Moving forward

Annabelle pov The first half of my football game had started and I kept looking up in the stands for my parents like always waiting to see their smiling faces, the pride they show makes me feel like I am doing something good, however every second i look up i feel a bad feeling in my stomach. They told me they were running late but didn't tell me how late they were going to be as they never miss me playing. When I checked my phone before the game started, I was hoping for a text from them but i haven't, it's an away game and they try to get to every game, but honesty i think they are afraid they might miss something special if they don't see me in action each week but its always the same, i score and we win. Over the years, I have told them they don't have to come to every game but they insisted and now I expect them to be here cheering me on along with all our fans screaming our names at the top of their voices. It's a magic atmosphere here on game days and we love it. The game has already started and my parents aren't hear yet, I'm getting nervous waiting for them. Standing at the halfway line close to the coach hoping, praying she knows something, but she doesn't as she looks at me like 'what are you doing, get your head in the game'. As I'm waiting for the goalkeeper to kick the ball i spot two police officers walking over where the coaches are stood shouting, but the attention on the game is short-lived as now they have everyone's attention. We don't normally have police officers here so everyone is confused, i look at them and they both taken their hats off talking to our team coach, but i cant make out what they saying but when I'm about to look back at the goalkeeper they look at me and i see pity in their eyes, its like my soul has come out my body and my heart ripped out the way they look at me. I know its a stupid idea but i walk over to them as the curiously have gotten to me "Annabelle Wilson I'm sorry but your parents were killed by a drunk driver early today" hearing those words come out of the police mouth i fall to my knees not believing what had happened, i only just spoke to them before the game kicked off. They couldn't be killed, no they are lying, i look at there faces and deep down i know they aren't lying, why would they lie about something like that. Sitting on my knees as tears escape my eyes i don't know what to believe. How can they be dead? Better yet why did they have to die from a drunk drinker, my face was an excellent driver so i don't believe it, i just want my parents. Tears are flooding my face as i feel an arm land on my shoulder wrapping herself around me but I don't want to see who it is, i want my parents. A couple of seconds later and someone has dropped in front of me i don't even have to guess who it is, coach. She's trying to get me to talk but i cant, tears are flooding my eyes as i think about my parents, i don't know how long i was on the floor for but as i look up i notice the whole game has stopped and everyone has dropped to a knee, I appreciate the support but i cant do this anymore, as I'm running off the pitch i take a look at the crowd by accident and everyone to there feet with there hats off. A song comes on telling me I'm never alone but why does it feel like I'm alone. Reaching the changing rooms i throw myself on the floor pulling my knees to my chest as the tears flood down my cheeks and land on my arms, the shock of my parents not being here any longer hasn't settled with me as i think about them, i need my mother right now to hold me and not let me go, i need my dad here to whisper that 'Thats everything going to be ok' but is it? Nothing is ok right now, i have just lost everything in a single seconds. The police officers words ego in my mind as i repeat each word over and over again thinking i must of missed something but i didn't. They are gone, taken from me in seconds. As i sit in the dark i hear the banging on the door but I made sure to lock it as i wanted to be left alone but clearly they didn't get the memo, placing my hands over my ears i try to block out the noises but it doesn't work like i need it too work. "Annabelle open the god damn door I'm begging you. We heard what happened and we are all here, let someone in please" I manage to hear over the banging, I know Danielle won't leave me alone, She's also the one who's banging on the door begging for me to open it but how do you tell someone you just want to be alone without sounding or coming off rude. As i sit there the banging comes to a halt, i don't understand how can my life come crashing down within only a couple of minutes, finally climbing to my feet i throw everything in my bag not caring about getting changed needing to be somewhere else, anywhere that not here. As I open the door Danielle comes running though like shes on a mission and i know shes just looking out for me and i appreciate it but i need time, i need my parents, i just need to be somewhere else. Danielle locks the door as she comes in, she knew how much my parents meant to me, Danielle takes one look at me but instead of words she pull me into one long hug which i didn't know i needed right now until now "Annabelle please don't run, talk to me. I know losing a parent is hard but losing both I cant imagine what your going though, I'm always going to be there to talk or just the company" i listen to Danielle as she goes off telling me I'm not alone however i understand where shes coming from as i know my football team will be by my side but i need time to grief without having everyone tell me its going to be, they don't understand any of it, i don't even understand yet "Thank you" i whisper before running out the door and escaping to closest bus station without looking back, i know if i look back I'll see everyone face and i don't want to see the pity in there eyes. I'm glad Danielle let me go and I'll come back when I'm ready to move on, but right now I don't have it in me. Running to the bus stop i have managed to get a seat on the bus home however when i managed to walk though my front door I'm expecting to see my parents what i not expecting is too find my uncle Liam and his wife jasmine sat in the kitchen i reckon waiting for me but it take uncle Liam under five seconds to spot me and pull me into a long embracing hug. He doesn't say anything and I'm over the moon as right now i just need the remaining family to be by my side though this all. I understand uncle Liam lost his brother, my father Adam and his sister in law, my mother Lucy but they was my parents. Standing still wrapped in my uncle arms i don't want to let go, i don't even want to be in my parents house without them "Pack a bag or a suitcase sweetheart and you can stay with us till you decide what you want to do" i hear my auntie jasmine say kissing my forehead, they both live in the next town over which I'm half thankful for as i don't have to see the pity looks in everyone eyes when they see me, it hasn't even been one day since they passed and i still believing that they will walk though the door any minute now. Heading upstairs i throw a couple of outfits and electronics in a bag with two photographs of my parents and me. Finishing up i throw a oversize jumper and a pair of jean shorts on before heading downstairs, i don't want to talk to anyone right now, instead i place my headphones in and throw myself in the back seat on my uncle car ready for the road trip to the next town over. I already have a bedroom in my uncle house where i can be alone. As uncle turns onto the motorway with the news one i pull my earphone out when my uncle looks at me though the mirror "Earlier today we heard shocking news that businesses owner and race car driver Adam and his professional football player wife Lucy was killed on there way to their daughter football game. Our heart goes out to her and her family during the terrible time. There's been a requested song to her from her friends" listening to the song tears escape my eyes once again as i know exactly who this came from Danielle. Once the song has finished i place my earphones in once again and block the world one, i cant do this. Why me? Why my parents i ask the world.