Keeping Calm
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He visited me in my dreams. Surrounded by darkness, we stood 10 feet away. I stared as he stood there in all his glory, his eyes piercing my soul. His eyes fighting the darkness. They switch from a florescent green to a midnight black. Something about this mysterious man sends chills down my spine. How could a mere silhouette of a stranger stir so much emotion inside of me? What is his name ? Where is he from and what does he want?! So lost in the mystery of who he is I barely noticed the sweat that dripped from my forehead. My hands are all clammy and as if my body has not betrayed me enough already, my stomach is overtaken with butterflies... I can't help but admire the man in front of me. He stands about 6 feet tall, medium built yet even in the darkness his aurora screams warrior! My body begins to tingle and I can't help but feel like a teenage girl who has her first crush. I wish it wasn't so dark. Why do I suddenly feel so possessive? "That is because he belongs to US ." Zuri's voice inside my head caught me by surprise. Then the man in front of me did what I was dreading yet yearning for all at the same damn time ! He started to approach me ! "No ! STAY BACK!! My breaths became shorter and my heart started to race. "MEL STAY CALM, IT'S OKAY HE WON'T HURT US." Zuri spoke again trying to calm my humanly counterpart. "Zuri you know i'm not ready! I Can't take over a pack and find my mate all at once ! I can't handle that type of stress!" "KEEP CALM MELODY AND STOP DOUBTING YOURSELF ! YOU ARE A ALPHA FOR MOON GODDESS SAKE!" The growl that followed her words made me whimper at her anger towards me. All she wants is for the Alpha in us to be set free, but anxiety wins again. Zuri reassures me that is but a dream that I need to gain control of. " 1 2 3 4 5 6 BREATHE. 1 2 3 4 5 6 DEEP BREATHS AND KEEP CALM MEL. I have not failed you this far and I do not plan to ever do so." This time Zuri spoke with pure sadness and that I just could not bare....
I woke up in a pool of sweat nasty and sticky. Clearly this dream which felt all to real was affecting more than just my sleeping state of mind. I felt so disappointed and defeated. I look over and see that I have only been sleep for 3 hours. The smell of freshly made pizza and garlic knots slip under the crack of my room causing a growl to seep from my stomach. A shower seems to be the only cure at this moment before dinner. I turn the water on and only enter once it looks like a sauna. My reflection barley seen through the mirror. I let my hair loose and enter the shower. The firey water runs down my body causing my muscles to tense and then loosen. My body needed this. I let my thoughts run wild in my head. Thought after thought , emotion after emotion running rampid. My eyes are stinging and I let out a whisper that even the best wolf with the greatest hearing would have trouble hearing. "Why can't I be normal? Why is it so hard to live up to the expectation of the one's I love the most..." I wash the suds of soap off my body and continue to insult my being. " Why are you such a freak. Some alpha you are. You can't even hold it together for one full day!"
That was it. That was my last straw. The battle with myself was in full affect. I refuse to sit here and down myself and attack myself for something I know I can get hold of ! Anxiety will no longer defeat me. No this will not be easy and everyday won't be sunshines and rays but I WILL OVERCOME THIS. I started to practice the methods me and Zuri do everyday in the meadow and counted down while deep breathing. I stepped out of the shower,wrapped the towel around my lightly tanned curvy body and walked straight up to the steam masked mirror. I wiped it clear and spoke from the pit of my stomach strong clear and loud. " I am MELODY MOONWRIGHT, DAUGHTER OF THE MOST RESPECTED ALPHA SAMUEL AND BELOVED LUNA ELENI. I AM THE FUTURE ALPHA LEADER OF THE MOONLIT PACK AND I WILL BE GREAT! I WILL REIGN AND I WILL BE ALL I AM DESTINED TO BE BECAUSE I . AM. WORTHY." For the first time I felt the alpha aurora in me be set free, and boyyy did it feel good. Zuri chuckled in my head and i could feel the smirk forming on my face as she spoke her next words "There's my girl..."
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