A howl of a normal life

coping, healing and protecting.

Day by Day Raya is healing i honestly dont know how she is still carrying our pup with all the hell she went threw and all the abuse she went threw

she is slowly looking more like her self and less like a corpse 

she still has yet to wake up but they think she will wake soon since she is healing faster than normal for the condition she was in 

its a;ready been 1.5 weeks since i got her back and she has been uncontious 

when i hold her hand some times she will move her fingers the dr says thats a good sign that her body is responding to me

but i just need to hear her sweet voice and to feel her warm touch i have never felt so impatient in my life 

i have been practically living in this hospital from eating to showering to everything i even have a bed next to Rayas bed and i sleep by her holfing her hand 

i dont want to miss when she opens her eyes for the first time 

i need her to know that no matter what i will always be here for her  and i wont let her wake up alone and be scared by her self i want to be there to let her know its all okay  and no matter what i will always save her even if it costs my life 

i stop pacing threw the room and i set down nest to her and hold her hand i zone out on her beautiful face and i feel her hand move but she is moving it more than normal, before long her eyes open slowly and close over once again she opens and closes them a few times before she opens them 

Rayas pov

i was taken by a man that wanted me to call him King and when i refused her would beat me more and more he has broken almost all my bones have been broken from the abuse over and over 

i know that Drew is doing all he can to find me and i know he wont stop until he finds me i just hope its not to late and if it is i just hope it all ends in his arms 

these people refuse to let me eat, wear clothes, drink, shower, have any thing warm or comfortable they make me sleep standing up they have me chained against the wall in silver 

it has burnt my skin very deep and it is very painful 

i have been r***d by multiple men here and even forced to suck their d***s when i refused they would chain me down tighter and take their way with me 

they were very cruel to me and the torture i went threw i never wanted to and i honestly wished i didnt survive but i knew my mate would save me i knew he wouldnt stop until he found me 

i am exhausted hanging but i swear i hear my mates voice  

i say his name and it all goes back times moves so slow i am now in a darkness searching for my way out 

it feels like it takes me months maybe even year but i have finally found some light i am running towards the light but it seems to just get further and further away 

takes me a very long time before i find the exit and i slowly walk threw the bright light and before i know it i am opening my eyes into a very strange room i blink my eyes a couple times and open them once again and before i know it i am in a room next to my mate that has tears trickling down his face

*drew* i say as best as i can my throat is dry and cracky 

drew must sense it because he grabs me a nearby cup of ice water and he holds it up to my mouth to get a drink i happliy get a drink and set my self up

i am sure i look rough as hell because of the hell i have been threw by my captors 

*Drew i am so sorry* i say 

*baby you have nothing to be sorry for* drew says as he kisses my hand 

*but i do they beat me, r***d me, forced me to do things i didnt want to do* i tell him crying

*they r***d you* he says clearly getting mad 

*yes* i whisper 

*Raya i am so sorry you went threw all that and i wasnt there to stop it and save you* he says

*it wasnt your fault* i say 

*yes it was Raya i am supposed to be your hero and i am supposed to keep you safe and protect you and our pup* Drew says 

wait did he just say pup what is he talking about a pup for i am not pregnant 

*Drew what do you mean pup* i ask

*Raya your almost 2 months pregnant* he says 

i dont know how long i have been out but  i sure as hell hope my rapest didnt get me pregnant 

*what whos pup is it* i ask 

*Raya given the time frame the pup would be mine and yours baby dont worry those bastards will pay in blood for what they have done to you* drew says 

thanks goodness that the pup is Drews because it would be so hard to have a pup from one of the many of my rapests 

i lower my head and sigh i have never been so thankful and relieved in my life 

im going to be a mom and that alone is crazy but i am very excited to be a mom and to start a family with drew 

*i cant wait to be a mom* i say honestly 

*and i cant wait to be a dad, and to spend the rest of my life with you and our lil family* drew says man this man melts my heart 

*drew i really just want to go home* i say

*Raya we will have to talk to the drs and seee what they can do but right now i think it would be a good idea for you to eat some food* he says 

i couldnt agree more with him because i am pretty hungry 

*okay* is all i say and drew walks out of the room and when he comes back he is carrying me a tray that i am sure has food on it 

* i didnt know what you wanted so* drew says as he sets a tray down that is loaded to the max with all kinds of food 

i instantly dig in and it doesnt take long for me to feel very full and before i know it i am racing on wobbly legs to the bathroom but i dont make it far before Drew scoops me into his arms and carries me to the toilet 

all my food quickly leaves my stomach and i am laft feeling like hell and hungry once again

the dr comes in and explains to me that i need to eat small amounts at a times in order to retain my self and stomach to keep the food down and until i can hold down food i cant go home because i will need to be on fluids to keep the baby and my self healty 

i wont argue with her if she thinks its best for my pup i will comply with her even tho i dont want to be here and i jsut want to go home to our room and relax