Seventh
1138 Words
Chapter 7
Maxim's POV
Another day for me and I'm now walking my way to school, as always he's there, tailing behind me.
"Hey! Kaven Carry, stop following me!" I shouted at him.
I always shout at him, say things like I don't like him so he should stay away from me but he's not listening. Damn it.
"I don't wanna." He said from the back.
My heart beated fast. After that day I felt really weird with him...
Flashbacks~
I'm here at the rooftop looking at the bright blue sky holding my stress ball. It makes me feel comfortable and relaxed. I really love silence.
"Boo!"
"What the heck?!" I jumped in shock with that. Jeez.
"Sorry." He said, no other than Kaven Carry. How did he find me here? -_-
"You always scare the hell out of me." I said glaring at him.
"Waah! You're so cute when you glare at me like that, Maxy." He said and I threw my stress ball at him.
"Go away." I said firmly.
"Nope, I ditched my friends just to be with you so no, I won't go away." He said firmly, too.
I just sighed. Just give up Kaven. I want to tell him but I'm too tired to talk.
"Just accept me Maxy, you'll be happy with me if you do. I really really love you so much that I really really want you to be my boyfriend." He said again.
My heart is beating fast. Why? Is it because he startled me a while ago? That's probably it… right?
"You're just hungry." I said then gave him one of my sandwiches.
Ends of flashback~
Then there's Ray who spitted his water on me last night when I told them what this Kaven wants. I'm thankful that that cousin of mine is forgetful so he won't tease me with it.
But my heart's still beating fast. Am I walking too fast this time?
Since the day he stepped on my bag and winked at me, my life became different. A guy named Kaven Carry bugs me everyday saying he loves me and wants me to be his boyfriend. Yes, I think I've been Bisexual since I was 12 but I really don't want anyone beside me anyways.
He's like a mushroom, he appears everywhere. He's not leaving my side even if I wanted him to.
I can see he's kind and thoughtful but I'll still say no.
Another sigh left my mouth.
Fine. I'm scared. Since the day my father died, I don't want anyone to be close with anyone else, even my cousin and mother, yes we talk and live in the same house but I don't want them to be close with me. I stopped opening up with them with how I feel for my everyday life.
I don't want to get hurt again. I'm afraid to get hurt again. I'm afraid that another person will die because of me. My father, I really love him so much, I grew up with him because my mother's in another country working there with my aunt, Ray's mom.
My dad and I used to go to the park every weekend. But one day it's raining and I really want to go to the park but my father won't let me. I sneaked out and played under the rain not knowing that he's looking for me everywhere until I heard that someone was hit by a truck outside the park and I saw it's him, it's my dad. I killed him because I'm not a good son.
From then on, I shut everyone out. Even Akizen, Kinien and Nicole, we're childhood best friends. They said they understand me and will give me time but I chose not to ever approach them again so our distance just widened.
Now I'm afraid that whoever gets close to me will be in trouble or worse end up like my dad because I'm not good for them. I'm afraid to be left again. I'm afraid to be hurt again. I'm afraid to give someone my trust again. I gave up with this life.
"Hey Maxim!" Kaven called out that he's now in front of me.
"What now?" I asked and crossed my arms.
I was shocked when he wiped something from my cheek.
"You're crying. You're sad again. You can tell me anything you know. I don’t like seeing you like this." He said and I can see pain in his eyes.
What? I'm crying? Since when? Gosh, that’s embarrassing! Of all people why does it have to be him to see me like that? But what's confusing me is why? Why is he hurt?
"Maxy, you can continue to cry, you know. I’m here." He said soothing me.
I just looked at him, tears not stopping from falling. He hugged me. I feel weak, I feel cared, I feel assured, I feel...love. Maybe it's not bad to cry again...right?
"Shhh. Whatever that happened before, don't be afraid anymore. I know you're getting through things, we all do. You don't have to hide things for yourself. Open your eyes to the bright side Maxim and you'll see there are people who want to help you and be with you. You're a fragile person with a fragile heart that's why you're hiding in your shell. You have to come out and face your fears, Maxy. Don't give up on everything easily." He said drawing circles at my back to comfort me.
I buried my face on his shoulder and hugged him back as I cried. Kaven's right. I should get out of this shell. I miss my friends. I miss my dad.
K's POV
We've been in that position for ten minutes now and I'm glad he's not crying anymore, I only hear light sobs.
"S-sorry." He whispered.
He pulled away and turned his back at me.
"It's ok." I said.
He started walking and of course I also walked behind him, too. I won't take advantage of him just because he's sad, I hugged him earlier because I felt like he needed one. I wonder why he cried? I'm really hurt seeing him crying. It's too painful for me. I stopped when he stopped at the school gate.
"Kaven Carry." He started.
Jeez my name really sounds so good when he says it. I blushed a little, thanks to this tan skin it's not that visible.
"Yes?" I replied.
"Maybe being f-friends won't hurt r-right?" He stuttered. He's blushing.
"Of course, every relationship starts with friendship honey." I teased then smirked.
"Shut up." He said and hit my arm. "Come on, we're late." He added and I just nodded.
I just chuckled and we both walked inside the building, this time side by side.
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