Seeking The Past

Chapter 24 - One last Dream?

After graduation I received a message from Lee. He told me him and his father were going away for about a week. He didn’t respond after that text which I thought was weird in a way. I had tried calling and texting him the past couple days, but to not avail. Madison had been encouraging me to look deeper into the past. She had been my biggest support in listening and helping me understand my dreams. I researched non-mate marks and arranged marriages. It was surprisingly common for Alphas to use their children to make alliances with neighboring packs. Alphas however could still feel mate bond when they came close to their goddess chosen mates. Most ended up rejecting their mates when they found them. In very rare occasions they would seek out witches or werewitches to sever their mark bond. Which was expensive and still took a lot of time to heal. I tried to piece together my sporadic dreams, but they still didn’t make much sense. I remembered Angelica telling me about a rumor that Henry had a mistress, but it seemed like it was just unrequited love. I walked down to Angelica and Gena’s room and peeked in. Angelica was buried in a book and Gena was asleep.

“Can I talk to you?” I asked her and she got up still looking at her book. She slowly walked out the door and followed me up to my room. She sat on my bed and I sat at my vanity. I looked at her and she put up a finger very intently reading. I waited patiently. She slapped the book shut.

“Done! What is it?” I had her full attention.

“You told me once that there was a rumor about Henry being in love with a witch or having some witch mistress?” She straighter up.

“Well I heard one of the teachers had read something that a witch and Henry were secretly lovers. Something about how it was his brother’s betrothed mate. Not many people found it interesting other then they were twins like Lee and James are twins. Oh my gosh is this about them?” She set her book down completely now.

“No, it’s not about them. It’s about my dreams.” I put my head in my hands. What if this meant something more. Were my dreams trying to warn me of something? I kept thinking of James and Lee and how it couldn’t come to something like that.

“Are you ok Hannah?” Angelica asked seeming concerned.

“I just have a lot going on in my mind. I don’t know what I want anymore and that scares me. I wanted to leave and travel. The mate bond just, it just! It ruined everything!” I started to cry. Angelica came over and put a hand on my back.

“Hey… it’s all going to be ok, ya know? If all else fails, reject them both. Do you.” Angelica walked over to the door.

“Thank you for being here for me.” I said to her.

“I’m always here for you sister. I’ll always be here for you.” She walked out and closed the door softly. I watched my window wishing Lee would crawl in and cuddle with me. I really missed his touch. While I spaced out my phone dinged.

“Can I see you tomorrow?” It was from James. I smiled, it felt like he was reading my mind.

“Yes!” I typed back.

“I’ll pick you up at noon my love.” He wrote back.

“I can’t wait!” I replied and plugged my phone in. I climbed into bed looking forward to tomorrow. I slowly drifted off to sleep.

I pulled away looking into the face of Henry.

“Julia this can’t continue.” The lipstick on his lips told me everything. The door burst open and Fredrick walked in.

“I KNEW IT! How dare you Henry! First you take Ashley when she was MY mate! Now you want Julia too!” His angry expression scared me.

“It’s not my fault that our parents arranged my marriage. I’m Alpha of Greymoon pack if you haven’t forgotten.” Henry billowed back.

“You can’t have them both!” Fredrick grabbed my hand and led me out. Flashes of us moving down stairs, into the gardens, into the woods, and finally I yanked away. Fredrick didn’t turn around.

“Julia…” Fredrick turned and anger was washed over his face. “Ashley is pregnant, you have to give up on Henry.” I fell to my knees clenching my chest. My heart ached and I screamed in pain. Suddenly fire exploded from my finger tips engulfing a circle around me. My dream flashed as I walked down the pack house, my fingers ran along the walls. Everything I touched burned. I got to the top of the stairs and slowly walked to the end of the hall. I put my hand on the door and it erupted into flames crumbling under my touch. I walked in and cowered in the corner was Luna Ashley Greyback. She was in a night gown and breathing heavy, terror shown on her face. All I could see was her eyes glow as I lifted my hand and fire poured out.

I screamed and shot up. Sweat pouring from every part of me. I started sobbing.

That’s not me… That will never be me!

I grabbed my phone, 2 am. I opened it and hovered over Lee’s and James’s names. I just needed someone. I needed comfort but I knew what I needed to do, it wasn’t comfort I need from them right now. I threw my phone into my closet and tears streamed down my face. I got out of bed and went into Angelica and Gena’s room. I got into Angelica’s bed and she rolled over.

“What’s wrong?” She looked at me concerned again. I just cried. “Another dream?” I nodded. “It’s ok. I’m here.” She hugged me and held me as I cried. She rubbed my back until I fell back asleep.

I stood in complete darkness.

“It will all be explained soon my child.” A white light appeared. I looked into the light and reached out to it. Before I could touch it, it disappeared.

I opened my eyes again and everyone was still asleep. A dull light shown through the window. I crawled out of Angelica’s embrace and went back to my room. I dug my phone out of my closet.

“Sh*t…” I looked at the cracked screen. I could still see my messages but the touch screen was messed up. I thought about the heart ache. It was so real that I could feel it. I touched my heart. I felt that pain so many times.