Broken Hearts RX: Book II: Crestfallen (TAGALOG)

Chapter 2

It was three months ago that she asked to meet him at his condo. Kakatapos pa lamang nito mainterview sa isang hospital and they haven’t met for more than a week. Kahit gustong gusto niya makasama ang binata sa mga panahong iyon, she knew they needed space. It was more for her sake. Dahil labis na siyang nasasaktan sa mga nangyari at mangyayari pa.

Pinagbigyan siya nito asking what she wanted to eat and if she would be staying for the night. He acted like normal. Like him moping around because of the woman he still loves was a normal thing when he's been in a relationship with her for almost half a year. She never really replied to his questions before they met, dahil hindi naman siya magtatagal.

She arrived in his condo still wearing her white coat she usually wore while working. Pinapaalalahanan niya ang sarili niya na nandoon siya para isabi sa binata ng diretso ang kaniyang nararamdaman. She was there for business. "I want a break up, Tris." And she saw how his shoulder slumped when she finally broke the ice between them.

“I thought we’re okay.” Sabi niya habang naka upo sa kaniyang higaan, she was standing up beside his floor to ceiling window looking out. “I thought we’re going to work things out?” Punong puno ng tanong ang mga mata ni Tristan dahil sa disisyon niyang tapusin at putulin nalang ang relasyon nila.

Huminga siya ng malalim to stop herself from crying and backing out. All she wanted to do then was to cuddle with him and murmur reassuring words. But if she would do that mauubos na ang pagkatao niya. sa pagkakataong iyon sarili na niya ang kaniyang pinili. Hindi kasi pwedeng siya lamang ang magtatrabaho para sa relasyon nilang dalawa.

Tristan need to move on, on his own. He needs to walk alone and be happy with himself in order to learn to love again. At that point kasi ubos na ubos na ang pagmamahal na kayang ibigay ni Tabitha. “I thought I could too.” Mahina niyang bulong, enough for him to hear. “I thought I could love you without being loved back. Pero said na said na ako." Huminto siya para sa kaniyang sarili, pinipigilan niyang pumatak ang kaniyang luha. "I can’t keep giving you something that I don’t have anymore.” She was dejected saying that. She was trying to control her emotions not to blow like a bomb and be all over the place. “I don’t want this anymore. It hurts." She sighed looking away from him, dahil nakikita niya ang sakit sa mga mata ni Tristan. "Akala ko noon, watching you fall in love with Britney was the hardest part. Hindi pala iyon ang pinaka masakit.” Sa puntong iyon ay lumuha na siya. “What hurts the most is watching you still in love with her while we try to build something for us." May hikbing kumawala sa lalamunan niya habang umaagos ang mga luhang kay tagal na niyang pinigil. Sobra na ang sakit na nararamdaman niya. It was as if, their love affair was but one sided, and she was the only one loving him. "I can’t do it anymore. Hindi ko na kayang mahalin ka habang minamahal mo pa siya.”

Hindi na sumagot si Tristan and it was so disappointing. Katahimikan lamang ang binalik sakanya ng taong minahal niya ng ilang taon. She wanted him to stop her from leaving. She wanted him to beg her to stay. But he didn’t. He still loved Britney, kaya naman he stayed quiet. “I understand.” He finally broke the silence not even giving her eye contact.

“Good.” She said with haste trying to mask the tremble in her voice. Pinahid niya ang luhang nagmantsa sa kaniyang mga pisngi. She picked up her bag from the bedside chair na malapit sa bintana ng condo unit. “I’ll see you around Tris. I hope you could start your residency soon.” She gave him a final glance. He still wasn’t looking at her. He was looking out the window habang tumatango sa sinabi niya.

She could remember that one steamy night they shared in his bed. Tristan was a sensual lover. She would never forget. He was her first and will continue to be the only one. Habang buhay niya panghahawakan na minahal niya ang isang taong nagmamahal sa iba. They needed to stop or else she’ll eventually hate him, and she could never let herself do so. Hindi niya hahayaang puot na lamang ang maramdaman para sa taong mahal na mahal niya.

Dalawang linggo ang nakalipas.

Sinapo ni Tabitha ang kaniyang ulong nahihilo pa dahil alam niya na sakaniyang sarili na hindi iyon ang una at huli niyang pagsusuka sa araw na iyon. She’s been having episodes of vomiting since that morning and she did not manage to hold anything down. If this continues she had to file for an emergency leave. At kailangan din niya sigurong maghanap na ng ibang ospital na pupwede niyang pasukan sa nalalabing ilang buwan niya bilang second year OB-Gyne Resident.

Hindi kailangan ni Tristan malaman na sakaniya ang batang dinadala ni Tabitha. She would never trap him in a marriage that would eventually fall apart dahil mali ang naging pundasyon nito. And she was actually okay with the idea of being a single mom. Britney was actually raised by her mom as a single parent, and she turned out okay. The only thing that is worrying her right now would be the reaction of her father.

Tabitha’s mom died when she was just two years old and her father remarried when she was already thirteen. He then had five sons with her stepmom. Maayus naman ang relasyon nila mag-ama. He was actually the one always supporting her in her decisions. Subalit baka hindi nito suportahan ang desisyon niyang palakihin ng mag-isa ang kaniyang anak. Kaya napagdesisyonan nalamang niya na huwag na sabihin ang pagkakakilanlan ng ama ng kaniyang dinadala. She had just recently moved out of their family’s home. And she would always be welcomed back.

“Kaya mo pa ba? I could see you as one of the patient’s you know.” Nakangising saad ng kaniyang senior na si Elizabeth. She’s in her last months as a resident being a fourth year. Tabitha waved her off, that was when the next wave of nausea hit her and she once again emptied her stomach in the toilet. She was vomiting her bile out. “My goodness Tabi.” Tinulungan na siya nito sa paghawak ng kaniyang buhok na kamakailan lang ay mahaba pa. She had it chopped up to her neck. “Nurse Belinda! Paki kuha nga ng wheelchair natin. Lupaypay na si Doc Tabi dito sa banyo.” That was the last thing she heard dahil nawalan na siya ng malay.