Finally Finding My Luna

Chapter 14 pt. 2

{Enslee POV}

“Alright ladies, let’s get you all inside and clothed. He opened the doors to the packhouse and let all of us walk inside. Carina headed for her room, while Zader, Renley and I hopped on the large elevator. Luckily, it was built in case wolves ever needed to use it. 

Renley got off on her floor, and Zader and I were left alone. He was looking at my wolf with pride in his eyes. 

“Carina only had one wound on her leg, Renley’s wolf didn’t have a single scratch, and it seems that Analia escaped with only a sprained ankle if I had to guess. But you...my little brave warrior...you look like you took the brunt of it. Did you kill one of them?”

Harley tilted her head. It wasn’t a yes, because we killed both of them. “You killed both of them?” His eyes went wide with shock at the realization. Harley blinked once and let her tongue loll out of the side of her mouth. 

We stepped off of the elevator and Zader opened the door to our floor. We walked into the living room, and he dropped to his knees in front of Harley. “Well, warrior wolf, I have to say that I am thoroughly impressed. I know we kind of met last night, but I wanted to formally say hello. My name is Zader, and I am Enslee’s mate. Thank you for helping her protect the others.”

Harley bowed her head and looked back at Zader. 

Damn girl. Your mate is hot. I bet his wolf is even hotter.

Well, you should know. You tried to kill him last night. 

Well s**t, that was a low blow. I didn’t know who he was. You know I couldn’t help that. We were not thinking straight. I didn’t know what was going on. I thought we were being attacked.

We were, just not in real life. That dream was like it was happening all over again. Except Zader didn’t save us that time. 

He did, just in wolf form.

I smiled at that thought. Zader saved me once in real life, and he saved me from a nightmare and an unconscious bout of rage. I looked at my mate with a newfound appreciation. I had obviously realized that he’d saved me physically, but I was beginning to realize that he was saving me mentally, emotionally and spiritually as well. 

I had recovered from beatings, verbal abuse, and emotional trauma. But s****l assault is totally different. I don’t know where I would be without Zader right now. He truly loved me, and I was beginning to feel the same way. Slowly but surely.

“Alright Harley, can I have my mate back so I can figure out what exactly happened?” Harley licked Zader’s cheek sloppily and trotted off to the master bedroom. I laughed mentally as I heard him sputtering behind us. 

We kicked the door closed behind us and shifted back to human form. I stood up and stretched my limbs. I hadn’t stayed in wolf form that long before. I normally only had a couple of hours to let Harley run in the woods close to my old packhouse. 

I walked over to the closet and dug through the shopping bags. A few omegas had carried them up while we were sorting the mess out in the driveway. I found the bag from Victoria’s Secret that Analia all but forced me to purchase. She said those items would come in handy one day. 

I had managed to buy some more of the modest pajama sets they sold without her knowing, and those were the ones I decided to wear tonight. I pulled on the baby blue tank top and matching flannel pants. I walked back down the hallway and found Zader also just entering the living room with two mugs in his hand. 

“Hot cocoa to ease the nerves. You have cuts that need tending to, and that big gash on your arm needs to be cleaned so it doesn’t heal and get infected.”

He handed me one of the cups and sat the other on an end table. He led me to the kitchen and ran some warm water over a washcloth. I sipped on my cocoa while he rummaged through the cabinets and brought out a medical kit. 

“Alright, I am going to wash off the blood, and then I am going to cleanse it with an alcohol wipe. It’s going to burn, but it needs to be done.” 

I looked at him suspiciously over my mug, but I didn’t say anything. He walked back to the sink and picked up the washcloth. He took my arm and gently rubbed away the blood and dirt. It felt soothing, and he had a soft touch. 

Zader took out an alcohol pad and opened the package. He looked at me for reassurance, and I nodded with a soft smile. “So, do you want to talk about what happened?”

I knew he was trying to distract me from the impending pain, but it wouldn’t be that bad. “Sure, I can. Well we were leaving the last store headed to the car. Davian went on ahead since he had two armfuls of shopping bags. We were walking very slowly because we got distracted talking and laughing.”

I gasped from a stinging sensation in my arm and Zader stifled a chuckle. I slapped him lightly on the shoulder with my free hand. 

“My wolf just started screaming at me to change. She’d never done that before. I was so startled at her yelling, that I just went with my instinct. We shifted just as a strange man appeared on the street and charged at us. He jumped on Analia knocking her to the ground and we fought him off.”

Zader began to get out some gauze, bandages and medical tape. He dabbed my arm and pressed the gauze to my wound. He wrapped the bandages around my arm and taped me up. 

“He bit and clawed me, but I finally got a kill shot. That’s when two more wolves appeared and the sisters tried to fight them off. Carina got hers on the ground, he’s the one that is in the dungeon right now. Renley got knocked off her feet and I killed that rogue.”

He was done bandaging me up and looked at me with a strange expression. “What?”

He smiled to himself and shook his head. “Baby, I am so proud of you. You protected your pack members and yourself. Not to mention you protected a future beta.”

“I don’t know how. I just followed my instinct and acted.”

“That’s because you were born to be a Luna baby. Protecting your pack members is instinct to you. I am so proud of you.”

Hearing Zader’s words touched me and lifted my heart, but it also made me think back to a few nights ago. I started tearing up. He wrapped me in a hug and kissed the top of my head. “Baby, what’s wrong? Don’t worry, no one can hurt you now. You’re safe sweetheart.”

“I’m not scared. I know I am safe in your arms. It’s just that if I had fought harder that night, like I did tonight, then maybe he wouldn’t have...he couldn't have…” I lost my words as the sobbing took over my body. I was wracked with the despair knowing that I could have fought harder and protected myself better. 

