 years younger and wears glass, Girls that wear glasses are very cute, she also has this really cute birthmark on the side of her face. This girl looks way too beautiful to go around in a lounge wear and backpack all week long, she sat on my bed as I gave her a look over before she sat down. She wore an ash lounge wear with a matching Crocs with a black backpack, I had my hopes high again, that she was going to wear something else but that was quickly dashed. Grinning from ear to ear, she sat down, now I was really gettingangry, was my predicament that funny to her?, I just ranted my whole ordeal to this girl over the phone ,it should count for something, shouldn't it?. I was about to flair up and start blaming myself but she told me to calm down, and went on to say how my temper wasn't good for my health, "I have an idea", she said, before I could even think of a come back, Paige with all of her weird ideas again, I thought "we should go and scout for boys", she said, I laughed so hard and I was literally choking on my saliva. I looked up and saw no iota of humor in her eyes, it was then I knew she was dead serious, the smile immediately wiped off my face, I honestly wish I could back down from all of this now. Paige, sensing my hesitation, reminded me, that I had promised to comply with all of her demands It actually didn't sound absurd like I thought it will be, if I am being honest this is one of the mildest things that she has made me do, I guess I could survive this. She waited for me to get dressed, I wasn't really feeling up to it, so I just wore a lilac shirt, that had "travel more" inscribed at the back of it, wishing I actually obeyed that rule, I think loved the thrill of traveling, but somehow road trips makes me very nauseous and hyperventilate, its just all too ironic, liking something but your body is in a war against that exact same thing. I paired my shirt with a blue jeans, got from a thrift store recently, it was a Skye blue mom jeans that wasn't really big nor long. I had black box braids, black has always been my go to colour for my hair, I guess I'm not so adventurous when it comes to hair color, I often wonder how girls wear hair colors such as almond milk, burgundy, teal green, lavender and pink, don't get me wrong, some I had admired in the past, just not enough to put on my hair though and most, I cringed over. It was no surprise, I was a sucker for fashion and I tend to observant of my environment, perchance being a fashion police was a profession I should consider, I could have the power to arrest people that commits fashion blunder and save the world. But on a second thought, I will probably have no cell to keep them cause it will certainly exceed its capacity, with the many atrocities I see everyday on this campus. I decided to step up my outfit a little bit and wear a blue bucket hat, I wore cream slippers and picked up my favorite pouch, which was cream in colour. I crosschecked the content of my pouch, it consisted of all of my essentials. An Arab oil perfume, I just got yesterday, which had a very nice fragrance, mint chewing gum, lip gloss, face mask, my power bank, my charger and a little cash to buy soda later on, speaking of soda I haven't had one in the last two days, which is a lot of time, considering the fact that I might be addicted. I was all set for the mission at hand ,I wasn't positive on finding any guy ,I just saw it as a huge distraction and to need to dive into it was consuming. It was just few months after the pandemic and the security had really took wearing of face mask quite seriously, I didn't the need to have a clash with the security that guards my dormitory today. I have a whole lot on my plate and honestly adding prattling wasn't on my to-do list, if for anything, it will completely break me and I honestly couldn't afford that luxury right now. Sanity was just way too expensive to be handled with such frivolity, which was quite surprising, that most people were oblivious to this fact. We were finally set to go, but not after Paige nagged me all the way down the stairs, about how I couldn't keep time. It didn't bother me one bit cause all my friends has same complaint, I wonder when they will get the hint though, "that's just how I am", I can't possibly change now, but honestly whatever makes them sleep well at night and if continuous nagging does the trick, they should probably do it some more, let's just say I care a lot about my friend's health. Finally, we were out of the dorm's gate, Paige had managed to shut up in the long run, after I do what I always do during every nagging section. Allow them rant for awhile, put on my puppy face, apologize and I simply promise I was going to be punctual next time, Unfortunately "next time",never really comes. Paige tapped me lightly to see a guy, he was around 5'5, light skinned, brown coloured hair, had really short legs and was really lanky. His dress sense was extremely wack, he wore a pair of worn out shoes and was overly looking tattered. I turned over to Paige and just shook my head, as I way too dumfounded to speak.I know I have been single for over a year now and I probably shouldn't have a choice but not this guy, like he is all shades of wrong. He isn't all that bad honestly. But nah, I didn't stay single for all those months to settle for this. The glare I gave her was enough to pass the message, she caught on quickly, I guess that's what many years of friendship gets you. We linked hands and walked, our destination unknown to both of us, out of the blues, she suggested going to the court. "What court, Paige?", I asked, "The basketball court", she replied, pulling me forward, I was actually game, which actually surprised her cause I would normally turn down such suggestions immediately. The court was full to its capacity, all the seats were occupied and most people were in pairs, cheering loudly. I am not one to feel intimidated by crowd, but I certainly was self-conscious right now. We found an empty seat, that was vacated just a while ago, we quickly took hold of this opportunity and rested our tired legs. Paige kept poking my side to gain my attention, I looked up at her, yet again, Paige tried to play the matchmaker, as she pointed out one of the ballers He was wearing a black jersey, he was tall, he had a really cute afro and his lips were shaped really beautifully. He had a dumb resting face when I looked really closely, I will honestly like to consider myself a very observant person. I notice even the slightest things about people and this one didn't pass my eyes, so it was certainly a No!. I told Paige, she sighed and officially gave up on my case, she said it was a bad idea all together and was mumbling about how I might possibly die single, cause of how very choosy I was. Just at that moment, I caught a glimpse of him, I gave him a look over and my heart literally skipped a beat. I used to think people were bluffing, when they described love at first, some even said they had butterflies in my belly, while some said their heart skipped a beat and their minds went totally blank. But, I knew what I was thinking ,my thought pattern were in the lines of, "how could someone be so fine"and "how can it not be illegal to look this sexy ". And when he looked in my direction, I know this was trouble lurking at my door, I trailed his body from head to toe, slowly and shamelessly, savoring every moment and liking what I saw. He was maybe the tallest guy, I have ever seen, his skin was so toned and at that moment, I wondered how it will feel under my fingers. His brows were bushy but certainly not in a bad way ,I thought them really cute, his hazel eyes with that face I will love to gaze upon all day. When he smiled, how his dentition screamed perfection, god!, this man is beautiful. His curly hair, that I wanted to grasp with my fingers and play with, while his head was on my laps, a perfect shade of brown, that want well with his diamond shaped face. His arms so long, that I wished above everything, were wrapped around me and held me forever and never let go. It was in that moment, I knew that I was completely and totally mesmerized by this stranger.