Seeking The Past

Chapter 15 - The first time.

I stood above Henry.

“Julia it didn’t have to come to this.” Once again I took his hand. “Tell them when the time comes, I’ve only ever loved you.” My chest hurt when he said this. It was the first time hearing those words.

“Good bye Henry.” The voice of Fredrick again. I leaned over Henry receiving the same blow. I screamed out in pain. Howls erupted around us, the pack knew their alpha had died. Fredrick fell to his knees grabbing my hand.

“JULIA!” He started kissing my hand and sobbing. “Don’t leave me! Hang on!” I slowly started to close my eyes.

When I opened my eyes I was breathing heavily. I grabbed my alarm and read the time. 1:43 am. I exhaled and suddenly heard a tap. I became slightly annoyed but got up and opened the window. Lee crawled in once again and stood by the window looking at me.

“I know it’s late, I didn’t expect you to be up. I just had to see you. I couldn’t help but think of you with him and I just… I just couldn’t take it Hannah!” He grabbed me forcefully and started kissing me deeply. I was still trying to gain my consciousness from being asleep and I did little to resist him for a moment until I came to reality. I pulled away and touched his face. I could feel tears on his cheek.

“What’s wrong?” I said with concern.

“Hannah I feel like I’m losing you.” Lee said squeezing me into a hug.

“We’ve only been on one date Lee.” I felt ridiculous having to reassure him about anything. James was my fated mate according to the books I had read.

“I know… I know Hannah.” He put his forehead to mine. I had this feeling that he needed me right now. I looked at his face, my hands rubbed the slight stubble on his chin. He leaned his head into my hand. I pulled his head down and he kissed me. He suddenly became slightly more zealous pushing into me passionately and knocking me into the bed. I was taken aback.

“Lee!” He pulled off his shirt. I was shocked by his sudden disrobing but it wasn’t unwelcome. I reached up and touch his chest. He grabbed my hand and gravitated it downward placing it on the bulge in his pants. “You can feel what you do to me Hannah.” I’m not sure what came over me. I reached up and unbutton his pants and pulled them down revealing his large member. I gasped when I saw it and looked up at him. He had a smirk on his face. I looked back not entirely sure what to do. I grabbed onto his hard member and began to slowly stroke it. His soft moans turned me on and provided me with the courage for my next move. I leaned forward taking him in my mouth. He gasped and placed his hand on my head.

“Hannah” he panted. I began working my mouth on his hard c*ck. He groaned slowly thrusting into my mouth. He grabbed my hair and pulled me away he leaned down kissing me and grabbing my pajama pants and pulling them down. He pushed me into the bed climbing on top of me. My legs straddle him, my slit was insanely wet. He looked into my eyes contemplating his next move, looking at me for reassurance.

“Lee I want to feel all of you.” I wasn’t sure who this person was, but I had to have all of him right then and there. Lee smiled and kissed me. This was all he wanted. He positioned himself at my opening and slowly began to push his way in. I winced in pain.

“I’ll go slow.” He slowly pumped into me and the pain didn’t last very long. He started to kiss down my neck. He stopped at my marking spot sucking where he desperately wanted to sink his teeth and claim me as his own. He sped up his pumps and I moaned. My moans encouraged him pump faster and deeper. He lifted his hand to cover my mouth worried I was going to wake my family. “Come on Hannah.” I felt my body starting to build up as his pumped fast until I couldn’t take it and exploded. Moaning loudly into his hand. Lee suddenly pulled out of me and I watched him finish. He was panting heavily and my legs felt like jello. He picked up a towel and cleaned himself up. He sat at the end of my bed and I sat up. I kissed his shoulder and he looked at me and smiled.

“That was my first time.” He said and I smiled at him.

“Mine too.” I said to him. I felt like our bond was growing if that was possible.

“Hannah I love you so much.” Lee looked at the floor. His eyes were sad.

“What’s wrong?” I asked him rubbing his back.

“Your my brothers girl. I feel so terrible trying to take you so desperately from him. I just feel strongly about you too. I don’t understand it, I just feel so strongly towards you.” I lightly grabbed his chin and made him look at me.

“As far as I’m concerned, I don’t belong to anyone.” I said. He gave me a nod and looked down. “Will you stay with me tonight?” I wanted his touch. He nodded again laying down and I crawled up next to him in the bed. I cuddled up to him kissing his neck. Lee exhaled and pulled me close to him. He kissed my lips.

“Let’s get some sleep princess.” I nuzzled his neck and starting to fall asleep in his arms. I could hear Lee softly breathing. The guilt started to washed over me again.