Love Diary of an Introvert

Love Diary of an Introvert entry six

Entry 6

7pm

Don't ask me what I've been doing since

I slept off like a log of wood

After waking up by 5pm,my mom started again

She was like “why have you been sleeping since, you're sleeping like a pregnant and lazy person,I wonder how you want to live in your husband's house, sleeping like your future has ended, you better get up and take your stupid body away from here,fool”

Then I was like, what happened, can't I sleep again,did I have anything to do,I made sure I told my brother whatever things he had to do,he had to take care of Tatiana,since I want to rest also.

I mean I can't kill myself

Ever since I came back from my dad's place and we weren't given any money for food or so.

She got angry and said “she'll only provide us what she have,she doesn't care if we eat lunch or dinner,she and Tatiana will look for what to eat”

And I was like,did I do anything wrong?

If my father had money he would have dropped it like he would before

Though my father can be somehow sometimes

I thought that was the end,the next day,I made sure I did everything very well,she goes out with Tatiana to her new place of work,I use to be the only one at home until my brother came back from school

I made sure I arrange the house,lay her bed,did things so she won't have to say she came back from work just to come and work at home when she has a grown up child at home.

Actually,even if I do something wrong,it doesn't warrant insult and curse.

I'm this emotional type,I cry when I'm angry,sad or frustrated.

My parents find it annoying

Like I was saying,the next day,I went to greet my friend but came back by 7pm

She wasn't back yet, immediately I came back I made sure I arranged the room like I would

But then, there'll surely be a mistake,she said I didn't call her to ask her what we're going to eat

There's soup at home,but there wasn't any other thing to eat it with.

She came back and said “you went to do rubbish,I've gone out the whole day and still come here to be doing another work,if she didn't ask what we're going to eat,I wouldn't have said anything”.

Meanwhile,the food I ate that day in that house was only the breakfast she said she'll provide

Which wasn't much and I had to remain for my brother so he'll eat it in the afternoon when I was gone.

Whatever I ate that day aside that,I provided it myself

After Insulting me,she didn't give me the food she prepared just my brother and her.

Tatiana isn't the local food type

It continued to happen and happen.

And I was forced to ask my brother that did I do anything wrong to her.

He said that's how she do and I shouldn't let it get to me.

I cried my eyes out that day as I did today.

After she insulted me today,I couldn't even eat,what I ate today is just biscuits and water.

She didn't show any remorse at all

She even falsely accused me.

And it's really affecting my mental health

I'm so exhausted emotionally and I think I might just kick the bucket soon.

I'm tired!!!!!

No one literally understands me at all!!.

Well,my eyes are big right now due to tears

I just want to sleep everything off

I don't even think there's going to be delusions for a while

I'll just listen to music and write my novel

I'm tired for real.

It's 8pm now, though I don't sleep by this time.

But I have to sleep now

11pm

So guys I couldn't sleep

It was hard

Everything came running back into my head

I cried again

It was so exhausting

So I picked up my phone and start to listen to music

Music that's going to make me cry

Read the lyrics

I'm sure my pillow is craving the sun.

Hehe

Well after crying I feel a little better.

I haven't been online for a while

So I went online,to see my messages

Normally I'm the online freak

But I'm taking a break

I didn't reply anyone, just saw the messages and then watched reels.

What should I write about?

Wait,while reading back now,I saw that I said “guys” I'm wondering who are they?

It's not like anyone is going to read it right?

Or should I name my diary “guys”

Hehe

Yes that will do(it's funny and weird)

My birthday is just a day…….

Wait it's 12 already

It means my birthday is just tomorrow

Hehe

I don't know why I'm excited

I'm going to be Seventeen by December 17th

I'm so glad

You could see my teeth outside

It's not like I have a good plan for it

I'm just glad

And it's not like this year favored me

This year was full of emotional breakdown, sickness, tears,a lot of tears guys.

Meeting new friends,being among new people.

But trust me this year wasn't my happy year at all

I wish to make my 18th birthday lit!

In my country, you being 18 doesn't mean you are a grown up,trust me your parents can or will still beat you even if you're 18 and I'm sure my parents are part.

But I'm glad I'm going to be 18

I feel so big

I feel like it's the time for me to start achieving things!

I want my story to have more viewers and readers and that is going to depend on me publishing it.

But if I publish it,will people buy it?, ’cause most people might have read it on the app.

Hmmmmmmmm

They might still be people who prefer it to online reading

I just need to find a good place to sell it

And I need to grow my online handles so I can advertise there

I really need to do so.

This diary entry isn't even looking like a Diary

It's giving prose(hehe)

Hehe

Well I think I was just so unhappy today

There's no delusions tonight

I'll just sleep

I'll wait till I'm mentally okay

Before I continue

But I can think of how I want my future to be

Yeah

A f*****g rich mom and her latest car

Hehehehehe

Here we go

The sunrise waking me up from my deep slumber,I love the sun so I made sure my room was facing the sun

It's so nice

While my bathroom shows the sunset

Hmm, that's cray cray(hehe)

Hehe

Waking up to see your pet(rabbit) by your feet also just waking up.

Then getting up to take a bath in a nice aesthetical and colorful bathroom

With slow music going on more like “do better blues”

Just lay there in the bathtub till I remember I have to go to work

“Oh s**t’

But was I supposed to run? no!

I own my company,why should I rush to my own company(hehe)

So I just lay there and enjoy my warm bath

Leaving the bathroom

I go to the kitchen to prepare toast bread

Yum!

Then I remember my baby is sleeping

My three year old daughter

How I love her so much!!!

Woke my baby up,bath for her,adorn her with the nicest uniform, shoes, earrings, little spray of perfume,nice wrist watch

Her hair is so nice and beautiful

She looks beautiful with a dimple again

Just a dimple like her mom

After getting ready,I take my bag,take my daughter

Head to the car

My baby and I be looking demure

Getting into our car(I haven't seen a car I like yet)

Everybody be staring at us when we get to my baby's school

My baby be acting demure,gets down and I walk her to her class

Her classmates be looking beautiful and also staring at the rich mom

The scent of my perfume leaving my presence behind

I wave my baby bye,headed for work.

Once I get down,the door was about to be opened for me and I be like “hey,no” with a gentle smile I got down from the car, walked into the building

Oh God, everybody scared at the sight of the CEO,some are wanting to be like me.

Then I halt!

“To everyone on this floor this morning

I'm not putting on a horn, neither do I look scary, it's an insult to me, don't get scared at my sight,if you wanna be like me,work harder,I'm rooting for y'all,bye”

Then I walk majestically into the elevator

And get to my own office

My office be looking cute, beautiful and modern.

Lol,I love the future me.