Cursed

Chapter twenty two

A/N; Songs for this chapter are;

•Paramore - Brick By Boring Brick

•Tonight Alive - Safe & Sound

•Anarbor - Rock To My Roll

Courtney's pov;

I chose to walk to school by myself, because I need to think about what was said last night.

Dylan told me he loved me.

I remember it clearly, as that moment keeps replaying in my head.

"I love you."

He loves me...

Do I love him?

I think I do.

I need to make that clear to him today, because I didn't say it back last night, because I was taken aback by it.

I need to make sure he knows I love him.

**a few hours later**

It was last lesson, and we were all preparing for the music show.

"I'm so worry I'm going to f**k up though!" I exclaim to Ellie and Dylan.

It was the day we had to perform our own written songs to our whole year.

Luckily Miss Honey managed to get a backup band who everyone has been rehearsing with either during school or outside of school.

I was so nervous for performing my song because I was scared I was going to f**k up big time.

"You won't f**k up! You're so good at singing!" Ellie told me which made me smile.

"Yeah, you're gonna smash it baby." Dylan says hugging me from behind.

"Places everyone." I heard Miss Honey say, and I immediately felt sick.

I mean, don't get me wrong, I love performing in front of people, but I think this is the biggest crowd I've ever sung in front of before, plus I'm performing my own song, which adds to the nerves.

"Jenna, you're up first." Miss Honey says to one of my peers.

"Good luck Jenna." Jenna's friends say to her.

"My performances gonna be mental." Ellie whispers to me, and I smile.

I can't wait to see Ellie's because she's got so much energy, it will be interesting to see how she gets on.

A few minutes later, Jenna came off with loads of cheers.

She was really good, so she deserved all the applauds.

"Ryan, you're next." Miss Honey tells Ryan, and his friends all pat him on the back.

Ryan raps, so it's no surprise as to what he'll be doing.

"I can't wait to hear your song." Dylan whispers to me, and I blush thinking of what my songs about.

"I can't wait to hear yours." I whisper back and he smiles.

Ryan comes back, and all his mates jump on him, and do that 'boy stuff' boys usually do.

"Ellie, it's your turn." Miss Honey smiled at Ellie.

"Good luck Elz! Go smash it!" I hug her and she grins.

"Yeah good luck lil red." Dylan smirks at her and she pokes her tongue out at him.

Ellie doesn't say anything when she gets on stage, she starts straight away.

She lives in a fairytale,

Somewhere too far for us to find,

Forgotten the taste and smell,

Of the world that she left behind,

It's all about the exposure, the lens I told her,

The angles were all wrong now,

She's ripping wings off of butterflies,

Keep your feet on the ground,

When your heads in the clouds,

When the chorus kicks in, she's jumping all over the stage. She has so much energy it's scary.

Well go get your shovel,

And we'll dig a deep hole,

To bury the castle,

Bury the castle,

When she's finished, she gets a lot of cheers, and she walks out grinning.

"That was f*****g awesome!" She says to me and I hug her.

"You were f*****g awesome!" I say to her and she grins.

"Meh you were alright." Dylan smirks, and she playfully punches him.

"Courtney, you're up next." Miss Honey says to me and my stomach drops.

"You'll be fine baby. Go out there and sing your ass off." Dylan reassures me.

I hug him and Ellie, and walk out onto the stage.

Jesus Christ.

There are a lot of people.

Well here goes nothing.

I can't see through the stars in my eyes,

And I don't, recall breathing steady, ever since you've been in my life,

So, let me catch my breath, before you steal it once again,

I should be dead by now.

I swear it, I swear on my heart you know I wear it on my sleeve,

For everyone to see that I am yours and you belong to me,

I glance over to my left, where I can just about see Dylan backstage. He had a huge grin on his face.

And nothing in this world could ever make me this happy,

So, don't fall asleep,

I'm yours to keep,

And from here on in,

I'm giving it everything,

Cause, nothing compares, to what we share,

I don't have a care in the world,

And even if it all came crashing down,

As long as you're around,

I'll be safe and sound,

And I'm dying to know what it is that you're thinking,

And I'm desperate to know why it is that I'm sinking,

So deep beneath my sheets,

And I'm struggling to find sleep,

Cause I've been retracing the steps that we took,

Remembering the way that you held me as I stood in the rain,

And I knew I would wherever never be the same,

So, don't fall asleep,

I'm yours to keep,

And from here on in,

I'm giving it everything,

Cause, nothing compares, to what we share,

I don't have a care in the world,

And even if it all came crashing down,

As long as you're around,

I'll be safe, yeah safe and sound,

Safe and sound,

You've turned my life around,

So far off the ground,

Pick me up I'm falling down,

At this point, I turned my head to the left, so I was looking directly at Dylan. I wanted to sing this part to him, so he knew.

