Love Diary of an Introvert

Love Diary of an Introvert entry five

December 15 7:10am

So it's just a day to my birthday,I wonder how it's going to be, what should I do that day,where should I go?

I'm asking like I'll be allowed

Well I have a friend,my mum knows her

I can go there!!!!!!!!

Yeah!!!!!

Well I'm not letting y'all forget about that dream, should I call it dream or imagination

I'll be honest with you,these are my imaginations

I just imagine them myself

Here's the situation,I imaginate to make my self happy

And also the dreams I want, I get more inspiration to live the life I want

I can't just live that life in imagination,I need to bring it to reality so I can be happy in reality.

Well,writing in my diary,writing my n***********g novel, and imaginating makes me happy.

Should I add baking?

I've always wanted to bake when I get angry or heartbroken (weird) love it!

I mean if my country guys break my heart,I can just go into the kitchen,bake till I'm exhausted that I forget to feel depressed.

This love of a thing!!!!

I don't like it,I'm scared of marriage entirely.

I mean why would a guy just think that a year or two or more can just go in the drain at simple mistakes

Not just that, it's either they cheat,they lost interest,they have anger issues. Yes my last relationship,he had anger issues,we broke up early this year,but we talk well now.

I mean if a guy loves you entirely,deeply he won't lose interest but that can only happen if the girl is also reciprocating the feelings.

The type of relationship I want

A very happy one and peaceful one

I really need that!!!!!!

Ever since I was born,I haven't had a peaceful life due to family issues and being the first born

I'll write about that later here

Yap, back to the type of relationship I want

A caring guy, overprotective, handsome,he really needs to be handsome, neat, hardworking,less angered,a guy that sort things out if there's argument

A guy that wants to talk to me all day!!!

I mean I love that type of guy

But trust me they are all in Asian movies

Or books!!!!!

I'm not the dark romance type but my friends read them and trust me they are obsessed!!!

But I find it hard to read one(hmm)

So what am I supposed to do today!?

I want to create a writing space,I mean a place where I can write my novels and diary

I'll tell my mom

I think I have some money left

So today,I don't really wanna go outside, I just want to stay inside,write my novel and in my diary.

What should I write about before I drop my diary

There's no work today!!!

Just to clean my room and eat

I can just tell Tatiana to tell my brother to bring my food up here!

Maybe not!

Yes,I'm lazy!!!!!!

I wanna try that skincare routine too!!!

Hmmm

I wonder how aesthetic life would be!

I know how about this cottage lifestyle

Do you know too!!

Why am I asking like someone is going to read my diary?(Hehe)

So literally I love that type of lifestyle

Very simple and beautiful

I mean waking up to take in the breathe of the forest

Do they call it forest?

Well,trees are there!

Waking up to the breathe of trees,the trees are greeting you with their leaves.

And hearing the tweeting of the bird!!!!

That I love!!!!

That I love!!!!!!!

That I love!!!!!!!!!

Squeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

You know sleeping while hearing the sound,both the trees and cricket at night

Then birds in the morning

Beautiful bird not those birds that poops on someone

Eeeeeew

Then while waking up, there's the morning sun reflecting from your window down to your skin!

Then you'll feel beautiful

This type of life is best lived alone!!!

I don't know why y'all include man in your dreams(durrrrr)

Love yourself first (A band told me that)

Back to where I was, going to take tea and biscuits after the few minutes of admiring nature

After tea, doing sort of chores

Going out to pluck some fruits (Apples to be precise)

And while going, there's this beautiful gown

I don't know how to explain it

The gown in color green,you know it's matching the color of the forest

And a big white bow on!

Also,when going to the stream!!!

What can I wear to the stream?

Hmmmm

Okay, should I say a short and top together

Do they call it jumpsuit?

Green also

But not that deep green

The light one

How come I don't know type of colors again!?

The stream cleansing the feet, washing clothes there

Actually I don't think I will

But people I see do that

And you know singing with the bird with beautiful voice not a rough voice.

Omg!!!!

I love it!!!!!!

Thinking of it makes it more beautiful.

I love it!!!!!!

I'mma just go call my brother so he can bring my food

If you're wondering why can't I cook when my mom is in the kitchen

All I can say is mind your business

Thanks buddy!!!

After eating,I watch my Chinese drama and Korean drama too!!!!

And then I can sleep or write my novels

I need to get to some certain amount of words before I can earn

Gotta work hard

So I called my brother now,he said mom prepared yam and egg

Trust me,I miss egg

Back in school, it's always noodles and egg

I love it!(Hehe)

So he said he'll bring it for me

Trust me, it's not for free!!!

I'm giving him a yam

Childish right?

But I have to,I don't want problem at all.

When he brings it up, I'mma stop writing

Only God knows if he won't steal from it

I wanna lock my door before eating

I don't want some bratty Tatty to disturb my life!!!!!

I need rest!!!!

Of course there's still a full moon!

I wish it will wait till my birthday!

I think my brother is here..

I'm coming

Yeahhhh, it's so beautiful

Are food beautiful?.

I don't know but I love this

Bye guys

We'll see in the night or evening

Bye again!!!