Love Diary of an Introvert

Love Diary of an Introvert entry seven

December 16 8am

Last night dream was lit,it wasn't about my delusions

It was about my Asian man

The one I know

Squeeeeeeeeeeee

He sang for me, he's a musician though

He was so sexy and cute as fuck

Omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well it's just tomorrow,my birthday.

I'll be seventeen tomorrow guys

I hope today goes well so I can be in a happy mood tomorrow.

I hope my mom doesn't start any of her episodes again!

I'm still doing the healing process one of my friends told me to.

Since I told her what my mom did.

So I'm still doing it.

My mom and Tatiana has gone out

My brother has gone to his work place,he learns work.

I'm literally the only one at home at the moment .

I wish I had money, I'll just bake cake for my myself since my mom isn't around

But I'll just be here filling myself with delusions

I love it!!!

Imagine going to go the sea on your birthday

You have the opportunity to see the sunrise as well as seeing the sunset

I'm not really a swimmer

But I can swim also

Take nice pictures

Cute pictures

Aesthetic pictures!!!!!!

It's going to be lit!!!

But where am I going to?

Nowhere!

I wanna cry

Well, We didn't plan it well

We'll plan it well on the eighteenth birthday

Everybody say “yipeeeeeee”

Hehe

Earlier this morning, Tatiana came to tell me that she couldn't see the moon before she slept and after she woke up.

Actually she slept very early or not too early.

She can't see the moon because it hasn't rotated to her window where she's able to see it.

I tried explaining to her that the moon came out but she was asleep.

Tatiana literally said I “stwole” the moon.

And I'm like why tf would I steal the moon. I don't like it when someone accuses me of something,I don't want to know who the person might be, I'll get angry and try to defend myself.

I surely prove myself right before I can rest and the person has to apologize to me.

Then I was like,I didn't steal the moon,the moon doesn't stay in one place,it rotates.

I had to bring out my phone and Google it out for her to see that is how it works.

Then she went to ask her mom before she could believe me.

And yes,she apologized.

Hehehe

What should I do while I'm the only one at home.

Maybe I'll just sleep

And yes my break ends today. My online break!

Hehe

So literally I have online friends,I don't have close friend to call my bestie or close friends

All of them either has friends or aren't interested in the friendship.

And I've been trying to make one,but it in the end it always fails. Then I promise myself not to wait for friendship anymore, though it worked for me but not really because deep down I want one

And I wish to have group friends. Like maybe three or five. I wish.

So there's this girls group I am,we are fourteen in number but they are online. I've seen two of them in real life. One goes to my school. The other one was the one I went to visit the other day I said my mom said some things

And my wish is that all of us become closer,goes for hangout,gist with each other, we'll have a house where we meet to Gossip,play,pray, sleep overnight.

Stuffs like that

But it looks like they have important friends already,or how should I put it,they have their own close friends.

Probably we're just online friends to each other. Trust me,they are like sisters to me.

I wish we'll stay together for long that way. Even if we don't become close friends like I wish to.

And what do I want to be in the future?

Like they would say

I've thought of being a lot of things but let's say I've finally concluded in one which is linguistics.

Before resuming to school,I thought it was learning of language, maybe we'll be given a language to study, trust me it's way different my love.

Who's my love?(Hehe)

But still I love it

I can apply whatever I've been taught to french.

I studied french as one of my subject in high school.

And I've downloaded an app which I use to study too.

So I believe I can do better!

Then I'm writing novel too

I want to be a successful writer also

I really wish to be one!!. All my life I want to be popular,but it seems I don't want it again. Being a celebrity isn't an easy task guys.

Well school resumes next year,I have to start reading cause exam starts some months after we get to resume.

At least I should get 4.5

Yeah. I need to work hard from now

I'll read the notes on my phone again. And I'll go back to the classes to read them again.

I believe in myself.

Well,I'mma just go watch some movies and sleep. Before then I'll clean the house again, especially my mom's room so there won't be any mistakes.

So guys,bye for now.

1pm

You need to see the way I'm sweating. Why?

I couldn't sleep and was feeling dizzy. I feel better now though,if my mom was around she could have declared that I was pregnant.

Hehe. I think I'm out of blood or how do they say it. I couldn't sleep much.

I'll have to sleep back now

4pm

Trust me that sleep was okay,I loved it, even if I still felt dizzy a little bit.

Since it's four, I'll go to the back to pack our clothes and clean the house again.

Then I'll call her to ask her what to cook tonight. I have to make everything perfect.

I feel like we should eat Macaroni tonight,but with the look of it,my mom and Tatiana would have eaten,so it's probably me and my brother,so maybe she'll allow me to cook Macaroni. I'm going downstairs now,bye.

7pm

After I called my mom,she accepted. She and Tatiana ate already. I'm glad,so right now I'm in the kitchen, macaroni is in the pot cooking.

My brother will be back my 8pm.

I'll be done by then. If possible,I should eat now and go back upstairs to avoid any issues. I think so

It's going to be perfect..

What's smelling? What's smelling?

It looks like the macaroni is bur

Guys,I could have burnt the macaroni to death,but thank God for my great sense of smell (lies)

So I'mma just dish my food and go upstairs.

Bye again

8:30pm

My brother is back and I've finished eating, while I was eating I was watching my Korean drama.

Perfect!.

Just like having popcorn in a cinema

There's no delusions for tonight

I want to read a little bit and then sleep.

Bye guys

See you tomorrow.

Sleep tight

Do not imaginate tonight, just sleep and dream of your crush, celebrity crush not your country crush.