And it's all because of you,

And I don't know what to do,

I think I'm falling in, I think I'm falling in love with you,

Cause, nothing compares, to what we share,

I don't have a care in the world,

And even if it all came crashing down,

As long as you're around,

I'll be safe and sound,

Yeah I'll be,

Yeah, yeah I'll be safe,

Yeah I'll be,

Cause even if it all came crashing down, down,

Cause even if it all came crashing down, down,

Cause even if it all came crashing down,

As long as you're around,

I'll be safe and sound.

I finally finished my song, and everyone applauded.

I said my thank you's, and walked off stage.

"You were fabulous!" Ellie said, throwing her arms around me.

"Thankyou love." I reply.

"You were so f*****g good baby." Dylan said, whilst pulling my waist towards him.

"So, you think you're in love with me eh?" He smirked.

"Who said that was written about you?" I smirked back.

"Yeah, it could have been about me." Ellie smirked at Dylan.

"Shut up lil red, stop eavesdropping on our conversation." He smirked back.

"I'm not eavesdropping, you just need to learn how to speak quieter." She smirked, and turned away talking to someone else.

"For the record, that song was about you." I admitted.

"I knew it." He smirked. "Well I love you Courtney." He said and I blushed.

"I love you too Dylan." I replied and he smiled.

"Dylan, it's your turn." Miss Honey beamed at him.

"Good luck baby." I say to him, and he smiles and walks onto the stage.

"So, I'm not very good at writing about things that make me happy, because I'm a grumpy person, but I've found somebody who makes me extremely happy, so therefore it's easy to write happy songs. That was a really soppy introduction, so sorry about that." Dylan says and turns to smile at me, whilst the audience chuckles.

He checks to see if his guitars in tune, just in case, then he starts singing.

I know there's got to be,

More to love that smoking weed,

Getting off and getting by,

You are the rhythm to my rhyme,

You are my radio,

Turn you up when I feel low,

You are the soundtrack to all I know,

You are the rock to my roll,

He looks directly at me when he sings that lyric, and I beam at him. This songs cute in a Dylan kind of way.

My roll, my roll, my roll,

You are the rock to my roll, my roll, my roll,

You are the rock to my roll,

Roll my heart high up my sleeve,

I'll let you roll it up for me,

Who needs money, when love is gold,

You are the rock to my roll, my roll, my roll,

You are the rock to my roll, my roll, my roll,

So now we are singing,

It keeps our hearts beating,

Skeletons dancing, our bones are romancing,

Tonight, tonight, we come alive at night,

You are the rock to my roll, my roll, my roll,

You are the rock to my roll, my roll, my roll,

You are the anchor to my soul,

My soul, my soul, my soul,

You are the rock to my roll, my roll, my roll,

You are the rock to my roll.

Once he had finished his cute little song, everyone applauded him, and he came bounding backstage with a huge smile on his face.

I run up to him and give him the biggest hug.

"That was so good Dylan! I loved it." I grinned at him.

"Thankyou beautiful. I'm so glad you liked it." He grinned back.

"It was so good, wasn't it Elz?" I look at Ellie and she grins.

"Meh was alright I guess."

"Shut up." I smirk at her. "She thinks it was fab, trust me." I say, and Dylan and Ellie both smirk.

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"Mum? Zo? I'm home!" I shout, but I don't get a reply.

Yes I'm home alone.

I go upstairs and jump into the shower.

I need a shower after the day I've had.

Dylan's song was playing on my mind.

It was such a cute song.

I jump out of the shower, and put some leggings, and a white crop top, with the words 'Whatever' written on it.

It was quite warm in my house, and these clothes were comfortable.

I grabbed my phone, and went downstairs to make some food, and hot chocolate.

I looked in the freezer for food, and found a microwaveable pizza. Yum.

I put the pizza in the microwave, and started making my hot chocolate.

The last time I had a hot chocolate was a few weeks ago, when I went out around the town with Ellie.

She made me some hot chocolate in a travel mug, whilst she made herself some tea in a travel mug, and we just went walking around the town.

She made mine really hot though, and I thought she was trying to kill me.

I put some caramel flavour into my hot chocolate, because I prefer it with caramel flavouring in it, and as if it knew, the microwave started beeping, indicating that my food was done.

That noise is my favourite, because it means my foods ready.

I laugh to myself, as I remember a few weeks ago, a group of mean girls gave me and Ellie nicknames because they don't like us. Ellie's was 'goth' because she listens to heavy music, and mine was 'the fat one.' Ellie said she didn't understand why they called me fat, because apparently I'm not, and they're fatter than me. Ellie's words though, not mine.

Speaking of mean girls, I feel like watching it now.

I bring my pizza and mug of hot chocolate upstairs to my room, and put mean girls in my tv.

****half an hour later****

Knock! Knock!

There was a knock at my front door, and I thought it must be Zoe.

I always lock the door when I'm home alone, because I usually have my earphones, or my music full blast, so I wouldn't hear if a murderer walked into my house.

I went downstairs, and unlocked my front door, expecting Zoe to be standing there.

But it wasn't.

It was Zack.