The Alpha's Feisty And Broken Princess

CH. 05- Burning up

Chapter Five.

Esme’s point of view.

*Knock… knock… knock*

No response.

*Knock …knock ….knock*

“Esme...Esmeralda…Esmeralda. What is wrong sweetheart talk to nana what is bothering you? How was the training…maybe you should just eat some good food . I have lots. What would you like to eat?”

I could feel her getting closer and closer as she continued rambling on about nothing in particular. I could feel her just fishing for information out of me but I could not seem to bring myself to actually respond back. If I'm being Frank her presence alone annoyed me as it reminded me of how much of a failure I was.

Having to look into her eyes and tell her that I disobeyed her and took the blood test as well as brought unnecessary attention to myself whilst somehow failing all... Well almost all of the training tests would just finish me off and crush me some more. A huge part of me would rather that she just finds it out on her own instead of me having to tell her thus I remained silent .

“ Esmeralda dear … I know you are not asleep. Can I come in? Do you want to talk about it?,”

I could already feel the disappointed look that would wash over her face when I told her the news followed by her signature cheerful ,loving smile. I don't even know why she was asking for permission to enter my room when she was already halfway inside at this point.

“Please just let me be . I really do not want to talk about this right now and stop calling me Esmeralda , you know I don’t like being called that. The last thing I need right now is to be associated with that evil woman especially after what happened to Beta Elisa … let’s not even go there. Actually no we are not doing this right now or at all just leave please,”

“ Excuse me young lady, who the hell do you think you are talking to in that tone and how dare you tell me to get out of my own house? I know you are angry but I am not the one responsible for your anger so tread lightly for you are walking on very thin ice right now young lady,”

I could feel the argument just brewing and waiting to happen so the best thing to do was just get it over and done with so I can go back to my pity party. I opened my lips to apologize just for the sake of apologizing when I suddenly heard the loud banging of my bedroom door as gran abruptly left without anything more being said which I was honestly grateful for.

I was now starting to get more and more annoyed by my own presence as I struggled to calm my rage and turned around the bed trying to get comfortable but to no avail. Either the bed wasn't soft enough or it just wasn't hard enough . The blankets were either too warm or just not warm enough... In summary everything was just incompetent and incapable of doing its job properly just like me.

My frustration grew more and more by the second as I slowly drifted off into a state of deep thought. For the sake of a compromise I decided to just tuck myself in and cover up my whole body with my blanket except for one foot just to even out the temperature... I was still a bit too warm but at least I wasn't as frustrated.

For some reason I could not seem to get the alpha’s scent ,voice and overall presence out of my mind. The more I thought about it…well the more I thought about him the more intrigued I was by the thought of uncovering more about him. I did not know exactly what more I wanted to know about him but I just wanted to get to know him more.

I wanted to further experience his dominance and be within his presence. Something about his very being just called out to me and riled up something deep within me. Is it me or is it getting hot in here? I should probably hold it up a bit on the thoughts about the alpha…too soon.

*knock …knock …knock*

“ I thought we already established that you knocking is irrelevant gran…it’s fine you can enter and sorry about earlier I should have worded it better. I did not mean to offend you,”

Out of pure laziness and stubbornness I could not seem to bring myself to turn and face her when I heard the door open so I just stayed in my slightly awkward position on the bed just trying to get more comfortable and miserably failing at it. I was expecting to hear my grandmother’s loving but stern voice but got Ana’s sweet , friendly and familiar voice instead. Unexpected but warmly welcomed non the less .

“ummmm…hi. Your grandma let me in. Sorry to intrude ,I know we just met each other but I was worried about you. Are you ok? You left in such a hurry I didn't even get enough time to say goodbye and stuff like that you know… so ummm do you want to discuss what happened at the training or maybe we should talk about something else. Come to think about it, maybe we should talk about something else I don’t even know why I brought it up in the first place,”

A part of me wanted to cut her off but a bigger part of me just enjoyed hearing the awkwardness in her voice as she struggled to actually talk to me…well more like hold a conversation with herself while I listened because I obviously was not participating in the conversation in any way shape or form.

“ Beta Elisa is fine by the way… I just thought that you would want to know that and I didn’t want you worrying about her all night and stuff . I would have called but I don’t have your number…side note, you should probably give me your number ,or take mine that’s fine too. Honestly *nervous laugh* I probably would have just come over anyway even if I actually did have your number,”

*Nervous laugh*

“ I am rambling right now aren’t I? Am sorry I do that a lot when I am nervous or when I don’t know what to say and right now I am both. Now that I actually think about it… isn’t it weird to talk too much when you don’t know what to say like seriously which one is it…do you not know what to say or have too much to say? Am doing it again aren’t I…sorry I’ll just shut up now,”

I could not help the smile that lightened up my face as I listened to her rambling on…it was quite cute to see how hard she was trying to cheer me up and was way too sweet of her to come tell me how Beta Elisa was doing because I actually was worrying about her and probably was going to spend all night thinking up the worst case scenario. Something about her screams echoing in my head just made me shudder with fright just wondering exactly what it was that she saw when she looked into my family history…but I damn sure ain’t going to ask , at least not anytime soon.

“Thank you for coming to tell me that Ana I really appreciate it ,I was worried about the Betas ' health. I would not have known where to even start trying to find out how she was doing so thank you once more. If I am being honest I really thought the Alpha would just come into my room and devour me alive for causing his sister so much pain even if it wasn’t on purpose. I am low key still dreading his warmth. Girl is it me or is it really getting bat s**t hot in here right now like seriously wow it’s hot,”

Somehow my body just suddenly felt like it was about to melt off and my body heat was escalating to borderline off the charts territory. I could feel light sweat just covering up my body as I removed the blanket covering me in hopes of maybe taking my temperature down a few degrees but that was unfortunately futile.

“Please call Nana …something’s wrong ! Help please Ana open the window or something,”

For some reason the alpha’s brooding hot face and the unbearable heat that was going through my entire body were the only things that I could actually wrap my mind around as everything else just turned into a blur. I could hear Ana shouting for Gran and I could see her mouth moving but I somehow couldn’t hear a single word as some words sounded like a jumbled mess through the loud ringing in my ears.

As much as I would like to deny her diagnosis I knew the exact moment it left her mouth that she was right . Out of everything she said that one specific sentence just caught my full attention and rang like an echo in my mind.

“Fu** Esme ….you’re in heat!”