The flashback started so clear and crisp in my mind. 

CONTENT WARNING! Please skip to the next section if you are triggered by sensitive themes. 

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He slapped my face and ripped my dress down the front. My body was exposed, and he laughed at me with evil in his voice. “Ahhhh such a nice body for such a stupid b***h. Let’s see if you’re a nice f**k too.” 

He ripped my underwear and bra off and smiled at his accomplishment. I gagged and pushed him off of me. He punched my face, and I fell to the ground with the force. He started to unzip his pants, while I scrambled for the door. 

He grabbed my ankles and drug me backwards to the center of the room. He was fondling my body with his hands and flipped me over onto my back. 

“Get off of me you filthy animal! Don’t touch me!” I screamed trying to grab his arms to throw him off of me. He punched me in the face over and over in anger. I could feel the blood dripping down my face and into my hair. I was out of it, and I couldn’t see from my eyes swelling shut. 

I could hear him laughing as I lay lifeless underneath him. I wasn’t sure if tears were actually falling, but I started to cry. I moaned in pain as he grabbed my body with force and spread my legs. I clenched my jaw the best I could and tried not to show fear. Just as the Gamma got ready to fully violate me, the door swung open again. 

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The next thing I knew, I was sitting on Zader’s lap in the living room where he was clutching me to his chest. It seemed like all of my senses had shut down, and my hearing was only slightly returning.

“Shhhh, it’s okay baby. I am here Enslee. It’s not your fault. Come back to me baby...come back to me so you can know how brave you are and how strong you are. You’re my little warrior wolf.”

I looked up at him, and realized suddenly that he was shirtless. “Where did your shirt go?”

He looked down and saw that I was with him again and laughed with tears coming down his cheeks. “Well sweetheart you tore it off of me. You started shifting, and I just held onto you and kept on talking to you until you eventually stayed in your human form. I whispered more until you came out of the trance.”

I wiped the tears from his face and noticed that he had scratches all over his torso and arms. “Yeah, you kinda attacked me again when you started shifting into Harley. I got you calmed back down before she fully came out, but your claws were out...literally.”

Horror came across my face as I realized that the scratches were from me and I had hurt my mate...again. “I am so sorry. I swear I didn’t know what was happening. I was reliving the...the uh and I didn’t know you were holding me.”

He stroked my hair and kissed my forehead tenderly. “Baby, it doesn’t hurt. It won’t take long to heal anyhow. It wasn’t your fault, you can’t blame yourself for being triggered. You also can’t blame yourself for what happened that night. You have nothing to be ashamed of. You fought as hard as you could that night, if you had fought harder he might have killed you.”

I looked up at him shocked. “I didn’t even think of that.”

“Enslee, that’s because you were going with your instinct. You are extremely intelligent, more so than you give yourself credit for. You have alpha blood in you, and that makes you stronger than the average wolf.”

He patted my back and lifted me off of him. He carried me bridal style back to the master bedroom and laid me on the bed. He grabbed a throw blanket off of the couch and draped it over me. I snuggled gently underneath it and scooted over a bit so he could sit next to me. 

I looked around the room and noticed that everything had been redone. The floor was fixed, the walls had been replastered and painted and the curtains had been replaced. I could just barely smell the fresh paint. “The room is fixed?”

Zader chuckled lightly and patted my leg. “Yes baby, I told you I would have it fixed while you were gone. It’s just like new.”

I smiled lightly and gave him a kick kiss on the cheek. He shook his head and looked at me with surprise. “What was that for?”

I laughed and crinkled my nose. “It was to say thank you for fixing the room so I didn’t have to be reminded about what I did last night.”

“You have never kissed me first...I kinda like it.”

There was a sparkle in his eye as he looked at me, and I could tell it meant something to him. I grabbed his face with both hands and kissed him squarely on the lips. He gave me another smirk and kissed me harder and deeper than before. 

I let him consume me and take control of the kiss. His tongue dipped past my lips and roamed my mouth. He grasped my hair and the kiss deepened once more. I moaned into Zader’s mouth and he broke the kiss finally. 

“We better stop, baby. I don’t want to make you uncomfortable.”

I let out a breath that I didn’t know I was holding. “What do you mean?”

“Well sweetheart, I think if we keep going, I might get too excited to stop.” He motioned downwards, and my eyes fell on the huge bulge in his sweatpants. I looked back up at him with wide eyes and gasped slightly. “You must be huge…”

He laughed deeply at this statement until tears started falling. “Well, I don’t want to boast, but yes I am a pretty good size.”

My mouth hung open and I just sat there gaping at him. “How big?”

He laughed again and eyed me suspiciously. “8 inches.”

I choked on my spit and nearly fell into the floor. Zader caught me and tilted me back up straight in the bed. “Holy s**t you are big.” 

Zader kissed my hand and gave me a smirk. “Baby, you have had quite the day. Should you get some sleep?”

I thought about it and realized that my body was aching and I was emotionally drained. “Yeah, we should.” 

Zader nodded and headed to the closet to change. By the time he came back out I was already under the covers. He walked over to the bed and leaned down to kiss me goodnight. I turned my head and met him halfway to kiss him on the lips. 

“You’re getting good at that.”

I smiled and tossed my hair behind my shoulder. “Well Z, I like kissing you on the lips, it doesn’t get old for me. So I thought I would just get some practice.”

He laughed and told me goodnight. He shut off all the lights and lit the fireplace. He took his place on the couch, and it wasn’t long before her heartbeat slowed and I knew she was asleep.