Sua Farfalla

Foot fetish

(A/N: sensitive topics described here, careful you guys).

Jenna's POV:

About fifteen minutes later both man and man jr. were fast asleep.

Deciding I should make myself comfortable too, I stood and quietly walked towards the nursery, rubbing my feet against the soft grey carpet that covered the floor.

Placing the baby on the crib, I carefully left its door ajar and walked towards Austin's bedroom, pulling out a blanket and covering my sleeping sibling with it.

A light giggle escaped my lips the second I saw him curl into the soft fabric like a child would it's favorite toy.

Walking towards the kitchen, I decided to put the stuff I bought him in their corresponding places, guessing as best as I could where everything went.

Not minding the noise much given Austin was one hell of a heavy sleeper, I finished the task at hand and decided I deserved a treat.

The Nutella jar and I are gonna have a chat.

Grabbing a spoon and the tasty miracle, I make my way towards Austin's bedroom once again where I remember seeing a laptop.

Logging into my sss account, I started answering some messages I had received but was always too lazy to reply to. 

After taking care of a few, I stumbled upon an email from my assistant Monroe who had sent me some job applications for me to check out.

A few minutes turned into a few hours, and soon enough the sun was hiding behind the horizon.

Closing the laptop delicately, I stood and went to check on the baby, only to find him in the arms of my brother who was now singing Barney's song.

Smiling softly, I approached him from behind and started singing along, feeling as whole and content as I could be, and for the first time in five years... forgetting all about my Italian goon.

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We were currently having dinner while watching Tom and Jerry. One would think that the baby was the reason why we chose such a show, but the truth is we both loved it and used to watch it all the time when we were younger.

Looking to my left I couldn't help the amused laugh that was begging to come out ever since I saw the massive scowl on my brother's face.

He had been in a sour mood all night long since his son seemed to prefer my hold over his.

Ever since he woke up from his nap, he's been all over me and cried intensely  once Austin tried to take him from my arms.

"How old is this little man?", I asked while softly touching the scarce amount of hair his head held.

"Six months", he replied with a huge smile.

A few seconds passed before I spoke again.

"Austin, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to, but where did he even come from?".

"It's alright sis, I hold no secrets from you", he said almost smugly, proud of his sincerity towards his sister.

"Well, as soon as I got out of prison I went back home looking for you, only to find... well no one actually. Mandy and you were gone and Gerald was nowhere to be seen".

Mandy and I were long gone, I knew that much, but Gerald missing? Something isn't right here.

"I spent almost a year looking for you. Nine months to be exact. I travelled through around six states before getting to California, where I met Mona".

It almost seemed as if he had gotten uncomfortable while talking about this woman, ashamed even.

"Jenna I was so depressed and so tired of not knowing where you were that I-..." taking a deep breath, he took a now sleeping Benjamin from my arms and allowed him to explore the comfort of his crib.

After returning, he sat back next to me and started fidgeting like a schoolgirl about to get punished by her headmaster.

Damn, I'm thirsty af aren't I? I'll fix that later.

"Just spit it out already Austin, I'm not gonna judge the mother of my nephew". I said urging him to continue.

"I slept with a prostitute, alright! And me, being lucky me, got her pregnant", he said while furiously rubbing his cheeks.

"God Austin, I mean sure the situation may not be great, but these things can happen. Condoms only work like 97% of the time, you know?"

That's a thing I'll never forget. Rachel telling Ross condoms can fail 3% of the time. 

Essential life knowledge right there.

"Um, you see, we um... we didn't use any", he said oh so quietly I almost didn't hear him. 

Oh, but I did, and my face was far from amused.

"I know, I know, okay? I f****d up big time Jenna, but you should have seen her. She had the most beautiful feet in the world, my god! She turned me on like a match. As soon as I saw them I knew I had to touch them and lick them and-"

"OVERSHARING ISN'T CARING, AUSTIN!!" I shouted full force, not really wanting to know about my brother's foot fetish.

"Sorry", he mumbled embarrassedly once he realized what he was saying.

"So um... where is this Mona girl anyways?" I hear myself asking without even considering it may be a sensitive topic.

"Beats me", he answered with a shrug. "Look, the woman was truly a b***h. I took Benjamin to his crib because I don't want to talk about his mother like this in front of him, I'll never insult her while he's present, but she played me and took advantage of Benji as if he was a product to be sold".

He looked beyond angry, but tiredness was also present, not the kind where sleep would make it better, but the kind where closure was the answer.

"Once she found out she was pregnant she looked for me so she could tell me the big news, not out of joy, but to blackmail me. 

Mona came to my house and demanded I give her money, otherwise she'd go and get an abortion".

With a pleading look as if begging me to understand the situation, he rubbed his sweaty hands on his trousers and turned fully towards me.

"You know me Jenna, a long time ago I promised myself that if I ever got lucky and had a family, I'd be the father I wish I had. 

Imagine how desperate I was to keep my baby safe. I gave her money every day, bought her food, clothes, makeup, anything she'd asked for. 

I remember her always threatening me: 'Buy me this, or I'll kill your baby' 'do that or say goodbye to this thing inside of me'. 

She was an insensitive woman, always complaining about how fat the 'thing' was making her look, always talking about abortion clinics to keep me on edge".

My heart fell for him so deeply. I couldn't believe he had to go through this on his own.

"I tried my best to keep her out of drugs and prostitution while she was pregnant, but as soon as Benji was born she went right back into that world. 

I haven't seen her since the day she gave birth, and I'm glad I haven't. I doubt she'd be a good mother to my son.

After that, I guess I simply stopped looking for you Jenna, I couldn't anymore, not when I had a baby to take care of".

His eyes were excruciatingly sad, making me wrap my hands around him in a tight hug, rubbing soothing circles on his back.

"I'm not mad Austin, I completely understand. You acted very responsibly and I'm proud of you, I truly am. Benjamin's got himself a great father".

That last phrase successfully erased all traces of sadness from his face, giving place to a huge tooth showing smile.

"And I know I said I wouldn't judge the mother of my nephew... but what a grass eating b***h!", I said, gaining an amused laughter from my big bro in return.

Looking towards the nursery, Austin sighed.

"It's been one hell of a ride Jenna, but I don't regret it at all".

The amount of love he had for his son was visible in his eyes, and I truly envied the little munchkin for having such a great father.

"I truly wish I'd had a father as loving as you Aus" I said while softly grabbing his hand.

"Yeah, me too".

Lying on the couch cuddled up together, I rested my head on his chest and closed my eyes so that I could get some well deserved sleep after this crazy day.

Feeling completely at ease, it came as no surprise that my idiotic older brother ruined the peaceful moment with an awfully random statement.

"You can imagine after all this crap went down, Mona's feet resemble s**t to me now".

Our combined laughter filled the apartment, reminding us both of the good old days, and just then, realization hit me.

I'm not a lost boy anymore, my Peter Pan is back.