AGAROS Lovession ( english version )

Yes, I want to love and be loved despite my condition. I would like, even if only for one day, to vibrate with passion, love, pleasure like the heroines in my books. These compositions, which provoke in me a whirlwind of emotions. These pamphlets which give birth to an unspeakable pleasure between my feet. Those scenes, these moments, these few pages, which make me feel as alive as the people who share this vast house with me. Maybe I still have to pray as Lauriane tells me ? To this God who laughs does not seem impossible, they say, I made my request to him. Except it wasn't to save my life. Because you have to know how to recognize when it's the end. However, in addressing Heaven, I asked for one thing that I desire more than love. It is to be loved in return. However, what young man can fall in love with a girl like me ? Sick ... And in the arms of death. I know I have to be strong. My conscience repeats it to me. I must be optimistic, dad sing it to me. By dint of listening to them, I already know that my pain will soon get the better of me. Nevertheless, I do not let myself be overwhelmed by this fatality, I try to accept it and move on. Finally, is this death an end in itself ? She no longer scares me, on the contrary, she will free me. No more fire in my body, embers in my head, goodbye monotony, goodbye red curtains in my room, I will not miss the garden, I have never enjoyed its pleasures. Illness obliges, my only companion is my bed. Today, the sky shines an opalescent blue, the clouds dance with the capricious wind, behind the glass life is scattered. A life filled with joy, happiness, dynamism. All the same, before I die, I wish I could fulfill my dreams and be as happy as this life, because the diagnosis fell. I will die the week of December 31st. Richet, 2019. The towns and districts of this romantic universe are totally fictitious. Thus, Richet, is the name of a district.